It's hard to put into words how I feel about this book. It's heartbreaking and tragic as it realistically portrays the pain of suicide, depression, and anxiety, but it's hopeful in that it doesn't end there. The beauty of this story is that it gives lasting hope to those who are struggling with mental health while encouraging them to hold on a little longer.
These kinds of books are so needed in our world where mental health is stigmatized, but people aren't often given any hope beyond our present world. Whether you've gone through mental struggles yourself or you just want to better understand mental illness, I would encourage you to read this book.
Characters: Each of the characters was so well-crafted and deep. They really are what made this book so good!
While I liked Brooke, my favorite character was Merrick. He was so sweet and sincere, wanting to do what was best for his little sister even though he made mistakes along the way. I love that he stayed loyal to Brooke and refused to give up on her, even when she ran away from him.
I loved watching the arc between Merrick and his father unfold, especially as they grew to forgive and understand each other better towards the end. Their story gives me hope that any relationship can be restored, no matter how broken and hopeless it may seem.
I liked Brooke, but it was hard to be inside her head for too long. While I sympathized with her feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness, it could get depressing after a while. That's why it was nice to get Merrick's perspective, which was much lighter.
My heart broke for her though. The poor girl went through so much, and her story was a tragic reminder of how deeply the wrong choices of other people can affect us. I admire that even though she experienced so much trauma, she grew stronger because of it, and she was willing to do the hard work of fighting the dark lies inside her head. I especially loved that she used writing to heal from her trauma. Writing is a wonderful remedy, and I love that the author brought this out.
The romance between Merrick and Brooke was cute and adorable, yet serious and committed at the same time. I loved that they were each able to help the other in some way. Merrick helped Brooke come out of the dark pit of despair and Brooke helped Merrick with his grief.
Coral was another favorite. Her sweet relationship with her oldest sister and her desire to help her really tugged at my heart. I was also intrigued by the idea that Coral could see life in more vivid colors from the others.
Plot: Sara Ella did a great job keeping me on my toes! Despite the fact the story seemed to be somewhat predictable from the premise, I was surprised by how many twists there were.
I did not see the midpoint twist coming at all. I think she could have set it up a little better and given a few more clues as it was confusing, but it certainly turned the story on its head and gave it more depth.
The ending, surprisingly, had a fairytale-like quality to it, despite the heaviness of the rest of the book, which made my fairytale-loving self very happy! It ended perfectly with a hint of grief and pain that still made it realistic.
Sara Ella's prose is just lovely. She really has a way with words! Her descriptions, especially of Coral's underwater world, were so vivid and haunting. I could really envision it. Fathoms House sounded so peaceful, and I loved the aura Sara Ella created around it. It seems like a beautiful place to visit!
Themes: Coral broke me and put me back together again. It made me cry like no other book has done in a long, long time. It was the perfect mix of the brokenness of this world with hope for eternity where there will be no more sorrow and pain.
As I mentioned at the beginning, this book deals heavily with dark themes like depression, anxiety, self-harm, and suicide. There are many sad, desperate scenes in the book, but they're balanced out by many beautiful, life-filled scenes in the book too. Sara Ella did a fantastic job carefully balancing the dark and light in a mature way. That's not an easy task!
I loved the theme that love gives us a reason to live. The author used the example of other people's love as the lifeline during hard times, but that could easily apply to the love of Christ too. Our lives are valuable because Christ died for us, and He loves us so much. Suicide is never the solution, even if it seems to be the last resort. In the end, it only causes more pain to the people around you and ultimately, you.
These difficult mental health problems are challenging to navigate in a way that is accurate but sensitive to others, but I thought Sara Ella did a great job portraying them. It was eye-opening and relatable, as I realized I was not the only one who has had these thoughts and feelings before, but it was a beautiful reminder that I don't have to live enslaved to them. It is possible to overcome them and live a satisfying life.
Content: Depression, anxiety, and suicide are mentioned and discussed. You are given an honest glimpse inside the minds of characters who struggle with both depression and anxiety. Attempted suicide is shown, and the suicide of a character is described, although not graphically.
For those of you who have dealt with mental struggles before, I would caution you to be in a good place before you read this, and don't be afraid to take it slowly. Be aware that some of the scenes may be triggering for you. I've dealt with anxiety and depression in the past, and though I wasn't triggered, it did leave me sad and disturbed. While I think the author handled these issues really well, I just wanted to make sure you were aware of that!