this author knows how to create characters who make my heart ache.
content/trigger warnings; explicit sex, blood play, bdsm, mentions of past abusive relationship and date-rape, mentions of self-harm/cutting, vomiting, tarantula, ptsd, depression, alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, ableism, slut shaming, mentions of past cheating,
rep; michael (mc) is demiromantic and bi, has ptsd and depression. victor (li) is pansexual. corey (sc) is bisexual.
whew. this book. i’d die for michael and victor. their relationship is one of the most open, honest, and caring relationships i’ve read in a while. they’re so great. they deserve nothing but happiness. there’s a lot of healing, self-acceptance, and growth in this book. there’s so much focus put on consent and communication and safe words, it’s just......we stan.
as someone who doesn’t like gratuitous sex or sex that takes away from emotional depth in books, i really enjoyed this. the author says it’s erotica full stop, but i think what makes all the sex work for me is that the healing, emotional depth, and relationship and character development that happens in this book, happens through the sex. the sex in this isn’t the kind of sex that you could just skip or even skim really and not miss anything. and it’s a little funny, because i felt this relationship had more emotional and romantic depth than the one in darkling/undertow, which the author said are more romance than this one. idk. i’m still shelving this as romance because i’m not making an erotica shelf, sorry author.