My problem is that with all the illnesses and addictions I have (anxiety, depression, compulsive shopping, overeating), I always fall somewhere in the middle. That makes it hard for me to be helped by books like this one. I have eaten so much fast food this year (I'm talking lunch and dinner and sometimes breakfast, lunch, and dinner) that I finally wanted to find a way out of this madness. My addictions are eating out (linked with spending money), and pizza and ice cream. I had an epiphany one day when I realized that I couldn't just eat part of a pint. I knew I would always eat the whole thing. I was telling myself that I couldn't deprive myself my entire life. But then it clicked: I'm addicted to this and the way it makes me feel. I will never eat just a little bit of a Ben & Jerry's pint. That's the food I have been abstaining from. Pizza is more difficult, because my fiancé's family eats tons of it here. Or at least once weekly. I was so proud the other night, however, when I only had three pieces and a popsicle for dessert. This is HUGE progress for me. I prefer reversing the addiction in my brain rather than abstaining from "trigger foods" the rest of my life (as this book suggests).
This book is highly repetitive. I did like that the author, Kay Sheppard, has struggled with food addiction herself. It helps that she knows what she's talking about. But this book deals with binging and purging, something I have never done. Believe me, when I was younger I tried to make myself vomit. But I learned quickly that I'm not one who can do that. I actually have a major gag reflex, so it seems like it would be easy, but it doesn't work that way. I only vomit once a year, if even that, and only if I'm majorly sick. Usually I just get a cold that's over within a couple of days. Nor have I ever eaten an entire cabinet of food (though I did eat four bowls of Lucky Charms one day when I was younger and super hungry). I've never stolen money for food. I don't have to hide my eating habits from others. But, of course, I've received comments on my weight gain from excessively eating out and also been told that I need to stop eating so much junk. I didn't like that I was so dominated by mealtimes. And I find it hard to watch TV/movies without food in front of me. So I have a problem, an addiction, clearly, but it's not bad enough as to make me the intended audience for this book.
I am disappointed, because I hoped this book would help me more than it did. It is worthy of note that Sheppard treats food addiction as an addiction and not as a weight problem to be fixed by diets. I'm glad she recognizes that food CAN be an addiction and it DOES overtake people in a way that it doesn't with others. Her solution is abstinence from all trigger foods. Now, for those of you who have been taught abstinence as an effective form of birth control than you know that it ISN'T. For me, with my lifestyle and where I currently live, maintaining a diet of, like, extremely limited dairy, very few meats, and nothing but vegetables (as she recommends) would kill my entire spirit not to mention frustrate everyone around me. Again I'll say, it shouldn't be one extreme or the other. Why can't we figure out how to beat this in our minds? Why doesn't she teach portion control? Sheppard takes the approach that all sugar, all wheats, and all flour will cause a person to binge. I won't deny the validity of this in some cases. But I'd venture a guess that most people who are addicted to food have a very specific relationship to it (duh) so it's usually the same comfort foods one goes back to over and over to binge on. In my case, as stated, it's pints of Ben & Jerry's and pizza (most often Papa John's). Portion control and self-control in these areas is often not possible for me. I know that ice cream makes me want more ice cream, even if it's not in a pint. I don't know how to order a small anything off any menu. So maybe I should abstain from all ice cream and pizza as a solution. But completely eschewing dessert? I'm headed to the Disney College Program next semester, and outlawing any food that actually tastes GOOD is not a possibility. I think it's more constructive to realize you have an addiction but also to begin seeing food as FUEL for your body and not something you eat while you watch TV or whatever. Not something you go out and buy because you are alone and you need comfort (as I tend to do when I have money). But I believe we have to learn to beat this in our heads and not just by our actions. Who says that the addiction gene has to continue living there? If the only solution is abstaining then it will always come back in full force. In fact, Sheppard even includes a testimony at the very end about a girl who tried the abstinence program but quickly relapsed and only recovered from food addiction once she found God. Hmmm.
If you are in advance stages of food addiction despair, this book might prove useful to you. More often, though, like any addict, you have to find it in yourself (or outside) to quit. I finally decided to be more aware recently of my portions and what I put in my mouth. I am practicing mindfulness and getting rid of the compulsions - I am attempting to think before I eat or decide to go and get fast food. I am reversing old patterns, which is TOUGH - it's a constant push and pull. But I'm not going to sacrifice sugar, wheats, and flour for the rest of my life. I want to live a full life, not a life devoid of something. I wouldn't feel in control of myself, I would feel like it's just another plan of avoidance. I don't hide or avoid my feelings, and that's not why I eat the way I do. If you don't ignore emotions to begin with (and, in fact, you feel too much), I wouldn't think you'd need to be on such a strict diet regimen. My problem is not learning control. It should be acknowledged that this has to be learned and practiced. Complete abstinence of anything often leads to disaster.