I feel like I'm missing something. The "Heroine" is always dumping on herself for this almost entire book. She's totally kickass, she just doesn't know it yet. Although she needs to stand up for herself, she lets people walk all over her wayyy to often.
She keeps mentioning incidents. The Void breaking, her time as a librarian in the assassins guild, and her super badass bitch friend Malina, who has a hellhound companion and guards the gates to the underworld. Then there's whole story about her ex and Penelope.
Was there a series before this? As I pondered this I remember the book still unread on my shelf. Immortal Bound (The Aspara Chronicles #1) then I remember it's by T.G. Ayer not Debbie Cassidy.
Then I did a little bit of searching. The Gatekeeper Chronicles was written by a Dina Givens and a Jasmine Walt. The leading characters were named Emma Hayes (dina's) and Malina Hayes (jasmines) from there I figured it out. Although it's not immediately obvious, Debbie Cassidy co-authored the series which is why you won't find it under the author profile if you view this on a mobile device.
Drake, her ex, used her as a beard the entire time and totally, bottom of the barrel, downgraded her for that waste of life. What the hell is wrong with this picture? She's sweet, careing, pure hearted, will go out of her way to do things for you, and will put your needs above her own. And he dumps her for Penelope. Penn is self-centered, self-serving, possessive, petty, cognitively and emotionally immature, gold digging social climber, and she treats Drake like a second class citizen but tries not to be obvious about it. What The Hell Is Wrong With This Picture?
Let's not forget the sweet caring guy, with a cultivated image, that guenuinely likes her for herself and wants her with him in that "your the first thing I want to see in the morning" kind of way. And she has no chemistry with him, even if he feels sparks. Depressing.
Last but not least, is the guy she fell in love with. He feels the exact same way but is about to loose her in favor of a political marriage to a woman she can't compete with. (I'm not sure about the woman. He doesn't love her. But he's not exactly blind to her beauty and emotional messages either. He doesn't want to marry her, but I get the impression he'd have no problem with having a Fling with her that lasted a couple of months. You'll see what I mean towards the end of the book. Hard to describe but accurate.) from what I've read so far I don't think she'll ever really get over him. Especially since he's going out of his way to make them keep contact even if it hurts her.
Finally we have the immortal who's looking for a mate that the heroine wants to be anyone but her. Sure he's handsome, powerful, can be dotating if overbearing, and is over protective in that patriarchal society kind of way. This is basically how the character feels in my own words, "He's beautiful, but so is a white tiger. Just because it's beauty is enthralling doesn't mean I want to fuck it." That pretty much sums it up.
I can't wait till book 2!!!