If I could rate lower, I would. Wow, where to begin..
I guessed every single "twist" in the book in record time. I knew about the secret enterance after she got out of the bath. I genuinely believed Sid when he said he didnt drink her milk or get her rent money - man seemed to give her the space she demanded after she threatened him. I knew something was wrong with "Curtis" from his first scene when he makes a comment about her shirt. I knew "Curtis" didn't give the letter to his friend to get in touch with "Arlo." I knew "Arlo" had drugged her food. I mean, seriously, I figured someone was living in the basement right after the bathtub scene as well.
I hated the main character. Or, possibly, I hate how the author tried to make me feel bad for Nya because she was a poor college student trying to escape her culty religion and live a life shes happy with. All this girl did was push aside sign after sign after frigging sign that she needs to l e a v e. (Like the welcome mat that only said "leave" at the store that she literally took as a sign) As a woman, if I go into a house that I'm about to rent a room at and the FIRST thing my new roommate, who I am meeting for the FIRST TIME, says is "hey, pretty girl" you can best your last dollar I'm storming out of there and living in my car at that Wal-Mart parking lot she kept mentioning.
I hated how Nya was using Curtis for food and an excuse not to go back to her "horrible roommate" who literally left her alone the entire book. Put aside Curtis and just picture any nice guy who seems to really like Nya and want to be with her -it's not nice to use people. I really didn't appreciate reading how this character would "wait until the end of the semester" because she didn't want to buy herself food. She knew how little her budget was when she moved there to do her last 20 some credit rushed semester to finish college a little early. Her whole "pity me, I'm poor so I don't have many options" argument doesn't work because she literally chose this life for herself.
Her attachment to Jade was heavily frustrating. At the very beginning of the book, I got the vibe that this book was going to turn into Nya's strange path to realize she was interested im women and wanted to be with her best friend, Jade. This didn't happen and the only reason that thought left my mind was because she started to talk about Jade less and less. At times, Nya checking her phone and seeing a text from Jade felt incredibly forced because the author needed us to remember shes still a character.
The author wasted so much of my time trying to build tension. If you narrowed down all the tension in this book to the amount of tension actually NEEDED for the story to progress, the book would probably be less than half as long as it is.
Nya claims several tomes that Jade's opinion means so much to her, but when it came down to asking her for advice, Nya didn't open up to Jade because she knew Jade would tell her to leave that situation. The one and only time she asked for Jade's advice (in the VERY beginning, she completely disregarded what Jade said even thought Jade supposedly knows the correct action. How can this author spend so much time painting Jade as the most influencial and important person in her life, but when Nya needs guidance, she doesn't want Jade to worry or tell her to leave while she is LITERALLY AFRAID FOR HER LIFE OF THIS MAN?
This book gives heavy YA trying so hard to be an adult book vibes. I was so desperate to feel better about this book that I even read it's hidden chapter. Once again, disappointing.
Don't even get me STARTED on how many times she says "suck it up, buttercup" as a way to tell herself she has to get through this as if she can't literally just leave the situation and never look back.
Also, the author tried so hard to be different from other writers and to make sure the book was descriptive enough (it was beyond enough, by the way. Annoyingly descriptive to the point where you want to skip paragraphs at a time to get back to the story) was uncomfortably obvious. The first ones that come to mind arewhen Nya says her body feels like "Jello" instead of jelly (just, why? Who phrases it like that?) and the amoumt of times she calls her quilt, her "scripture quilt." The woman has only one quilt. After the first time you call it that amd describe what the quilt is, the reader knows exactly what that quilt is because she literally has 0 other quilts that it could be.
I have had so many words to say anout this book over the last two days and I read through this book so quickly that I am probably forgetting a bunch of stuff. I am sure I will be adding more that I may have forgotten to this review later, stay tuned.