The time it took me to finish Nureyev has got to be some kind of record. This is an insanely long, packed-to-the-gills with details book. The research phase was obviously undertaken by Ms Kavanagh with extraordinary zeal, and I wouldn’t be surprised if the little blurb by the Sunday Telegraph on the back cover, hailing it as Nureyev’s “definitive biography”, was actually true.
That said, and even though it was a thick, thick book, complete with annoyingly tiny print, in the end I really enjoyed it. I have had a slight obsession with male ballet dancers lately, and Nureyev was the obvious one to start learning about (I should mention that I’m French and that Nureyev has left quite an imprint on culture here, what with Paris being the place he defected to, as well as his tenure as director of dance to the Paris Opéra).
I’m always on board with learning about tortured geniuses, but that’s one thing I learned in this biography: that despite his huge cultural impact and lasting legacy, Nureyev might not have been such a genius after all (at least not a dance genius; one could argue he was a marketing wizard though). That’s something that had been touched on in a documentary I had seen prior to reading this book, and which was confirmed: that yes he was good, probably even very good, but not a once-in-a-lifetime gifted dancer like, say, Baryshnikov. But that made him all the more interesting, since his originality, complete dedication to his craft and burning charisma more than made up for it and account for the fact that he generally nowadays finds himself lumped with such above-the-fray artists.
So maybe not genius, but tortured, definitely. The psychological portrait I end up with is that of a complex person to say the least, whose childhood and defining act (his defection) left him with various character traits and underlying fears which are explored at length: guilt, fear of poverty and abandonment, infuriating entitlement and deep, deep nostalgia for and idealization of his homeland, even as he knew he had made the right decision leaving, and would have been miserable had he stayed.
Let’s talk for a minute about this defection. Some people might call it a selfish act, being fully aware as he was of the consequences this would have for his family back home. However, my view is that, sometimes, selfishness can be admirable, and this is one such case. You need some guts to make that decision and break the unending cycle of duty-bound stunted and miserable living. He knew that he had talent, he knew the purpose of his life, he knew what he needed to do to fulfill it, and he worked his ass off to achieve it in the West once the deed was done.
Having the self-confidence to do that in the first place may lie in the special treatment which was lavished upon him as his family’s only boy sibling, but it seems from reading this biography that there was also a healthy dose of innate self-esteem in him, which shone through his whole life and was a major part of his appeal.
And that’s one other thing: I have to say that I finished this book having a less positive opinion of the man than I had before diving in. The bitchy diva side he had to him, expecting everything to revolve around him and people to be available to him day and night to fulfill his every whim, not picking up a single check even while wealthy enough to own six properties in three different countries (and even though the author suggests this might derive from his days of growing up in poverty and being terrified of ending up in it again, as well as from his deep-rooted abandonment issues, driving him to test his inner-circle loyalties over and over again) is a side of him I despise, even as I have a little trouble feeling sorry for all the “friends” he took advantage of (especially, but not restricted to, women) and who seemed happy to indulge him in exchange for the tiniest bit of his attention. With the exception, maybe, of the Goslings, it just didn’t come across that Rudolf truly cared about any of these people, and may actually have felt contempt toward their groveling attempts to earn his favors (I can’t count how many time people are quoted as saying: “He/she would have done anything for him.”)
Which might have actually been fine with him, since he never tried to create genuine bonds with anybody, the severance from his family and only real (but doomed) love story with Erik Bruhn having apparently led him to shun any attachment.
Like I said, his was a complex personality which is explored here at length, along with the career of this bigger-than-life character who had to choose between his art and truly meaningful relationships, and who made this choice in the most spectacular way, for better or for worse. His life acquired some sort of almost mythical status as a result, life which is more than thoroughly chronicled in this monster of a book exploring every facet, from the sublime (the attitude and extraordinary dignity he displayed in the last months of his life, literally living every second to the fullest, the culminating point of this period being the triumph of La Bayadère in Paris, which were extraordinarily moving passages to read about) to the sordid (this is the same man who allegedly took a dump on the steps of a man he felt wronged by), of this truly extraordinary (in the very literal sense of the word) man.