Seek the truth, and God will find you
I have read one other work by Father Benson, Lord of the World, an amazing prophetic, apocalyptic novel, marred only by his somewhat archaic style. This work speaks more plainly, perhaps because it is autobiographical, perhaps because Benson is speaking from his heart, without projecting a future persons that probably did not come so easily. Benson's honesty and clarity in describing his spiritual and intellectual journey from Anglican cleric to Roman Catholic priest is, for me, the most appealing aspect of this work. He does not spare his dignity in recounting the various reactions of family and colleagues, the criticism, slander, accusations, pity, sadness, and praise he met with even before making his final choice.
These responses in their turn only prompted a greater resolve to explore further all aspects of Catholicism, attempting to understand its Catholicity, that is, its universal and timeless truth that stands firm against the sin and shame and flawed reasoning of human nature, universal truth of Jesus Christ and the Gospels, and the necessity of accepting God's grace.
It is only through that grace, and with it the power of the Holy Spirit, that the weak human intellect can grasp God's word and believe it, especially those parts that non-Christians find difficult or impossible to accept. For example, the rich young man in the Gospel who wanted spiritual perfection but walked away from Jesus unable to let go of his many possessions, or King Henry VIII who could not accept the Pope's refusal to annul his marriage to Catherine of Aragon, or the random dogmas that sometimes prevent our total surrender to God's will. All these obstacles to faith must be overcome with grace, and man must be a willing collaborator to confirm his wholehearted trust in God. What Benson writes between the lines is the process of divine grace at work in a sincere soul who seeks truth. As one of my own religious mentors said once, "if you are honestly seeking the truth, God will find you."