✰ 3 stars ✰
“Privilege was an awful, beautiful thing.”
When his older brother John confesses to murder, TJ knows that as an off-the-books investigator for his family's law firm, he'll do whatever it takes to help his brother out. Call it brotherly love or family obligation or simply to make amends for past transgressions he's put his family through. 'Not that I have anything against money. Money has something against me.' 😔 As he investigates deeper into the victim's murders, certain truths and secrets start to unravel, as well as his own family's loyalty and apprehensiveness of his own involvement in the investigation. It only worsens when he feels that sharp sting of betrayal that sets a course for his own personal life to fall apart - a positive image he's worked so hard to maintain in front of his family. Making the tough choices and the right decisions, TJ realizes that the only way for him to make it out alive from the dangerous scheme he's found himself trapped in is for The Truth about the Devlins to come out - even at the cost of their prestige and family legacy. 😟
“I’ve shared my own experiences, and it’s cringeworthy to look back and realize that was me. One way to come to terms with our past is to live in the present.
Another way is to view our past through a more compassionate lens.”
Ah, poor TJ - you really had the odds stacked against you, but I enjoyed watching you work your way out of all the binds that you found yourself in. The writing was an interesting fit - part humorous, part creative, oftentimes intense, and even morbidly funny. 'When we were growing up, she used to save wrapping paper and give us blank birthday cards so they could be reused. The first time she signed my birthday card, I knew we were rich.' 😅 But, it set the tone at a fast pace, capturing how pressed for time TJ was - and any minute lost or misstep could land him in more disastrous waters than intended. While it is a mystery, at the heart of it, it is also an emotional family drama - a family that has witnessed its fair share of misconduct with TJ, leading them to be distrustful of his actions and demeanor at times, but in no way a fault of his own. He was such a victim of his family's harsh criticism and opinion of him, and how his brother threw him under the car - figuratively, of course. 🥺
While that did make him a character with flaws, that didn't mean he was a flawed character; because, he never stopped fighting to prove his past wrong. 👍🏻 A recovering alcoholic - he paid for the mistakes he made - he owned up to it, and it hurt when something he fought so hard to keep true would be challenged. That feeling of frustration over his own family's disbelief of his innocence was portrayed in a really powerful way - one that I felt so intensely sorry for him. 'I could see you felt terrible. You thought it was your worst day, but I thought it was your best.' And he really does go through the wringer on an emotional and physical level - fighting so hard to redeem himself, when he wasn't even guilty of anything! And that's what made him someone to root for! He was determined, he was focused, he was so insistent on proving his innocence that I really felt for him. 😥 TJ didn't deny or hide from his drunken past, but every day he worked hard to keep his sobriety; he was proud of it, and it hurt to see how often it was challenged. His feelings on that front played a pivotal role in his investigation - a crime and murder mystery that was happening simultaneously while his family's empire was steadily falling apart.
“My family was breaking up, and I didn’t know how we would ever be the Devlins again. I wondered what it really meant to be a Devlin in the first place.”
The author did a good job in capturing the Devlin family in a way that I got to know just enough about their history and their relationship with each other. TJ's parents and siblings, John and Gabby, made for a very interesting unit. I liked that with each respective person, TJ's personality and demeanor was different - it made him a dynamic character, one that didn't feel flat, despite how I sometimes would raise an eyebrow at a certain wording or phrase that tended to offset the tempo of the story. 🙍🏻♀️ A personal reading preference, where I like to have a certain seriousness to the writing, to make me feel the tension of the situation. I'm all for breaking the fourth wall and all, but there were a few instances, where if it wasn't used, it would have been much better. 🤷🏻♀️ The uniqueness of it was how TJ was involved in different ways with each character, and the author converged the storylines into one - that actually made sense. And on a side note, I love that his full name wasn't revealed till the end - a reveal that totally paid off in style. 👌🏻👌🏻
'We’re all human and we all make mistakes. Some of us pay for them, but not all of us.'
At first, I was a bit wary of how everything would come together, but it was pulled off nicely, albeit a bit too - uh, not preachy, but too, what's the word - not too judgmental, but like it was trying too hard to prove a point - thus, making the climax and conclusion the weakest parts for me - too predictably popcorn-y for me to take seriously, despite the seriousness of the situation. 😕 After reading the Afterword, I respect what the author was intending to capture; it is a heartbreaking and eye-opening truth that is hard to accept, but impossible to deny. 'It’s a check on misconduct, that’s all. There has to be rules. That’s why we have laws.' I will give credit that as my first read by this author, it wasn't as disappointing as it could have been. It was a fast-paced legal and domestic thriller with some intriguing twists and turns. It is a harsh and bitter glimpse of how those with power abuse it to whatever means they deem fit - at the expense of others. Rounded of with a likable protagonist who had his moment to really grow as a character, it was a decent read that kept me entertained and invested, for sure. ☺️