I don’t know what I expected when I started to read this book. I glimpsed the blurb, but I didn’t read it thoroughly because I find that blurbs can set a book up for failure if it doesn’t accurately describe what the book was about. Looking at the cover, I thought this book would be a thriller, but ultimately it was more of a character study about a teenage girl who finds herself all alone in the world and must navigate her way through to survive.
For as long as she can remember, Harlow and her mother have been on the run. They have moved from town to town at a moment's notice, changing their identities when Cora, Harlow’s mom, senses danger. What danger is this? Harlow doesn’t know because Cora won’t tell her. Cora also won’t tell Harlow much about her life before Harlow was born, and she won’t let her touch her. Cora loves Harlow very much, but she loves her from a distance. Cora isn’t the hugging kind of mother. All these things, the running, the lying, and the lack of physical emotion, leaves Harlow in a head space full of resentment and uncertainty. She wants to believe her mom, but how can she when her mother never tells her what’s going on. She never lets Harlow in, never lets her get too close. So, when Cora dies in a horrible accident, what is Harlow to do? Should she continue running from whatever they were running from or should she find somewhere to settle down?
The journey and character development for Harlow is really the main focus of this book. There are mystery and thriller elements, but they take a back seat to Harlow’s coming of age story as a lonely distraught young woman in a world where she is invisible. The reader goes along with Harlow on her journey back to her mother’s childhood home to discover what Cora was running from. And, the first step to doing that is finding out what happened to her grandmother Eve.
On Harlow’s journey, there are plenty of new experiences for her, potential dangers, and many threats to her both physically and emotionally. But, there is also hope, love, and a feeling of belonging to both a place and family that Harlow develops. And, we get to experience with her all of these new positive things she’s never had before.
Harlow is an exceptionally vulnerable character. She is easy to love and root for. You want nothing but the best for her as she sets out alone. She can come off having a tiny bit more of teenage angst than she needs, but the reader must remember that her upbringing is quite a jarring way to be raised. How would anyone turn out if they were constantly moving, could plant no roots, and had her mother as her only friend?
This book is filled with twists and turns. The beginning is a slow burn mystery and tragedy while the last quarter of the book is a fast paced thriller. It’s filled with twists and turns. The emotional depth and empathy are turned up to the max and executed to their full potential.
Thank you @turnthepagetours and Margaret K. McElderry Books and Simon and Schuster Children’s Publishing for providing this eArc for review. All opinions are my own.