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300 pages, Paperback
First published January 1, 1991
“[M]ost people have little idea what happens when someone you love goes mad, of the maelstroms that can engulf you. I believe there is still a distressing gap between the professional perception of living with schizophrenia and the actual experience of what occurs.” Anne Deveson, Tell Me I’m Here: One Family’s Experience With Schizophrenia (p.260).
This is a horrible, terrible, beautiful story of the life of author Anne Deveson’s son Jonathan. The saga is gripping. From the onset of his schizophrenia as a mid-teen until he burned out, the book chronicles his mother’s doomed fight to protect her son from himself when he would not or could not do so. He died as he lived, filthy and homeless; he was unreached, unrepentant, and unsuccessfully served by the mental health community.
Setting this story to paper must have been cathartic. The author’s description of her son’s descent into madness and the total collapse of any sense of normalcy within the family made the ordeal terrifying.
I was dismayed by the mother’s failure to protect Jonathan’s two younger siblings from the worst behaviors of a historically dangerous and often psychotic older brother. There is no way that these two siblings made it out unscathed, but hey, this is the mother’s and brother’s story, not theirs.
My rating: 7.25/10, finished 1/16/22 (3614).