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Do you have a right to terminate your life?

The suspiciously increasing rate of deaths in terminal patients left an indelible trace of doubt in Pol. Cap. Wasan's mind. His mother, who had just passed away only a few days before he arrived his hometown, might be one of the victims of this incident.

Guntapat, a palliative doctor who had taken care of Wasan's mother in her final days, became the one who took care of her son's heart in his sorrowful days as well. As their relationship went deeper, the mystery was gradually unraveled and every clue in this case led to Guntapat. How could Wasan break through this dilemma and trust his lover with all of his heart?

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Published November 6, 2019

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1,349 reviews199 followers
February 5, 2023
The translation was a little rough but omg, did the riveting plot and adorable couples make up for it. Loved the appearance of Dr. Bunn from Manner of Death, and the side couple Tum/Kong! The gray areas of life that the plot asks us to consider are super good food for thought, too.
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275 reviews
January 28, 2025
I'm biased but I don't care. I'm here after watching the drama, so of course I'm crying. Cuz this had the perfect ending!!! 😭😭😭
March 5, 2025
Loved literally everything about this book. It requires you to..open your mind you could say. There’s many conversational topics within the book. Questions that just don’t have answers, and of course more of a free ending. It ended, but did it really? And you see many views, and own personal challenges. People had their own reasons for things, which made the things they did seem right. But were they? That what i loved. It’s a mystery that keeps you guessing, but at the same time has every answer there. You just have to look. You just have to think.

TELL ME WHY
THE BOOK HAD SUCH A SWEET ENDING
BUT THE SHOW WAS SO GUT WRENCHING.

quotes….more like whole ass paragraphs but whatever.

“"It's a mercy killing, a practice that helps patients end their lives at their own will."
"Thank you. It may still illegal in Thailand. However, these days, the practice is legal in some countries, such as Switzerland, Belgium, Netherlands, and in some states of the United States." Guntapat pressed a button to change the slide.
"The right to live or die belong to whom exactly? Many people would say, it depends on the context of each case. In the case that the patients were fully conscious, they could choose for themselves. However, in the case of vegetative stage patients, the decision mainly belongs to the patients' family members. In Thailand, the most we can do is to comply with the National Health Act entitled the Right to Die, stating that, 'a person shall have the right to express one's desire regarding their treatment methods or to refuse the treatment service, which is provided merelyto prolong his or her terminal stage of life, to die peacefully and retain human dignity.' Mercy killing is not explicitly mentioned in the text, as well as providing a patient with an equipment for ending his or her life."
A foreign movie poster appeared on the screen. The protagonist of the story was diagnosed with bone cancer in a spreading stage and he decided to end his life in the country that allow the practice of euthanasia.
"The word 'Euthanasia' is literally consisted of two words: 'good' and
'death' putting them together means 'good death' or 'peaceful death' which has a different meaning from the word 'assisted suicide' or assisting someone to die. Therefore, your answer might not precisely fit.”
(I thought this was just a really interesting take. One thing that i loved about this book was this concept of legal vs illegal. Ultimately, doesn’t the final decision come from the patient? But then there’s that chance the patient was unstable, didn’t know what they were saying. I just think the whole question of “The right to live or die belongs to whom?” is such an interesting topic to discuss.)

“He didn't understand why he brought himself into this situation with a man he just met for only a few weeks. The man whom he still considered a stranger, but strangely attractive. He wanted to know more about him. He wanted to know what the man thinks, to be near him, to be touched by him, hugged by him, kissed by him. He wanted to challenge that dangerous aura emitting from this seductive gaze and voice which were hard to refuse. Wasan knew that he was playing with fire, but he felt like it was worth the risk.”
(I LOVED their relationship. It was sort of a slow-burn i guess you could say, but undoubtedly they both had immense chemistry and emotions for each other, even if they openly didn’t act on it.)

“'T'm going blind. I cannot see anyone but you.'”
(P’Wasan was actually going insane over everything P’Gunn said to him.)

“A manner of death....”
(A manner of death mentioned??? Well, of course, it’s the same author. MoD is def on my next to read but i absolutely adored the show.)

“"What the heck?"
Wasan grumbled in a low voice and rushed out of the elevator. Pretended like nothing had happened.
"No worries. This elevator doesn't have any security cameras."
"Then tell them to install some,"
Wasan growled. He quickly stepped away from Gunn.
"If they do, then we couldn't do that anymore."
"You, just shut up!"”
(“I don’t like him!!” P’Wasan says, while his heart is literally pounding out of his chest. Pretty sure he just gets ‘aggressive’ when he’s flustered.)

“"You know I can't say that."
"I understand. As long as this mess hasn't unraveled, you wouldn't trust me."
Gunn reached for Wasan's hand on the fence.
"Tell me what you want."
"I...."
Wasan pulled his hand and turned his entire body to face Gunn.
"I want to do the right thing, as a police officer. If you're innocent, I'll be yours. But if you're the murderer...'
The wind blew casted the leaves to rustle. Dry leaves during dry season
fell on the ground between them.
"I'll be the one who cuffs your hands, throws you in the jail, and watches you get a death penalty."
Gunn didn't look perturbed in the slightest. He was still calm and fearless. The corners of his lips slowly pulled up into a smile, making his face as warm as the sun.
"If so, you'll definitely be mine."
"And this is where we stand until everything is solved. We should stop contacting each other for now." Wasan looked up when he finished his sentence, trying to block this overwhelming emotion in his chest. He quickly walked away, in need of being far away from the man he had left behind. He didn't want to hear Gunn's voice or see his face longer than this. He wanted Gunn to hug him, kiss him, and hug him. He was falling in love. Hard. So hard that his eyes blinded by it. So hard that he couldn't see what was right. So, he should stop before it's too late. Before his heart fell into this deep infatuation pit and would never be able to climb out of it.
(There’s something so sad about this. I love to see them together like this, to know they both love each other, but knowing in the end (even though they end up together happily) that P’Gunn had still be responsible for three (?) of the deaths, even if it was blamed on the other two. Seems just kind of guilty…)

"Wasan."
Gunn called his name. Wasan turned on his heels, preparing to walk away, but Gunn rushed to block his way.
"Why didn't you pick up my call."
"Move. I've to get back to work."
He told him without meeting his eyes. Gunn grabbed Wasan's hand and squeezed it firmly. He didn't care the passerby's gaze. Wasan looked up at Gunn with his eyes widening.
"Don't disappear like this, please."
This was the first time Wasan saw the angry look in Gunn's eyes.
"You can wait until the mystery untangles, but don't just disappear on me."
"You have the right to command me what to do?"
Wasan tried to pull his hand away, but Gunn tightened his grip on the wrist.
"Why don't we talk and solve this problem together?"
"Since you've come here, the number of terminal stage patients' death has increased. The latest one was proven to die from lethal injection. Then, your name popped up in the crime scene. Everything related to you, you, and all over you. How can I be so closely related to the man who seemed so suspicious?!"
(Break up era who? No seriously…P’Gunn was DESPERATE to not lose P’Wasan)

“Wasan lowered his voice.
"How can you expect me…..to trust the man who might involve in my mother's death?"
Gunn's grip went limp. Wasan successfully pulled his hand away in that moment. He quickly took a step back and pointed his finger at Gunn.
"If you everdo this again, I'll throw you on the ground, handcuff you, and you'll be charged with an assault on the officer in the execution of his duty."
Gunn stood still while keeping his head down.
"If I could prove my innocence, will you come back to me?"
Wasan gave him a silent. Gunn looked up at him. His eyes that were once
so warm, now seemed empty.
"I promised to myself that I wouldn't let you go that
easily. If proving that I've nothing to do with any of this is my only chance with you, then, no matter how dangerous it is, I'll do it."”
(Another two things to this. It’s a sad part knowing P’Gunn was technically ‘responsible’ for P’Wasan’s mother’s death, even though she consented to it, and wanted it, since she was in so much pain. But P’Wasan never figured out it was him who did it. Second, ‘No matter how dangerous, i’ll do it’, yes P’Gunn we can see that after you literally jumped infront of him and took TWO bullets for bro nd almost got killed.)

“"You...are okay...?"
Gunn spoke incoherently, feeling fatigued as if he had run a marathon.
He could diagnose himself right away that the bullet probably went into his chest.
"You don't have to worry about me!"
Wasan took off his black T- shirt, left only his singlet, and pressed it on the wound to stop the bleeding.
"Don't you say another word."
Gunn admired Wasan's presence of mind, his fierceness, and his decisiveness in a situation like this. Although the gunshot wound was hurt so bad, touches and eyes full of concerns from Wasan were like first-class medicine. He closed his eyes, trying to meditate to stop focusing on his pain. He heard several footsteps coming to this room. Soon after, he heard a siren approaching while his consciousness started to be hazy.
"The ambulance is here."
Wasan gently patted Gunn's head.
"Don't die! If you die, I'd never forgive you."”
(Gunn asking P’Wasan if he’s okay when P’Gunn was literally the one who got shot is honestly such P’Gunn behavior.)

“Wasan smiled. It was a smile that anyone wouldn't have a chance to see it often.
"This charge is a life sentence."
"My whole life..is yours."
Gunn's voice was getting weaker, but he tried to gather his last strength and then spoke out clearly.
"I love you..."
There was a silence after that statement. Wasan lowered his head and let out his breath through his nose. Then, he lifted his face to bashfully look at the man, who had just confessed his love to him.
"Say the word again when you recover."
"Oh... Wasan...
Gunn closed his eyes and growling slightly in his throat.
"Why do you have to be so cute? I want to carry you to bed, removing your clothes and make love to you right now."”
(Oh, i mean, let his wound heal first Inspector…..before you inspect something new. (sorry for even saying that) but they are so fucking cute)

“Do we have a right to determine our death? Whom does the right to die belong to? If one day you are no longer conscious, do you think you would get your final moment the way you want? Do you think your family would give you what you want? If you could determine how to die, where to die, or even when to die, would you want it?
As long as asking for one's own death is still illegal, Guntapat will continue doing it in secret. It's for the sake of his patient's pure souls, for a good death his patients wish for, and for the perfect design of one's death.
For Guntapat, the practice isn't a murder, but the way he cares for his patients...
With his mercy.”
(I like how they put this. Not murder, but a care instead. All of his patients are in immense pain, going through final stages of cancers. If the patients want it, it’s part of his job to do all of their requests. Of course that question will always remain unanswered, we all have our own beliefs.)

I’m going to conclude this review overall with my thoughts on the question: “The right to live or die belongs to whom?”
Of course it belongs to context. The patient obviously gets the last say. It’s their body, it’s their life, their pain. I don’t think any family has the right to interfere with that, when the family isn’t the one having to go through the pain. Most patients wait a bit, say goodbye, wait for one last wish in life, then accept it. Of course there should be consent, and the patient has some sort of understanding of themselves. If they were mentally unable at the time, it of course would be another matter. Euthanasia, “good death”, is a way for patients to die on their own accord. Final decision: The right to live or die belongs to the patient.
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6 reviews
April 18, 2024
Who is allowed to release someone from their suffering? And what rules should apply?


In keeping with the first teaser of the new Thai drama series "Spare me Your Mercy", I naturally had to read the book first.

As with "Manner of Death", Sammon has managed to create an unusual and exciting thriller that doesn't quite stick to the rules of the genre. As a result, you are drawn into the story and especially into the relationship between Gun and Wasan in a completely different way.

I particularly appreciate the author's medical background, which she was able to incorporate perfectly in this book. This makes the story seem more realistic than most other medical thrillers.

Wasan and Gun - and their inability to communicate with each other - drove me to the brink of despair more than once, but they never seemed unrealistic, which is why it somehow worked. I warmed to Wasan in particular very quickly.

As a fan of "Manner of Death", Bun's guest appearance was of course a particular highlight.

Conclusion: An exciting thriller that takes a different approach and makes me really want to read the series.
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248 reviews
April 13, 2023
I dnf this one at 26% and will give you 3 reasons why:

- One MC, an MD, who was apparently the most empathetic member of staff in this towns’ hospital asked a guy for his phone number at said guy’s mother’s cremation ceremony where the MC turned up because he had been the mother’s physician. A hearty WTF doesn’t even cover it!
- The other MC, a police officer, isn’t able to do CPR. He even shouted at a woman to do it in his stead for her father. I shit you not. He was promoted during the part I read and I’m still asking myself for what (his good looks that were mentioned way too often)?
- The translation was bad. Fan made, so I shouldn’t be complaining, but it threw me out of my reading flow a lot.

This one wasn’t for me. I still like the topic (and I skipped forward to the end to at least know) and think it’s a question we have to think about as a society (euthanasia, which makes me as a German person really uncomfortable to even think about). So, I would have loved the challenge, if the story had been more to my liking.

Not sure where all the good reviews come from. Maybe from the prequel’s life action? Anyway - memo to myself: Try a book most people didn’t like next.

P.S.: I hate those Goodreads pop up windows where you’re supposed to write your review in. One wrong motion and all is gone - like it has happened here with the 1st version of this review.
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63 reviews
January 3, 2021
I finished it in one day

It was surprisingly good. Aside from the few obvious translation mistakes (grammer, spelling and a few punctuation) it was a really fun read and an engaging story. Sad that I couldn't give it 5/5 stars but hopefully for her future translated works, the errors will be less.

I know Sammon's work (currently watching Manner of Death on WeTV) but, it's the first I'm actually reading it. She knows when and what to put wit and banter and when to get back to the meat of the matter.

I would recommend this to anyone and I'm about do do right now! ❣️
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116 reviews1 follower
August 13, 2023
"... When people were born, they came to obstetricians. When they were just a kid, they went to pediatricians. When they were old and sick, they went to other specialists, and when they were about to die, they needed a doctor like me".

No le tenía mucha expectativa y me dejó completamente sorprendida. Sigo pensando en que a mi copia le faltan más páginas porque no puede terminar así, jaja.
Fue una montaña rusa de emociones leer esta novela. Cuando creía entender lo que estaba sucediendo, pasaba algo que hacía que no volviera a entender y mis sospechas de quién era el causante de todas esas muertes se iban por un tubo.
La historia es bastante interesante, y aunque un poco predecible, logró soprenderme y dejarme con los cabellos parados, jajaja. Además de que el tema que toca, debido a que aún en la actualidad es algo tabú, fue refrescant de leer.
Amé mucho a los personajes, en especial a los protagonistas, el Dr. Guntapat y el Inspector Wasan, son bien cuquis. Aunque la forma en la que inicia su relación es bastante rara, conforme avanza la historia va teniendo sentido que hace que uno los ame uwu.
Finalizo diciendo e insistiendo que a mi libro le faltaron páginas porque no se puede quedar así, ¿qué pasará con la relación de Gunn y Wasan cuando se revele la verdad? :'v
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40 reviews1 follower
December 20, 2024
Eutanásia é a primeira novel que leio da escritora e médica Sammon. Finalmente consegui entender o motivo de seus livros terem tanta fama entre o público que consome esse tipo de história.
Esta obra aborda temas profundos e complexos, sem receio de explorar as zonas cinzentas da moralidade e os dilemas éticos da medicina. A escrita é corajosa e cativante, mantendo a narrativa intrigante e misteriosa ao longo do livro. O início da história é melancólico e sensível de se ler, mas parece preparar o leitor, apresentando desde o começo o tom que o restante do livro seguirá.

Sobre os personagens; O Dr. Gun é misterioso e difícil de entender ao longo de todo o livro. O mistério que o cerca revela o quanto seu personagem é complexo e distinto dos outros. O Capitão Wasan, meu príncipe fofo, é um policial correto e destemido, que logo se vê preso em uma trama onde seu futuro romance e seu dever serão testados ao longo da história. As ações dos personagens questionáveis, o que faz eu amar completamente os dois.
Eles dois são incrivelmente bem escritos cheios de profundidade e história.

Sério, os dois protagonistas são totalmente compatíveis e complementares para a história.
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15 reviews
October 3, 2024
I read this novel to understand the entire plot before watching the series starring Tor Thanapob and JJ Krissanapoom as Dr. Gunn and Wasan. I can definitely say this story is super interesting, with its core theme discussing euthanasia. It also touches on how queer people often suffer from gossip about their sexuality in the workplace, which I found thought-provoking. Reading the English translation was rather challenging, and I didn't appreciate how all the terminology was relegated to the end of the book. I would have preferred footnotes so that I wouldn't have to flip to the end of the novel to look up specific words. Nevertheless, I must say that I thoroughly enjoyed the couples and how they were so sweet and affectionate with each other. I truly enjoyed their interactions, and they genuinely made me happy. I will certainly recommend it to my friends!
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110 reviews6 followers
June 18, 2024
Como todo libro de Sammon, lo he devorado. Me ha tomado 3 días acabarlo y me he quedado con ganas de más. Espero encontrar la secuela. El libro me ha tenido en una tensión extrema que no me dejaba soltarlo. Asimismo, ha tenido el plot twist más increíble. Me gusta el tema que toca y que te pone a reflexionar si una persona debería tener el derecho de escoger cómo y cuándo morir. Sin duda alguna, Sammon es la reina y seguiré enganchada a sus libros hasta el final.

PD. Pronto será adaptado a una serie de televisión. Me ilusiona ver la historia cobrar vida.
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1 review
April 12, 2020
Loved it.

Honestly, I am not someone who writes a review neither did I have any intention of reading this book.
But, I bought this by accident.
So. I just read it since I couldnt apply for a refund.
And. Loved it.
It kept me awake at night.
It was gripping.
Would 100% reccomend it.
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1 review
January 24, 2022
I just love how Sam created this whole universe in the north of Thailand with such great characters and stories that come together. I loved reading this book as much as I loved reading Manner Of Death. I hope Transplant can be translated to either English or Portuguese so I can enjoy more of Sam's stories 😊
10 reviews
July 12, 2021
Franchement, je ne m'attendais pas à ça ! Surtout la fin ! J'avoue que ça m'a fait un petit choc et c'était innatendu. Mais vraiment un très bon livre, je recommande
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157 reviews1 follower
June 23, 2022
I was so addicted to this novel. I didn't expect I'd finish it in less than a week since I've got other reads as well but I can't help returning to dr.gunn and wasan's story. I was hoping to get more glimpses of kong and tum tho. Spare me your mercy really blown my mind just like manner of death. I really look forward to reading sammon's other stories.
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263 reviews17 followers
December 24, 2020
I found this book because it is the sequel to Manner of Death (which will hopefully get translated as well). The TV series to Manner of Death will start airing this year and I was curious what to expect so I searched for the book and found Spare Me Your Mercy instead.

It took me a few chapters to get into the book, but from then on I could hardly stop reading. The author manages to keep you on your toes concerning the murder suspect. For a huge portion of the book I never felt sure about one of the characters. And then after the conclusion...another twist. I liked it a lot. Now I'm even more eager for the TV series Manner of Death! I also have to mention the side couple...I really liked them.



* I wanted to note my rating is solely based on the plot. There were issues with the translation, mainly wrong times or small grammatical errors. They didn't pull me out of the story too much, but I wanted to mention it. If you are familiar with Thai a bit you will likely connect the errors to the difference of the two languages. I was able to overlook it.
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90 reviews
January 1, 2023
Esse livro é muito bom, gostei muito do plot dos personagens e amei a reviravolta no final, ele foi bem melhor do que eu esperava, porém acho que faltou um melhor desenvolvimento para o casal, acho que o começo deles ficou muito rápido para justificar as atitudes que eles têm ao longo da história, a autora acerta muito ao nos deixar com aquela pulga atrás da orelha sem conseguir ter certeza sobre as coisas e gostei muito das explicações dos acontecimentos, só acho que foram explicação demais e ela poderia ter feito de forma mais curta, não me interessei muito pelo casal secundário, mas nada que chegou a me incomodar!! O que me incomodou um pouco foi o final do final do livro, que eu acho que ficou um pouco forçado demais na tentativa de mostrar o personagem sob uma luz positiva!!
Consegui imaginar perfeitamente uma série enquanto lia!!
Super recomendo a leitura!!
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89 reviews
November 17, 2021
I enjoyed this novel by Sammon more than I did her previous/prequel novel "Manner of Death". The plot and characters felt more fleshed out, the ending didn't feel as unexpectedly rushed, and the enjoyable suspense was sustained throughout the novel until the crucial unveiling. It kept me questioning what I really knew about the characters and what was actually happening between the lines.
I hope this gets adapted to a Thai BL series in the future!
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62 reviews
June 29, 2020
Just finished reading on Kindle. It's a very good book. I though at first it was very predictable but once the clues start to appear everything gets so exciting! I just couldn't stop reading yesterday you really have to read it by yourself to understand what I'm talking about.
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