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Suzette Mullen had been raised to play it safe—and she hated causing others pain. With college and law degrees, a kind and successful husband, two thriving adult sons, and an ocean-view vacation home, she lived a life many people would envy. But beneath the happy facade was a woman who watched her friends walk boldly through their lives and wondered what was holding her back from doing the same.
 
Digging into her past, Suzette uncovered a deeply buried she’d been in love with her best friend—a woman—for nearly two decades—and still was. Leaning into these “unspeakable” feelings would put Suzette’s identity, relationships, and life of privilege at risk—but taking this leap might be her only chance to feel fully alive. As Suzette opened herself up to new possibilities, an unexpected visit to a new city helped her discover who she was meant to be.
 
Introspective, bittersweet, and empowering, The Only Way Through Is Out is both a coming-out and coming-of-age story, as well as a call to action for every human who is longing to live authentically but is afraid of the cost.

250 pages, Hardcover

Published February 13, 2024

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Profile Image for Kathy Kiger.
43 reviews
June 26, 2024
I loved hearing the author’s story. While it wasn’t a perfect book, I found myself wrapped up in her journey, wanting to know what happened next.

This book addressed serious topics in a way that produced a feeling of optimism. Yes, it made me cry in parts. I felt the author’s anguish and fear. But ultimately I finished the book feeling her hope.

I’m so glad this book is out in the world to encourage and comfort other women taking the brave journey to find their truth.
Profile Image for Kait Linton.
7 reviews1 follower
February 20, 2024
The Only Way Through Is Out is an inspiring read through one woman’s journey home to herself. Suzette Mullen’s story, woven together with meaningful vignettes, is honest and vulnerable. It’s a story full of humor and heartbreak relayed with conversational authenticity. A delightful read that affirms that it’s never too late to find and be yourself.
Profile Image for Melissa Gopp-Warner.
41 reviews6 followers
December 18, 2023
What happens when one spouse uncovers a sexual identity different than what they believed themselves to be when they entered marriage? Suzette Mullen tells how she navigated her later-in-life discovery with bravery and authenticity in this memoir that reads like a novel. I cried for the heart-wrenching changes to her long-standing relationships and cheered as she forged paths to new versions of community, friendship, and love. What a great read for anyone peering over the edge of the unknown, especially when they thought their future was set.
2 reviews
March 27, 2024
I never thought a personal memoir be “a book I couldn’t put down” but I was captivated by the author’s personal journey. Telling this story takes courage, sheer guts and vulnerability. I read and re-read several parts. The grace of her former husband, the “inability to deal” of her best friend, the blessings of her sons and the challenge of her mom and sister. So many life lessons for the reader and many lives will be impacted by this masterpiece. I was mesmerized and plan to reread in a few months.
Profile Image for Em Elby.
6 reviews1 follower
March 24, 2024
As someone who typically avoids nonfiction, I was pleasantly surprised by Suzette's book. The writing was smooth, flowing easily between flashbacks and interconnected scenes from various times in her life.

Through her friends and family's words, she challenges the reader to choose to honor themselves.

Suzette's story is wonderful and beautiful for all readers, and I highly recommend it!
Profile Image for Jamie Beth Cohen.
94 reviews
December 11, 2023
This book will help so many people right when they need it, I have no doubt. Such a pleasure to read such vulnerable authenticity. ❤️❤️❤️
1 review1 follower
August 16, 2024
Before buying "The Only Way Through is Out," I had read some reviews with language like “it was a page turner” and “I couldn’t put it down.” I initially found the fractured timeline distracting. But I continued turning the pages and glad I did; by the time I got to the 2nd section it WAS a page turner. I’m sharing my initial reaction SO THAT in case anyone else feels this way while reading the first few pages, know that there are no extra words at the start, and don’t put down this beautiful story of resilience, discovery and love for self until you get to the end.
Profile Image for Amanda Lyda.
1 review
July 25, 2024
The juiciest memoir I have ever read. The suspense of what would Suzette do next kept me reading for hours. 10/10 highly would recommend.
Profile Image for Shannon.
422 reviews3 followers
July 6, 2024
Suzette Mullen’s memoir places an important narrative on the shelves of bookstores and libraries. I appreciate and admire her vulnerability which weeps and sings throughout the pages. She tells of moments lost and gained - - her decades-long marriage, friendships, gatherings with her mother, sister and sons, and striking out with new loves.

My coming out story is quite different from Mullen. Yet, I recall in my 20’s feeling that every lesbian I encountered was a La-La, as Mullen names her embracing community. La-La’s are later in life lesbians, most of whom were married to men and had children and families as a result of this relationship. Through the author’s book I understand how our stories are both disparate and connected; and how and why we must continue to tell more stories in and beyond the LGBTQIA+ community.
Profile Image for Charli.
5 reviews
March 3, 2024
I laughed, cried, & cheered as the author navigates through what is true vs what is easy.

If you’re looking for a queer memoir that checks SO MANY of the boxes that make up what it means to be part of the LGBTQIA community, this is the book for you. (But you definitely don’t need to be queer to enjoy this book!)

A spiritual identity crisis; navigating the line between building a life for the people around you vs listening to your intuition; dealing with therapists who get it all wrong; questioning your emotions, your sexuality, and whether there’s a quiz on the internet that can help you sort things out—TOWTIO has it all.

Suzette does a beautiful job of exploring the idea that when you hear that little voice inside of you, when your intuition guides you in a direction you don’t expect, and even when the world tells you “nothing has to change”—you get to choose how you’re going to live your life.

This is a story about what it means—to find your path, your realness, your truest self—and what it costs.

In other words: if you’ve ever wondered whether you’re living your best life, whether you’re being true to yourself, or whether there is more to life than what’s “good enough”—buy this book!
1 review
February 16, 2024
This book is the best memoir I've read in a long time, and I've read a lot.

When I started reading this book, it nabbed me on page one. It was so riveting that I hated to catch some zzz's because I wanted to keep reading. Throughout the book, I wiped away tears of joy for the heartfelt, raw, honest way Ms. Mullen told her soul-searching story. The ending gave me goosebumps and made me sad I couldn't keep reading.

Ms. Mullen is a brave, courageous, gifted writer who doesn't shy away from the hard stuff. If only more people could be as honest about their struggles and their lives as she is.

This book can be applied to anyone trying to find their true, authentic self.

I hope Ms. Mullen is penning her next book. This book shows she's opened the doors to a burgeoning writing career.
1 review
February 20, 2024
This memoir is exactly the kind of story that needs to be shared! It is an honest, relatable account of the author’s brave journey towards living authentically and coming out at a later age. She provides hope and encouragement to others who struggle with their truth as she recounts how she trusted the “Voice” within her and left the security and contentment of her marriage to find identity and fulfillment. The book is very well-written and engaging. I expected to read it quickly, but I savored it to the end, as it touched so many emotions. I definitely recommend it.
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26 reviews1 follower
March 22, 2024
I heard Suzette Mullen read from her memoir, purchased a copy, and burned through it over the next day. It's that good - I couldn't put it down. While the catalyst (!) for her story may be sexuality, it's also about the mental gymnastics and heartbreak involved in making life-changing decisions as well as the bittersweet fallout that can happen even when the outcome is what you were seeking. Mullen's story is serious and compelling, but it's also engaging and laugh-out-loud funny, especially her frequent disdain for her own inner voice. A delight to read!
7 reviews
June 8, 2024
“The Only Way Out is Through” by Suzette Mullen
Just in time for LGBTQ+ Pride Month in June, comes Mullen’s memoir about coming out later in life, “The Only Way out is Through.” When I sat down to read the book I had a 2023 New York Times article on my mind. The article that had stuck with me because of what its author, opinion columnist Charles Blow said about coming out in mid-life; that it’s a threatening and terrifying notion because it unnerves one to think that “whatever meaning you have arrived at about your sexuality is impermanent.” I stored the article in my mind because it saddened me to think that someone might have to delay exploring this aspect of themselves until so late in their life. But I found so much to relate to in Mullen's journey.
Like her, I questioned my life and reevaluated everything I thought I knew in order to find my own truth at the age of 25. Mullen's book stirringly delves into this experience, detailing how after being married for 30 years and living a privileged life, she couldn't shake the feeling that something was amiss. Her memoir was initially intended to be a mid-life crisis book about how she had struggled to find her professional path While she loved her husband and two sons, there was a constant nagging desire that she didn't fully understand – her feelings towards her best friend. She remembers a moment from her life 17 years prior when she dropped her son off at his kindergarten class about his teacher. She writes, “I had to touch Reenie, I was going to die if I didn’t.” She writes those words and her original book intent suddenly changes. Mullen pivots to skillfully write about the complexities of her loving marriage and her attempts to maintain openness with her husband as she navigates her own self-discovery. The tension in the book arises from this process.

As someone who personally struggled to discover my own sexual orientation at the age of 25, I found myself relating to Mullen's journey throughout the book. Mullen skillfully portrays the complexities of her loving marriage and her attempts to maintain openness with her husband as she navigates her own self-discovery. The tension in the book arises from her ongoing process of discernment. Will she come out, how long will it take, the impact on her family, will she pursue a relationship with her best friend of 20 years, and what event would be the tipping point for her self-realization. While difficult to find similar narratives I was reminded of actress Maria Bello’s 2013 New York Times Modern Love essay and Jessi Hempel’s recent book, “The Family Outing.”
Whether you choose to read this book in honor of LGBTQ+ Pride Month or simply to appreciate one woman's bravery in embracing her own truth, I highly recommend it.

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Profile Image for Betty Reed.
29 reviews2 followers
July 19, 2024
Suzette Mullen has written a memoir of waking up from a pleasant dream to what feels like a nightmare—the possibility that despite being married for over twenty years to a man she loves, she might be gay. The scenario of fracturing her safe and comfortable life is terrifying until the overwhelming need to free herself from self-imposed and socially expected restraints overpowers her fears. It is the age-old story of whether to stay in a marriage or divorce by answering the question “Am I better off with him or without him?” except here the twist involves substituting a real him with an imagined her.

The ambivalence of breaking free in THE ONLY WAY THROUGH IS OUT is palpable. She recognizes she has always been in love with her (heterosexual) friend. When she reveals her feelings hoping her love will be reciprocated, she is shattered by her friend’s negative reaction. The arc of unburying her love, admitting that she wants a physical relationship beyond the friendship, fantasizing about a happy ending that was not to be, being rejected and facing the despair of unrequited love (and ultimately a lost friendship) is almost like watching a teenage love story full of hesitation, naïveté, courage and devastation. But the scenario, and the mature and thoughtful writing is nothing like a teenager’s. She has lost her best friend, she is separated from her husband, her two adult sons are on their own, she is temporarily estranged from her sister and her mother continues a lifelong pattern of criticism. She sinks into a deep depression—who wouldn’t?

Slowly she meets other gay women, grounds herself in supportive friendships and embraces her choices. When she moves to a different city she eventually finds the life and love she has longed to live. Suzette Mullens deepens our empathy for the self-doubt and temptation to maintain a comfortable status quo that ping pongs her steps forward and back, while trying to make such a life-altering change. This book is full of encouragement for anyone who fears the consequences of being who she truly is and shows that a life lived fully is better than a half-life of comfort and safety.
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Author 7 books256 followers
March 4, 2024
I related to so much of this book through the lens of my own sexuality journey. I felt the urgency, the pain, the bittersweetness as she struggled with an awareness in her 50s that she was probably a lesbian. She'd spent decades repressing this reality. Acknowledging it meant understanding her underlying disquiet and guilt for not being thrilled with her "charmed" life.

The portrait of her relationship with her husband was powerful. He was a good man, and she loved him. He could see that she wanted "a choice that doesn't involve pain." Both came to see "that choice doesn't exist." Tears came to my eyes several times as I empathized with both his and Suzette's heartbreak and grief.

I especially appreciated the honesty with which Suzette showed how finally making a decision didn't mean her life was suddenly champagne and dyke marches. In fact, things went the other direction as she grappled with the anguish of her decision and the changes in her life, including rejection by a beloved friend.

What helps her heal? Several things. Truly listening to her soul, which she calls "The Voice", and honoring its guidance. A good therapist. The love her her adult sons. And, especially, the embrace of community.

I would have liked an Epilogue to explain what her life is like now (and the lives of key characters). That's because I became so invested in the story and people. Maybe a sequel is on the way? One can hope!
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227 reviews9 followers
February 12, 2024
Full disclosure: I was given a free advance reader copy of this book by Books Forward in exchange for an honest review.

Ever since I read "Late Bloomer: Finding My Authentic Self at Midlife" by Melissa Giberson, I have been curious to read more LGBTQ+ related stories. What I didn’t realize is that there are a handful of memoirs like Late Bloomer that tell the tale of people realizing their true sexual orientation later in life. These include "Finally Out: Letting Go of Living Straight" by Loren A. Olsen and "The Fixed Stars" by Molly Wizenberg. Another one that will come out tomorrow is "The Only Way Through is Out" by New York Times author Suzette Mullen – a beautiful book that creatively stands out in many ways.

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1 review
March 19, 2024
This book was captivating & eye opening. As someone who came out as a teenager, I've often considered what my story would have been like had I taken another path, and I suspect it would have been very similar to this story. Regardless of the 'when', coming out takes courage and bravery, and the journey to your true self sometimes takes years to discover. This book lays out that journey in an honest, often humorous & endearing, vulnerable way that brings you right into the author's experience. The very human desires of knowing who you truly are- and being truly known. I cannot recommend this book more to any reader- regardless of where your life's journey has led you. The universal truths of becoming fill every page. I finished the book in less than 36 hours and was heartbroken there wasn't more to read. Such a gem.
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112 reviews
August 14, 2024
Listened via audiobook. Suzette is by far NOT perfect- she lowkey cheats on her husband by sexting sandy and also emotionally cheats with reenee (ethically debatable since she didn’t know she was gay yet) and also she’ll say things like “and my mom said that I judged her too much when she was taking care of my dad and then came in 20 years later and actwd like the perfect daughter- how could she say that??” And I’m like ??? Yeah why is she saying that ???? What did you do that gave her that opinion??

Anyways Suzette comes across as selfish and self absorbed (calling her ex husband when she almost passes out even tho he’s 3 hours away and both her sons are in the same city?? Saying that she barely knows reenee’s life bc she’s the one who takes up all the time talking??) and she also seems a little irrational (the holy kiss??? What was that. Also being surprised that she left her husband and that their friends are on his side??)

BUT I had to give a 4 bc I was ENGROSSED in this story, honestly her actions although at times baffling, were so entertaining, and also was so interesting to read about someone so much older discovering their sexuality and also about older lesbian life styles
Profile Image for Heather Davis.
2 reviews
July 12, 2024
I loved this honest and heartfelt story about an ordinary woman, mother, and wife who had to work hard to find her authentic self. Her journey to understand what was going on, then make incredibly tough decisions and suffer tons of doubt in order to find her truth will resonate with anyone. How many of us have to fight to see ourselves and then to get others to recognize and honor who we are--whether you are gay or straight or somewhere in between? I especially appreciate the idea that we can keep growing at any age and create whole new worlds for ourselves. Mullen maps her journey well, allowing us to feel the pain and joy with her. You will root for that first girl kiss!
Profile Image for Lisa.
462 reviews31 followers
March 15, 2024
This is what I know about reading: stories change you. That's not something to fear or ban; it's something to celebrate.

I finished this book about a later-in-life lesbian, a woman who realized she was gay after 30 years of marriage, who chose a hard path toward her own happiness. Her story inspires me to live fully as my authentic self, even though I am straight, and urges me toward further compassion for those on a similar journey.

"The Only Way Through Is Out" by Suzette Mullen is a brave and raw reflection on the inner journey to become her whole self.
Profile Image for Michele Dawson Haber.
38 reviews2 followers
March 19, 2024
Written in a friendly, engaging and honest style, The Only Way Through is Out is about Suzett's courage and commitment to listen to her body. Nothing at all is wrong with her life, she's got everything going for her, except that she is not living authentically. Now that she has reached her 50s and the kids have left home, she is ready to excavate the feelings she has suppressed for so many years. Following along with Suzette as she works her way "through" to "out" will keep you engaged page after page. Brava, Suzette!
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March 29, 2024
The painful but necessary realization in mid-life that one is not being one’s authentic self is honestly evoked in this well-crafted memoir. There were times in the story where I could not stop reading because I wanted to know what the outcome would be of Mullen’s process of leaving behind a seemingly perfect marriage and embracing a totally new and alien life. This memoir is a genuine and sometimes heartbreaking accounting of letting go of conventional norms in order to discover the happiness of living in one’s truth.
1 review
February 23, 2024
Bravery despite the fear.
The author’s deeply agonizing struggle and her bravery and triumph in finding peace as her true self despite the fear and risk of losing it all, is the heart of the book. I was immediately taken up in the story as each new step, emotion, choice was revealed. I cried when the author cried, I laughed when she laughed. Anyone who needs encouragement to be brave can find it here.
2 reviews
March 22, 2024
Suzette's book has the ring of hard won truth and bravery. It takes us on the journey that she experienced every step of the way. Her decision wasn't easy and it wasn't quickly arrived at. In the end she chose the path that would cause pain to some of those around her, but would ultimately give her the life that she was meant to have. It's a beautifully told story written with compassion and courage. I recommend it wholeheartedly.
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November 29, 2024
I love the vulnerability shown through the narrator's words on each page of this memoir. The author is brave and honest. It takes a lot of courage and introspection to reach a place where one can stand up, admit, and be oneself. This story is a relatable one about identity, self-love, and what it means to come into oneself and stop hiding. I couldn’t put it down. I enjoyed reading it and listening to it on audible. I can’t wait to see what this author writes next.
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1 review1 follower
February 18, 2024
I just finished this memoir and couldn’t put it down! It’s just really wonderful—so well written, so honest, and moving…what a gift the author has. And her book is a gift to all of us in that she was willing and able to share her story with such vulnerability. I know it will help so many people who are in similar situations.
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6 reviews12 followers
February 21, 2024
Excellent memoir that I read in literally one sitting (7 hours straight until 3am!). I have read a lot of memoirs over the last few years, and something unique about this one is that it truly feels contemporaneous to the period it covers, 2015-2017, as though it is a personal diary. Highly recommend for anyone who loves memoirs.
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2 reviews1 follower
February 26, 2024
If you’ve ever wondered whether you’re living your truest life, stop what you’re doing and read this book! Suzette Mullen’s story is testimony that it’s never too late to heed your inner voice, and when you do, you’ll finally meet your truest self. I read this beautiful, tender book in two sittings. And I can’t wait to give it to every “truth seeker” I know.
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March 9, 2024
Suzette Mullen's book, is so authentic, so heart breaking, so joyous, and so, so very well written. Her story telling is perfection. I don't know how she manages to make you feel every emotion along with her - she does. Love, struggle, vulnerability, perseverance, joy....it's all there. I hope she is working on her next book.
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