I really loved reading this book. It's been quite the emotional journey for me as I frequently fall in love with my protagonists. Since my lover is a real person this time, I found myself really becoming immersed into his history. I now realize that while I thought I was a "Spielberg fan," I am about as good of a Spielberg fan as Phil Tippett is a dinosaur supervisor.
My first Spielberg movie was "Close Encounters of the Third Kind" when I was 12. I also remember going to the theater to see "Raiders of the Lost Arc", "ET", "Indiana Jones and The Temple of Doom", "Schindler's List", "Saving Private Ryan" (I think), and "Lincoln". I've also seen "Jaws" on a big screen at the beach (more than once). I'm pretty sure every other Spielberg movie that I've seen has been on some sort of TV screen including "Duel", all of the Jurassic movies, "AI" (sometimes referred to as my favorite movie), "Always", "Hook" and "Minority Report".
Interestingly, I never knew that "Duel" which I saw as a very young child, and have remained so traumatized by, that I didn't get my driver's license until I was 23, and which I continue to use as my excuse for the way I drive on road trips, was a Spielberg film.
So, because there were so many films that I hadn't seen, I bought all of the DVDs (including some TV shows and movies). I also began watching the many interviews and speeches he's given, which are now available on YouTube. I've purchased many of the vintage copies of magazines featuring Steven's many adventures and other references such as Carl Gottlieb's "The Jaws Log." Steven Spielberg has become my COVID project.
Of the movies that I've finally watched on DVD, (I can't tell you how hard I cried when I realized that I may never be able to see these movies in the theater), I am absolutely IN LOVE with "The Color Purple", "The Sugarland Express", and "1941". "Empire of the Sun" is growing on me (I've only watched it once), and I still have to watch everything since 2005 (except Lincoln).
I've really changed the way I think about movies, in that, I now try to pick up on all of these nuances in lighting, and camera angles, and expressions, and gestures that I never fully appreciated before. However, that pressure becomes kind of overwhelming at times, and I sometimes find myself afraid to watch them AT ALL. I am always hoping to be in "just the right mood" to digest the emotional content, and alert enough to notice all of the subtle transitions, and perceptive enough to take in all of the grand cinematography; but I am hardly ever in THAT mood! I have finally realized that I won't ever fully understand a movie in one viewing. Even a "light" movie will probably require at least ten viewings if I want to really experience it. So now I've given myself permission to just watch a film for the first time, and enjoy what I enjoy, with no pressure on myself. But, I also know that 2 through 5 are going to wreck me, but then after 6 through 10, I'll finally understand the film pretty well, until I come to understand that I don't.
When the week of June 29, 2021, rolled around, I hoped the movie "AI" would be in theaters for the 20th anniversary. It wasn't. I cried. I hope that I can see Schindler's list in a theater on or around November 30, 2023. Beyond that, I fear to desire anything more because the only thing that will fulfill my dream will be the thing that haunts my nightmares.
I am so happy to have read this book and to have been encouraged to seek out even more understanding beyond this book. I love empathizing with young Steven: that lonely, imaginative dreamer, yearning for acceptance and belonging. I love being inspired by apprentice Steven: that confident, creative storyteller, reaching out and grabbing his dreams. I love being in awe of virtuoso Steven: that Master, actualized artist, re-creating the industry in his own image.
Joseph McBride did an excellent job stimulating my enthusiasm, delighting my curiosities, and elevating my spirit. A+
Addendum: After reading this book, I longed for Steven to make his life story into a movie. The movie in my mind was largely based on this book. Last year, when "The Fableman's" came out, Joseph McBride was proven to have done a fantastic job on this biography. I even felt certain after reading this account that Arnold and Leah's divorce was due to an affair that Leah had with "family friend" Bernie. In interviews, Steven pretends that he has kept this a secret, and yet McBride let this out many years ago.
We may never know for know the answers to the recurrent questions posed by McBride: Did Steven live in Scottsdale or Phoenix, and did he lie about it? Did Steven used to lie about his age and why?. Finally, we may never be sure if Denis C. Hoffman screwed Steven over or vice versa. I hope that Joseph has come to peace with these mysteries. LOL.