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คายะ ซูซูกิ เด็กหนุ่มมัธยมปลาย ผู้เบื่อหน่ายกับการใช้ชีวิต เขาคิดว่าทุกคนบนโลกนี้รวมถึงตัวเขาเป็นมนุษย์ที่น่าเบื่อ ไร้สีสัน อยู่มาวันหนึ่งเด็กสาวจากต่างโลกปรากฏตัวต่อหน้าเขา คายะเห็นแค่ตาและเล็บของอีกฝ่ายเท่านั้น แต่เขากลับรู้สึกว่าเธอน่าสนใจเป็นอย่างมาก เรื่องราวความรักของเด็กหนุ่มและเด็กสาวจากต่างโลกจึงเริ่มขึ้น
440 pages, Paperback
First published October 19, 2020
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Yoru Sumino (住野よる) is a Japanese writer best known for I Want to Eat Your Pancreas, the novel that became a manga and two films.
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* 住野よる (Japanese Profile)
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Yoru Sumino (住野よる) is a Japanese writer best known for I Want to Eat Your Pancreas, the novel that became a manga and two films.
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November 3, 2022
Analysis sorta:
“Gale” or passion- The “gale” Kaya references in the 2nd half of the book is the emotion, passion or “peak” that everyone experiences in their lifetime. It can be described and alluded to as a gust of wind that leaves you in desire of what was. The “gale” he describes is one that he believes everyone should experience in their lifetime; that is if they want to be saved from the excruciating despair that their gale would deprive from them.
Dispassionateness- After his “gale” is gone, he starts to become dispassionate. He doesn’t care about anything. He himself admits he doesn’t feel anything anymore. “Everything was gone except for his hunger, fatigue, and lust; even those were barely alive within him.” That’s all he ever thought of the opposite sex.
Memory hyperfixation: Kaya is so focused on his memory of Chika that he doesn’t live life because he believes he’s already lived his full life in those short and fleeting moments he shared with Chika. He is fixated on that unnamed memory from a better time. It loops in his mind, each day a painful, bloodstaking reminder of the emptiness he feels. I believe this quote sums it up very well: “In memory lay expectations, which were only betrayed by reality.” Remembering those temporary moments he shared with her is the only thing that keeps him alive.
Ultimately, Sanae, or “Saitou” is what breaks him out of this “trance.” She calls him out on his behavior and beliefs. Shortly after, his mind starts to wander. He fixates his whole being on those words of reproachment and scolding, causing him to start to forget, ie the title of the book.
Later on:
Derealization- calling people Tanaka or Saitou. Reducing people to a common name, a sub-category. He refers to other people who are average whom you can find anywhere as a “Tanaka.“ One detail I love is what he calls Saitou, or rather Sanae. Saitou in Japanese means “alike, equal, or similar variety of.” He sees himself in Sanae, even back then. One of the few times he doesn’t lie to her or disassociate himself with her is when he names her. A hint of foreshadowing is in the second meaning of her name, wisteria. It symbolizes romance, foreshadowing his revival of happiness in his life through her. “No one can die from just an emotion. It would not be until much later that I realized this.” He lets his thoughts roam all across his head, never letting them out. He chooses the best possible decisions that would make other people happy. This isn’t because he is subservient to others or hates prioritizing himself; he just has no reason not to.
His growth, his journey, his whole being is dedicated to making his life as comfortable as possible before his tedious’ life inevitable death.
The way he carries himself is reminiscent of the way he was before Chika. He was just “fine” before he met her, and the same “boring and dull” self after she left him.
We can see his growth over time through these 3 short points:
1. “Someone, please take my feelings away from me and take me away from this pointless place.”
In the beginning, he is overwhelmed by this feeling of dread and dullness, something that he points out in every person. He sets himself apart by recognizing that he himself is aware and self-conscious of it, unlike the rest of the people around him who are stuck in a colorful illusion designed to feel “special” and “different.”
2. Kaya’s meeting and relationship with Chika
Kaya meets Chika who brightens up Kaya’s boring life. She becomes the “gale” for his ship, overpowering the dull crisis he has for himself. However, good things never last long. He starts to act out and perform spectacular demonstrations in his love for “Chika.” Thus leading to his downfall. He believes himself special, doing all kinds of selfless acts to improve and help her. And her feelings, to no avail. She doesn’t actually care about him or his feelings, viewing him as a textbook or experience, a chapter in her life that goes by just as every other day would. Once Kaya realizes this, his feelings are at its peak and he is at the highest he’s ever been; just to be knocked down to rock bottom as “the person who had cherished me as her one and only vanished into the darkness,” with the color in his life to never return to his vision.
3. Kaya and Sanae’s encounter
Kaya meets Sanae again through a fateful encounter. Ironically enough, he doesn’t believe that fate, miracles, or outstanding moments are “real.” He disassociates his real self with his exterior self. He says, does, and acts what he expects her to love. After all of this is said and done, he later starts to forget Chika when Sanae berates him. That realization of memory and fixation suddenly hit him and he goes through the process of anagapesis all over again.
He doesn’t feel the same way as he did back then. He’s solely re-enacting them as a comfort to himself. Just as all good things come to end, so do the bad ones. His feelings and memories start to fade and diminish; the present is all he’s got now, all those sedulous days focused on her memory gone to waste. His conclusion is a bittersweet one though. It ends with this:
““I finally realized that I wasn’t yet ready to give a name to those days ahead.”
He’s done giving names to brighten up his dull, boring, and gale-less life, he’s finally happy.
“Try not to get caught”
The last time he says this is at the beginning of his meeting with Sanae, fitting since they actually do get together, true love between them, unlike what he had shared with Chika, The parallel between Chika and Sanae’s connection with the phrase is amazing. Chika is told that phrase all throughout the “development” (no real development for Chika, only for Kaya) of their relationship until the very end with Kaya ending their last interaction with “Try… not to get caught.” Kaya says the same thing to Sanae after they first hold hands and start their relationship. It’s a signal and a start for new beginnings.
The Fallacy she sees in him
(My theory) The “multiplier” effect also has an effect on her mind and thoughts. She was always coming up with better ideas than Kaya no matter how hard he tried. I imagine the other dimension to be similar to earth but with different implications on certain variations of events. No wonder war was always present there. Imagine our world right now but multiplied. The wars and chance of war would skyrocket, something that can explain the reason for her bizarre world rules. Not to mention the advanced language that can’t be translated into Kayas dimension. It also explains her numbness as her emotions and mental state would be a mirror reflection like Kayas but multiplied. He did not have a care for anything else but Chika. In the opposite way, Chika could not understand Kaya and his feelings. The dullness and numbness she’s felt is probably gone or toned down than what it would have been because of the “gale” she has. I think her gale is meeting new people in the shelters. She appreciated what he had done with destroying the bell, but she simply humored Kaya with his “Rohmanse.” Even when she was exposed by Kaya, she didn’t even consider herself in the wrong. She never understood him in the first place. She even gaslighted him and told him to “stop pretending” like he was special after he believed he was the only one she was seeing in the shelters. He was loyal to her, he changed for her, she was his whole world, he went as far as far as to kill for her; all for her to just remain in an indefinite state of selection and naivety.
But in the end, he was just one of many, a small fish in the ever vast expansion of the sea. That one fish stuck in Kaya’s head as a reason for his agonizing misery. She unknowingly toyed with his one-sided feelings, deluding him into thinking she ever felt the same.
Not written as best as possible but I enjoyed it a lot
“Gale” or passion- The “gale” Kaya references in the 2nd half of the book is the emotion, passion or “peak” that everyone experiences in their lifetime. It can be described and alluded to as a gust of wind that leaves you in desire of what was. The “gale” he describes is one that he believes everyone should experience in their lifetime; that is if they want to be saved from the excruciating despair that their gale would deprive from them.
Dispassionateness- After his “gale” is gone, he starts to become dispassionate. He doesn’t care about anything. He himself admits he doesn’t feel anything anymore. “Everything was gone except for his hunger, fatigue, and lust; even those were barely alive within him.” That’s all he ever thought of the opposite sex.
Memory hyperfixation: Kaya is so focused on his memory of Chika that he doesn’t live life because he believes he’s already lived his full life in those short and fleeting moments he shared with Chika. He is fixated on that unnamed memory from a better time. It loops in his mind, each day a painful, bloodstaking reminder of the emptiness he feels. I believe this quote sums it up very well: “In memory lay expectations, which were only betrayed by reality.” Remembering those temporary moments he shared with her is the only thing that keeps him alive.
Ultimately, Sanae, or “Saitou” is what breaks him out of this “trance.” She calls him out on his behavior and beliefs. Shortly after, his mind starts to wander. He fixates his whole being on those words of reproachment and scolding, causing him to start to forget, ie the title of the book.
Later on:
Derealization- calling people Tanaka or Saitou. Reducing people to a common name, a sub-category. He refers to other people who are average whom you can find anywhere as a “Tanaka.“ One detail I love is what he calls Saitou, or rather Sanae. Saitou in Japanese means “alike, equal, or similar variety of.” He sees himself in Sanae, even back then. One of the few times he doesn’t lie to her or disassociate himself with her is when he names her. A hint of foreshadowing is in the second meaning of her name, wisteria. It symbolizes romance, foreshadowing his revival of happiness in his life through her. “No one can die from just an emotion. It would not be until much later that I realized this.” He lets his thoughts roam all across his head, never letting them out. He chooses the best possible decisions that would make other people happy. This isn’t because he is subservient to others or hates prioritizing himself; he just has no reason not to.
His growth, his journey, his whole being is dedicated to making his life as comfortable as possible before his tedious’ life inevitable death.
The way he carries himself is reminiscent of the way he was before Chika. He was just “fine” before he met her, and the same “boring and dull” self after she left him.
We can see his growth over time through these 3 short points:
1. “Someone, please take my feelings away from me and take me away from this pointless place.”
In the beginning, he is overwhelmed by this feeling of dread and dullness, something that he points out in every person. He sets himself apart by recognizing that he himself is aware and self-conscious of it, unlike the rest of the people around him who are stuck in a colorful illusion designed to feel “special” and “different.”
2. Kaya’s meeting and relationship with Chika
Kaya meets Chika who brightens up Kaya’s boring life. She becomes the “gale” for his ship, overpowering the dull crisis he has for himself. However, good things never last long. He starts to act out and perform spectacular demonstrations in his love for “Chika.” Thus leading to his downfall. He believes himself special, doing all kinds of selfless acts to improve and help her. And her feelings, to no avail. She doesn’t actually care about him or his feelings, viewing him as a textbook or experience, a chapter in her life that goes by just as every other day would. Once Kaya realizes this, his feelings are at its peak and he is at the highest he’s ever been; just to be knocked down to rock bottom as “the person who had cherished me as her one and only vanished into the darkness,” with the color in his life to never return to his vision.
3. Kaya and Sanae’s encounter
Kaya meets Sanae again through a fateful encounter. Ironically enough, he doesn’t believe that fate, miracles, or outstanding moments are “real.” He disassociates his real self with his exterior self. He says, does, and acts what he expects her to love. After all of this is said and done, he later starts to forget Chika when Sanae berates him. That realization of memory and fixation suddenly hit him and he goes through the process of anagapesis all over again.
He doesn’t feel the same way as he did back then. He’s solely re-enacting them as a comfort to himself. Just as all good things come to end, so do the bad ones. His feelings and memories start to fade and diminish; the present is all he’s got now, all those sedulous days focused on her memory gone to waste. His conclusion is a bittersweet one though. It ends with this:
““I finally realized that I wasn’t yet ready to give a name to those days ahead.”
He’s done giving names to brighten up his dull, boring, and gale-less life, he’s finally happy.
“Try not to get caught”
The last time he says this is at the beginning of his meeting with Sanae, fitting since they actually do get together, true love between them, unlike what he had shared with Chika, The parallel between Chika and Sanae’s connection with the phrase is amazing. Chika is told that phrase all throughout the “development” (no real development for Chika, only for Kaya) of their relationship until the very end with Kaya ending their last interaction with “Try… not to get caught.” Kaya says the same thing to Sanae after they first hold hands and start their relationship. It’s a signal and a start for new beginnings.
The Fallacy she sees in him
(My theory) The “multiplier” effect also has an effect on her mind and thoughts. She was always coming up with better ideas than Kaya no matter how hard he tried. I imagine the other dimension to be similar to earth but with different implications on certain variations of events. No wonder war was always present there. Imagine our world right now but multiplied. The wars and chance of war would skyrocket, something that can explain the reason for her bizarre world rules. Not to mention the advanced language that can’t be translated into Kayas dimension. It also explains her numbness as her emotions and mental state would be a mirror reflection like Kayas but multiplied. He did not have a care for anything else but Chika. In the opposite way, Chika could not understand Kaya and his feelings. The dullness and numbness she’s felt is probably gone or toned down than what it would have been because of the “gale” she has. I think her gale is meeting new people in the shelters. She appreciated what he had done with destroying the bell, but she simply humored Kaya with his “Rohmanse.” Even when she was exposed by Kaya, she didn’t even consider herself in the wrong. She never understood him in the first place. She even gaslighted him and told him to “stop pretending” like he was special after he believed he was the only one she was seeing in the shelters. He was loyal to her, he changed for her, she was his whole world, he went as far as far as to kill for her; all for her to just remain in an indefinite state of selection and naivety.
But in the end, he was just one of many, a small fish in the ever vast expansion of the sea. That one fish stuck in Kaya’s head as a reason for his agonizing misery. She unknowingly toyed with his one-sided feelings, deluding him into thinking she ever felt the same.
Not written as best as possible but I enjoyed it a lot
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
June 17, 2023
ดีเกินกว่าที่คาดหวังไว้มาก
เล่มนี้เป็นเรื่องราว ของเด็กมัธยมที่รู้สึกเบื่อหน่ายกับทุกอย่างในชีวิต อยู่ไปก็ได้ความหมาย แต่ก็ยังคงดำเนินชีวิตอยู่ไปวันๆ และแล้ววันหนึ่งก็ไปนั่งสงบสติอารมณ์ในป้ายรถเมล์เก่า และพบว่ามีสิ่งมีชีวิตที่คล้ายผี แต่ก็ไม่ใช่ อยู่ในที่นั้น
ปูเรื่องมาได้น่าตื่นเต้น ทำให้รีบอ่านอย่างรอรอลุ้นว่าเรื่องราวต่อไปจะเป็นยังไง แต่พอมาช่วงกลางๆเล่มเริ่มน่าเบื่อ เพราะไปโฟกัสที่ "ผี" ตนนั้น จนกระทั้งถึงประมาณ 2 ใน 3 ของเล่ม ก็จะพบว่า มันเจ็บปวดใจมากๆ
แต่แล้วมาถึงจุดจบก็ happy ending นะ (อาจจะไม่ happy สำหรับบางคน แต่เราว่าจบแบบนี้ก็คือดีนะ)
คำคมดีๆของเรื่องคือ ตอนพระเอกเกเร แม่ก็สอนประมาณว่า แม่ไม่ได้มีชีวิตอยู่ไปตลอดนะ ประมาณว่า รับผลในการกระทำของตัวเองด้วย
กับในส่วนตอนโตที่เจอแฟน แล้วยังตัดใจจาก "ผี" ไม่ได้ แฟนก็สอนว่า ทุกๆคนตามมีความพิเศษ และสัมพันธ์กันทั้งนั้นแหละ
เป็นหนังสือที่จบแบบอบอุ่นละมุนละไมเกินคาดจริงๆนั้นแหละ โชคดีที่ได้อ่าน
เล่มนี้เป็นเรื่องราว ของเด็กมัธยมที่รู้สึกเบื่อหน่ายกับทุกอย่างในชีวิต อยู่ไปก็ได้ความหมาย แต่ก็ยังคงดำเนินชีวิตอยู่ไปวันๆ และแล้ววันหนึ่งก็ไปนั่งสงบสติอารมณ์ในป้ายรถเมล์เก่า และพบว่ามีสิ่งมีชีวิตที่คล้ายผี แต่ก็ไม่ใช่ อยู่ในที่นั้น
ปูเรื่องมาได้น่าตื่นเต้น ทำให้รีบอ่านอย่างรอรอลุ้นว่าเรื่องราวต่อไปจะเป็นยังไง แต่พอมาช่วงกลางๆเล่มเริ่มน่าเบื่อ เพราะไปโฟกัสที่ "ผี" ตนนั้น จนกระทั้งถึงประมาณ 2 ใน 3 ของเล่ม ก็จะพบว่า มันเจ็บปวดใจมากๆ
แต่แล้วมาถึงจุดจบก็ happy ending นะ (อาจจะไม่ happy สำหรับบางคน แต่เราว่าจบแบบนี้ก็คือดีนะ)
คำคมดีๆของเรื่องคือ ตอนพระเอกเกเร แม่ก็สอนประมาณว่า แม่ไม่ได้มีชีวิตอยู่ไปตลอดนะ ประมาณว่า รับผลในการกระทำของตัวเองด้วย
กับในส่วนตอนโตที่เจอแฟน แล้วยังตัดใจจาก "ผี" ไม่ได้ แฟนก็สอนว่า ทุกๆคนตามมีความพิเศษ และสัมพันธ์กันทั้งนั้นแหละ
เป็นหนังสือที่จบแบบอบอุ่นละมุนละไมเกินคาดจริงๆนั้นแหละ โชคดีที่ได้อ่าน
July 16, 2024
really upset me - that's the best reaction i have at the moment. i understood that it would break my heart going into it, but still the two main sections felt very disconnected to me. this book made me cry like a child and didn't give me the ending i wanted.
also, despite what was happening, the story felt so plain. painfully so. in my mind, maybe it makes sense that the author is trying to create a meta-but-not-really narrative. i could get on board if the mc didn't piss me off so much. could be because i see myself in him sometimes, but ugh it just hurt.
that's really all i got. :/
also, despite what was happening, the story felt so plain. painfully so. in my mind, maybe it makes sense that the author is trying to create a meta-but-not-really narrative. i could get on board if the mc didn't piss me off so much. could be because i see myself in him sometimes, but ugh it just hurt.
that's really all i got. :/
May 30, 2025
When I started this book, I had high hopes for an engaging story with a meaningful message. Yoru Sumino has written fantastic works before, like I Had That Same Dream Again and I Want to Eat Your Pancreas, so I expected something of a similar caliber.
Unfortunately, after finishing it, I can’t help but feel disappointed. The biggest letdown was how the story abruptly shifted halfway through. The sudden time skip felt disconnected from everything the first half had built up. Only in the last 20 to 30 pages does the book attempt to tie things together, but even then, the conclusion falls flat. It left too many unanswered questions and felt rushed, as if the story had run out of steam.
I appreciated the original concept and the direction the first half seemed to be going. But after the shift, continuing felt more like a chore than something enjoyable. I wish the author had taken the time to deliver a more satisfying conclusion that fully addressed the themes and questions raised early on.
Another issue for me was the main character, Kaya. I found him difficult to connect with, largely due to his overwhelmingly pessimistic mindset. The narrative lingered on his negativity for far too long, and by the end, I was simply tired of his outlook.
In the end, while I respect the time and effort the author put into this book, it didn’t meet my expectations. I can’t recommend it, and I hope that Sumino’s future works return to the emotional resonance and strong storytelling seen in her earlier novels.
I’d rate this one between 2.5 and 3 stars.
Unfortunately, after finishing it, I can’t help but feel disappointed. The biggest letdown was how the story abruptly shifted halfway through. The sudden time skip felt disconnected from everything the first half had built up. Only in the last 20 to 30 pages does the book attempt to tie things together, but even then, the conclusion falls flat. It left too many unanswered questions and felt rushed, as if the story had run out of steam.
I appreciated the original concept and the direction the first half seemed to be going. But after the shift, continuing felt more like a chore than something enjoyable. I wish the author had taken the time to deliver a more satisfying conclusion that fully addressed the themes and questions raised early on.
Another issue for me was the main character, Kaya. I found him difficult to connect with, largely due to his overwhelmingly pessimistic mindset. The narrative lingered on his negativity for far too long, and by the end, I was simply tired of his outlook.
In the end, while I respect the time and effort the author put into this book, it didn’t meet my expectations. I can’t recommend it, and I hope that Sumino’s future works return to the emotional resonance and strong storytelling seen in her earlier novels.
I’d rate this one between 2.5 and 3 stars.
October 29, 2022
This is the fourth Yoru Sumino book I have read and I think it's about time I admit to myself that she's just not the author for me. The problem, you see, is that I'm so attracted to the whimsical titles of her books, the delicate manga-style covers and the intriguing blurbs. With each of her books I tell myself, "this is going to be one I fall in love with." Sadly, it never happens. Of the four I've read, At Night I Become a Monster is my favourite, but even that is far from amazing.
So let's dig into a I Will Forget This Feeling Someday. We start with a typical, poorly-defined male high schooler for a protagonist and spend most of the novel inside his dull, self-pitying head. If a writer is going to use a first person narrative, especially one that centres on the protagonist's thoughts, as opposed to theirs and others' actions, then that protagonist needs to be interesting. Suzuki Kaya is not that type of character, he's annoying, repetitive and tedious.
As for the plot. It's an interesting idea. It's why I bought the book! Boy meets a girl from another world who only he can see and a relationship between the two blossoms. Is she really from another world? Is she even real? These were the kids of questions I was hoping would be answered, but they just weren't addressed in a manner I found satisfying. I was like Sumino had all the ingredient for a cake, but dropped the mixing bowl on the floor. Then, in the process of scooping the mixture back into the bowl, she missed a load of key ingredients (sugar, eggs) and instead swept up random floor crud, a few hairs and some dead woodlice. Not bothering to start again, she shoved it in the oven, baked it and out came with I Will Forget This Feeling Someday.
I know I am being harsh and I know that others won't agree with me and may even find this review mean, but I've really tried with this author. I want to love her, but it's proving impossible. Aside from the poor execution of the plot and bland characters, the pacing is glacial and the writing style is amateurish verging on childish. If I learnt this book was written in a weekend, I'd believe it.
Ultimately, a very unsatisfying execution of what, in the hands of another author, could have been a wonderful story.
So let's dig into a I Will Forget This Feeling Someday. We start with a typical, poorly-defined male high schooler for a protagonist and spend most of the novel inside his dull, self-pitying head. If a writer is going to use a first person narrative, especially one that centres on the protagonist's thoughts, as opposed to theirs and others' actions, then that protagonist needs to be interesting. Suzuki Kaya is not that type of character, he's annoying, repetitive and tedious.
As for the plot. It's an interesting idea. It's why I bought the book! Boy meets a girl from another world who only he can see and a relationship between the two blossoms. Is she really from another world? Is she even real? These were the kids of questions I was hoping would be answered, but they just weren't addressed in a manner I found satisfying. I was like Sumino had all the ingredient for a cake, but dropped the mixing bowl on the floor. Then, in the process of scooping the mixture back into the bowl, she missed a load of key ingredients (sugar, eggs) and instead swept up random floor crud, a few hairs and some dead woodlice. Not bothering to start again, she shoved it in the oven, baked it and out came with I Will Forget This Feeling Someday.
I know I am being harsh and I know that others won't agree with me and may even find this review mean, but I've really tried with this author. I want to love her, but it's proving impossible. Aside from the poor execution of the plot and bland characters, the pacing is glacial and the writing style is amateurish verging on childish. If I learnt this book was written in a weekend, I'd believe it.
Ultimately, a very unsatisfying execution of what, in the hands of another author, could have been a wonderful story.
October 7, 2022
After reading “I Have A Secret” and now this story, I don’t really care for this author. How can you create such unique situations but stories that are so weak???? She doesn’t even use the “unique” aspect of this story except as a plot device to make us realize that feelings can come and go…???
December 24, 2023
Kaya Suzuki's ethical ambivalence toward the corruptive nature of interpersonal relationships has marked him as a vicious stoic by his early high-school years. For Kaya, goodness is a predictable corollary of convenience. The presumed arrogance of youth and the presumed certainty of adulthood are flagrantly unjustifiable vestiges of the human imagination. That is to say, people playact in a manner that comforts them to defy whatever it is they fear or to steal or obtain whatever they desire. Kaya Suzuki is not wrong.
I WILL FORGET THIS FEELING SOMEDAY is an intriguing work, if modestly undercut by the author's curious decision to staple a 127-page addendum to the book. Kaya sees through the miasma of optimism that typically plagues others his age: folksy camaraderie is unnecessary, adolescent relational dynamics are ephemeral, and the professional violence owned by supposedly mature adults amounts to nothing more than a game. In Kaya's rural town, it doesn't matter if he's mindful of neighborhood gossip and it doesn't matter if he listens to news stories about an approaching war. Humanity is endlessly selfish, so why bother?
"Most of us live and die without ever being special," Kaya says. "It's such an obvious truth, but most people don't seem to realize it — at least the people around me. But if you say something like that aloud, people get upset with you and act like it's an insult" (page 121).
And that's when he meets Chika.
In spite of the villainous truths that mar human pragmatism, Kaya meets Chika, accidentally, and through a kind of happenstance that forcefully occupies his mind for months at a time. At an abandoned bus stop, at the edge of his rural town, roughly half an hour before midnight, Kaya encounters a pair of glowing eyes. Shock and surprise (e.g., Ghost? Phantom?) give way to wild panic (e.g., Not alone?), which gives way to curiosity (e.g., How is it we can interact? Where are you from?), which gives way to restless enthusiasm (e.g., Our worlds are linked, but how?).
I WILL FORGET THIS FEELING SOMEDAY, at least the first 68% of it, is an excellent journey toward the precipice of low sci-fi, with a hint of philosophical rumination. Kaya and Chika's realms are bound; events occur in both worlds but wield asymmetrical reciprocity (e.g., seasonal weather occurs simultaneously yet unevenly; an injured pet in one world could equate to an injured person in another; a destroyed building in one world could equate to a broken window in another). Kaya and Chika's curiosity about one another, as well as one another's worlds, alleviates Kaya's boredom and stirs Chika's sincerity.
How does one learn about another world or realm when one cannot interact with that realm or its occupants? Why don't the reciprocal actions linking these realms line up? Why is Kaya the only one who can sort-of see, hear, and touch this otherworldly person? All good questions. All unanswerable. For a young man who regularly sees through the vanities his world offers, the possibility that he's not worthy of learning the truth of a universe beyond his tiny town in the sticks may prove interminably devastating.
All Kaya has for a guide is a floating pair of eyes and a patient, raspy voice. As such, the young man grows increasingly desperate for answers, occasionally pressing for violence and criminal behavior to validate his frustrations. Kaya wants to know Chika, wants to know more about her world; he also wants to protect her, his bond with her, and his perception of his bond with her, no matter the cost.
Chika is bright, affable, and inquisitive. But she is also painfully naïve. I WILL FORGET THIS FEELING SOMEDAY doesn't give her much depth beyond the role of a sounding board, a mirror for all of Kaya's basest inclinations, but the young woman serves up a meaningful warning when she says: "It might be impossible to avoid hurting others when you've really put your heart behind something, but if you go around intentionally causing people harm, someday you're going to end up hurting the things that you treasure, the beliefs you're trying to protect" (page 234).
Kaya may have convinced himself that he has fallen in love with a person he cannot see and whose personal life he has trouble visualizing. Kaya may also have convinced himself he can artfully sidestep the "mistake" of believing himself special in lieu of merely being fortunate. But "human relationships were built on the knowledge that one day, whether it's tomorrow or decades from now, one [is] always destined to betray the other" (page 97), and it would appear vicious stoics are no exception to this rule.
I WILL FORGET THIS FEELING SOMEDAY takes place primarily in the protagonist's dull high-school years. Kaya makes friends, loses friends, alienates family members, breaks the law, and more. The young man's fascination with forming a bond with an otherworlder drives him constantly. But what happens if Chika leaves? What if Chika gets injured or harmed? What if Kaya proves too foolish to manage a romance that he himself refuses to name?
The latter 32% of the book muddles any sensible answer to these questions. Following a handful of time-skips, the author takes readers on into the life of a thirtysomething office worker who clings to a semblance of past emotions to survive each day.
As a child, Kaya Suzuki was not wrong when he spied the prickly gamesmanship and messy ennui that colored most people's mediocre lives. As an adult, some of that sharpness has been rubbed down and chipped away. And it isn't until Kaya-the-adult runs into an old acquaintance that his simple, selfish quest to be forgiven (and to forgive himself) can be remotely attended to.
For readers familiar with Sumino's previous works, this novel carries the emotional truculence of I Want to Eat Your Pancreas and At Night, I Become a Monster, with flashes of the Third Act of I Am Blue, in Pain, and Fragile. To clarify, topics of suicide, the irrelevance of youth, the death of kindness, and the ironic insolence of being pragmatic carry this novel's thematic weight from start to finish. Understanding other people is impossible, and the fragments of truth one gains by experiencing the greatest moments of one's life are often rendered obsolete the instant that wind of fascination blows by. Contentment is an illusion.
I WILL FORGET THIS FEELING SOMEDAY is not about daring to doubt that love can exist; this book is about steeling oneself for the painful reality that emerges when one dares to doubt the concept of love at all.
I WILL FORGET THIS FEELING SOMEDAY is an intriguing work, if modestly undercut by the author's curious decision to staple a 127-page addendum to the book. Kaya sees through the miasma of optimism that typically plagues others his age: folksy camaraderie is unnecessary, adolescent relational dynamics are ephemeral, and the professional violence owned by supposedly mature adults amounts to nothing more than a game. In Kaya's rural town, it doesn't matter if he's mindful of neighborhood gossip and it doesn't matter if he listens to news stories about an approaching war. Humanity is endlessly selfish, so why bother?
"Most of us live and die without ever being special," Kaya says. "It's such an obvious truth, but most people don't seem to realize it — at least the people around me. But if you say something like that aloud, people get upset with you and act like it's an insult" (page 121).
And that's when he meets Chika.
In spite of the villainous truths that mar human pragmatism, Kaya meets Chika, accidentally, and through a kind of happenstance that forcefully occupies his mind for months at a time. At an abandoned bus stop, at the edge of his rural town, roughly half an hour before midnight, Kaya encounters a pair of glowing eyes. Shock and surprise (e.g., Ghost? Phantom?) give way to wild panic (e.g., Not alone?), which gives way to curiosity (e.g., How is it we can interact? Where are you from?), which gives way to restless enthusiasm (e.g., Our worlds are linked, but how?).
I WILL FORGET THIS FEELING SOMEDAY, at least the first 68% of it, is an excellent journey toward the precipice of low sci-fi, with a hint of philosophical rumination. Kaya and Chika's realms are bound; events occur in both worlds but wield asymmetrical reciprocity (e.g., seasonal weather occurs simultaneously yet unevenly; an injured pet in one world could equate to an injured person in another; a destroyed building in one world could equate to a broken window in another). Kaya and Chika's curiosity about one another, as well as one another's worlds, alleviates Kaya's boredom and stirs Chika's sincerity.
How does one learn about another world or realm when one cannot interact with that realm or its occupants? Why don't the reciprocal actions linking these realms line up? Why is Kaya the only one who can sort-of see, hear, and touch this otherworldly person? All good questions. All unanswerable. For a young man who regularly sees through the vanities his world offers, the possibility that he's not worthy of learning the truth of a universe beyond his tiny town in the sticks may prove interminably devastating.
All Kaya has for a guide is a floating pair of eyes and a patient, raspy voice. As such, the young man grows increasingly desperate for answers, occasionally pressing for violence and criminal behavior to validate his frustrations. Kaya wants to know Chika, wants to know more about her world; he also wants to protect her, his bond with her, and his perception of his bond with her, no matter the cost.
Chika is bright, affable, and inquisitive. But she is also painfully naïve. I WILL FORGET THIS FEELING SOMEDAY doesn't give her much depth beyond the role of a sounding board, a mirror for all of Kaya's basest inclinations, but the young woman serves up a meaningful warning when she says: "It might be impossible to avoid hurting others when you've really put your heart behind something, but if you go around intentionally causing people harm, someday you're going to end up hurting the things that you treasure, the beliefs you're trying to protect" (page 234).
Kaya may have convinced himself that he has fallen in love with a person he cannot see and whose personal life he has trouble visualizing. Kaya may also have convinced himself he can artfully sidestep the "mistake" of believing himself special in lieu of merely being fortunate. But "human relationships were built on the knowledge that one day, whether it's tomorrow or decades from now, one [is] always destined to betray the other" (page 97), and it would appear vicious stoics are no exception to this rule.
I WILL FORGET THIS FEELING SOMEDAY takes place primarily in the protagonist's dull high-school years. Kaya makes friends, loses friends, alienates family members, breaks the law, and more. The young man's fascination with forming a bond with an otherworlder drives him constantly. But what happens if Chika leaves? What if Chika gets injured or harmed? What if Kaya proves too foolish to manage a romance that he himself refuses to name?
The latter 32% of the book muddles any sensible answer to these questions. Following a handful of time-skips, the author takes readers on into the life of a thirtysomething office worker who clings to a semblance of past emotions to survive each day.
As a child, Kaya Suzuki was not wrong when he spied the prickly gamesmanship and messy ennui that colored most people's mediocre lives. As an adult, some of that sharpness has been rubbed down and chipped away. And it isn't until Kaya-the-adult runs into an old acquaintance that his simple, selfish quest to be forgiven (and to forgive himself) can be remotely attended to.
For readers familiar with Sumino's previous works, this novel carries the emotional truculence of I Want to Eat Your Pancreas and At Night, I Become a Monster, with flashes of the Third Act of I Am Blue, in Pain, and Fragile. To clarify, topics of suicide, the irrelevance of youth, the death of kindness, and the ironic insolence of being pragmatic carry this novel's thematic weight from start to finish. Understanding other people is impossible, and the fragments of truth one gains by experiencing the greatest moments of one's life are often rendered obsolete the instant that wind of fascination blows by. Contentment is an illusion.
I WILL FORGET THIS FEELING SOMEDAY is not about daring to doubt that love can exist; this book is about steeling oneself for the painful reality that emerges when one dares to doubt the concept of love at all.
October 16, 2022
First off this is not 270 pages goodreads it is 393 please get your shit together.
Interesting concept, insufferable main character, reminds me too much of myself.
Unsatisfying ending, but not poorly written, just wish there was more closure. End of the first part really hit me hard though. Good twists throughout the story, and that little meeting towards the end was well done.
Interesting concept, insufferable main character, reminds me too much of myself.
Unsatisfying ending, but not poorly written, just wish there was more closure. End of the first part really hit me hard though. Good twists throughout the story, and that little meeting towards the end was well done.
July 11, 2025
I think i have anticipated a very different thing from thia book. Essentially it's about overcoming the feelings for your ex, realising it's not the end of the world and life will go on, you will find someone else but they will always be a fundamental part of you, anywhere you go, no matter what
January 13, 2025
⭐️⭐️⭐️3.5 stars
Not much to say, it was kind of repetitive at times and I knew what to expect after reading so many Yoru Sumino books already. The mc kinda annoying and I was honestly tired of his internal monologue after a while.
Not much to say, it was kind of repetitive at times and I knew what to expect after reading so many Yoru Sumino books already. The mc kinda annoying and I was honestly tired of his internal monologue after a while.
March 5, 2023
DNF/5 Stars: ‘I Will Forget This Feeling Someday’ by Yoru Sumino.
→ Age Range: Young Adult.
→ Genre: Contemporary, Science Fiction.
→ Book Type: Light Novel.
Favourite Quote: ‘In memory lay expectations, which were only betrayed by reality.’
In-depth Rating:
→ Plot: ★
→ Character Development: ★
→ Setting: ★
→ Entertainment Level: ★
→ Writing: ★
→ Art (If Applicable): N/A.
General Comments: DNF @ Page 102. Review not Applicable.
Time Read: Three Days.
→ Audiobook: No.
→ Audiobook Narrator: -
Trigger Warnings: Trigger Warnings not Available. Read with Discretion.
→ Age Range: Young Adult.
→ Genre: Contemporary, Science Fiction.
→ Book Type: Light Novel.
Favourite Quote: ‘In memory lay expectations, which were only betrayed by reality.’
In-depth Rating:
→ Plot: ★
→ Character Development: ★
→ Setting: ★
→ Entertainment Level: ★
→ Writing: ★
→ Art (If Applicable): N/A.
General Comments: DNF @ Page 102. Review not Applicable.
Time Read: Three Days.
→ Audiobook: No.
→ Audiobook Narrator: -
Trigger Warnings: Trigger Warnings not Available. Read with Discretion.
July 5, 2025
This book is so slow. Maybe that's by design; make a character so boring it makes YOU bored reading his story.
Felt like the story only started halfway in the book. Really not for me. Kinda disappointing considering the hype the concept, title, and cover art gives.
Felt like the story only started halfway in the book. Really not for me. Kinda disappointing considering the hype the concept, title, and cover art gives.
October 11, 2022
I really want to love this book, but the main character is just so hateable that it makes this book a bit of a slog.
February 13, 2023
Te veel onzin en de mc geeft pick me vibes.
November 3, 2023
*warning: minor spoilers ahead*
Well, this is the last book Yoru Sumino published, and it's also the only book I had yet to read from her. I loved her I Had That Same Dream Again and I Have A Secret books, so I bought this in search for more stories like the previous ones. And unfortunately, I was wrong to expect something of their calibre.
The first glaring problem is the prose. I'm not sure if this was an issue in just the translation or in the original as well, but the writing is no good. There is so much "narration" that isn't needed, and there are so many things being told with minimal showing. Not only that, but the narrator, who is also the MC, constantly pities his life for how empty and mundane it is. I think it's okay to have a character like this (characters are meant to be flawed) but when the narrative constantly hammers our heads over and over with thoughts of nihilism that add very little we don't know already to his character, then you've got a problem going on with the prose.
I'm a hobbyist writer and I've written for some years now. The way this book was written seriously reminded me a lot of the way I used to write as a newbie. Of course, it's not anywhere near that bad, but some elements of my amateurish writing are there. Filters, weasels, waffling and text that is heavily saturated on needless, explicit information.
But it isn't just the text. The story itself has issues. The entire premise—the whole concept of the book—is about the girl from the other world. For much of the first portion of the book, Suzuki and Chika spend time with each other inside the bus shelter trying to figure out information about their worlds and a possibility to find a method of transportation. The initial pacing is terrible because not much besides this happens. And I think the author realized this because she then has Suzuki do something shocking but thematically useless to the plot. I won't spoil it, but if you like cute animals, prepare yourself.
The most disappointing of all is how long Suzuki and Chika spend time with each other, only for the author to abandon them. Yes, I'm serious. Chika disappears at some point, never to be seen again. How can an author make such an important character just go... poof?
I get that this partially has something to do with the overall theme of the story (feelings can change) but the way the author cut Chika off the story was unnecessary. She could have done it in a much better and relatable way. Like, I don't know, kill her in a shocking twist that nobody could see coming. Using a main character just to make a point, and then tossing her aside, is simply going to disappoint your readers.
Think of I Had That Same Dream Again. The supernatural element in the story had a direct thematic connection with the core of the story. Something meaningful became of all the characters, and they all disappeared in a way that fulfilled their purpose. Their disappearance had a positive trigger (Nanoka's improvement). But here, there is none of that. Chika... just... leaves... on a bad note. That is it. That is seriously it.
It's really hard to recommend this book because of these issues. The author does a good job with the concept, and Chika's world fascinates me. But because of the above issues, it isn't properly explored, and so, this feeling of fascination she created ultimately resolves to nothing. A world opens before me, and then, it just disappears.
You shouldn't be put off from this author. She's demonstrated skill. Read Pancreas, Dream or Secret. But not this.
Well, this is the last book Yoru Sumino published, and it's also the only book I had yet to read from her. I loved her I Had That Same Dream Again and I Have A Secret books, so I bought this in search for more stories like the previous ones. And unfortunately, I was wrong to expect something of their calibre.
The first glaring problem is the prose. I'm not sure if this was an issue in just the translation or in the original as well, but the writing is no good. There is so much "narration" that isn't needed, and there are so many things being told with minimal showing. Not only that, but the narrator, who is also the MC, constantly pities his life for how empty and mundane it is. I think it's okay to have a character like this (characters are meant to be flawed) but when the narrative constantly hammers our heads over and over with thoughts of nihilism that add very little we don't know already to his character, then you've got a problem going on with the prose.
I'm a hobbyist writer and I've written for some years now. The way this book was written seriously reminded me a lot of the way I used to write as a newbie. Of course, it's not anywhere near that bad, but some elements of my amateurish writing are there. Filters, weasels, waffling and text that is heavily saturated on needless, explicit information.
But it isn't just the text. The story itself has issues. The entire premise—the whole concept of the book—is about the girl from the other world. For much of the first portion of the book, Suzuki and Chika spend time with each other inside the bus shelter trying to figure out information about their worlds and a possibility to find a method of transportation. The initial pacing is terrible because not much besides this happens. And I think the author realized this because she then has Suzuki do something shocking but thematically useless to the plot. I won't spoil it, but if you like cute animals, prepare yourself.
The most disappointing of all is how long Suzuki and Chika spend time with each other, only for the author to abandon them. Yes, I'm serious. Chika disappears at some point, never to be seen again. How can an author make such an important character just go... poof?
I get that this partially has something to do with the overall theme of the story (feelings can change) but the way the author cut Chika off the story was unnecessary. She could have done it in a much better and relatable way. Like, I don't know, kill her in a shocking twist that nobody could see coming. Using a main character just to make a point, and then tossing her aside, is simply going to disappoint your readers.
Think of I Had That Same Dream Again. The supernatural element in the story had a direct thematic connection with the core of the story. Something meaningful became of all the characters, and they all disappeared in a way that fulfilled their purpose. Their disappearance had a positive trigger (Nanoka's improvement). But here, there is none of that. Chika... just... leaves... on a bad note. That is it. That is seriously it.
It's really hard to recommend this book because of these issues. The author does a good job with the concept, and Chika's world fascinates me. But because of the above issues, it isn't properly explored, and so, this feeling of fascination she created ultimately resolves to nothing. A world opens before me, and then, it just disappears.
You shouldn't be put off from this author. She's demonstrated skill. Read Pancreas, Dream or Secret. But not this.
February 23, 2023
I was so excited to jump into this novel as soon as I saw it at the bookstore.
I won't say that I was disappointed... because there are some aspects that I really like.
Yoru's writing style for example... I love the clarity of it.
speaking of, this is my first novel of the author, and has pre-ordered others. So I pray for better story lines..
I Will Forget This Feeling Someday had a very unique concept that can tell amazing possible stories.
However, the use of it was lacking. In a span of hundreds of pages, we witness two individuals from different worlds drag out description of their differences. - There was almost nothing going on, in terms of story.
This concept is so unique that it's really annoys me that it didn't become the central aspect of the novel at all.
The was very unlikable until the very end.
He's not the main protagonist type in the first place, it was understandable for readers to feel a little detached from him, as he himself is detached from their society.
It was when their first interaction occurred that things got interesting.
It was short-lived as we only ended up watching him makes sense of the situation while making it efficient - this went on for multiple pages. before hitting the reader's with: "I'm in love with her"
fast forward. he was jealous that it wasn't the only connection and stuff -
And this immaturity caused a sudden twist and the connection was severed.
Reader's are then thrown in an entirely different story.
Yes it should've been the aftermath. but It felt like I was reading an entirely different book.
I felt more attached to Sanae who was apparent only in the final 100 pages.
I found myself rooting for her in their argument scene. Which btw, almost made me crumple the book 'cause of annoyance. The MC still seemed immature, and Sanae doesn't deserve him.
I stand by this till the end..
---
The connection wasn't explained
Who else did Chika connect with? ; Did she end up finding rohmanse?
Tanaka was an unexplored likable character ; like what happens after the death of her dog?
So why did the connection broke again?
The unique concept attracted me
The Writing Style got me through it.
But the story made me want to throw it away.
I won't say that I was disappointed... because there are some aspects that I really like.
Yoru's writing style for example... I love the clarity of it.
speaking of, this is my first novel of the author, and has pre-ordered others. So I pray for better story lines..
I Will Forget This Feeling Someday had a very unique concept that can tell amazing possible stories.
However, the use of it was lacking. In a span of hundreds of pages, we witness two individuals from different worlds drag out description of their differences. - There was almost nothing going on, in terms of story.
This concept is so unique that it's really annoys me that it didn't become the central aspect of the novel at all.
The was very unlikable until the very end.
He's not the main protagonist type in the first place, it was understandable for readers to feel a little detached from him, as he himself is detached from their society.
It was when their first interaction occurred that things got interesting.
It was short-lived as we only ended up watching him makes sense of the situation while making it efficient - this went on for multiple pages. before hitting the reader's with: "I'm in love with her"
fast forward. he was jealous that it wasn't the only connection and stuff -
And this immaturity caused a sudden twist and the connection was severed.
Reader's are then thrown in an entirely different story.
Yes it should've been the aftermath. but It felt like I was reading an entirely different book.
I felt more attached to Sanae who was apparent only in the final 100 pages.
I found myself rooting for her in their argument scene. Which btw, almost made me crumple the book 'cause of annoyance. The MC still seemed immature, and Sanae doesn't deserve him.
I stand by this till the end..
---
The connection wasn't explained
Who else did Chika connect with? ; Did she end up finding rohmanse?
Tanaka was an unexplored likable character ; like what happens after the death of her dog?
So why did the connection broke again?
The unique concept attracted me
The Writing Style got me through it.
But the story made me want to throw it away.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
February 26, 2023
I Will Forget This Feeling Somedayby Yoru Sumino
⭐⭐⭐/5
🌶️/5
This book is hard to summarize in just a few words, so I will leave it short and simple. Suzuki Kaya lives a very boring, ordinary life and he passes every day by just waiting until the day he dies.... That is until he meets a girl from another world. Together, they spend their evenings learning about each other and the world happens, until one day, when she's gone forever. Will they ever see each other again?
Alright, so I will be the first to admit that I am a book rating SNOB. When I go to buy books, I will look up their Goodreads review. If a book has anything less than a 4+ star rating, I usually won't get it. Seriously, even if it's like 3.9, I still tend to put it back. I guess with this book, I was so captivated by its cover and title that I forgot to look up the reviews. I was absolutely shocked when I saw it had a 3.11 star average rating!! I was so worried about whether or not I would enjoy it, but decided to give it a chance anyways. Like most of the reviewers seem to agree, Kaya is sooooo unlikable. He is such a horrible main character. He spends his life looking down on everyone and talking about how pointless life it. It would have been better if I could chalk it up to depression or something, but he straight up feels like everyone sucks and is stupid. His relationship with Chika starts to unlock some more emotions in him, which is great. But soon enough, there's a time jump and he's back to being insufferable and using all the people around him. The ending got me a little emotional, and he seemed like he was on a better path. I did think the book was decent. It was disjointed at some points and I feel like there could have been a better connection between the two parts of the story. It could have been so much better, but it is what it is. It left off on a hopeful note. I picked up another book by this author with a much high rating, so we'll see how that one goes. This was a kind of hopeless book, but still got me feeling hopeful at the end. I would ultimately say pass on this one, unfortunately. If there's anything I learned, it's definitely don't judge a book by its cover or name!
⭐⭐⭐/5
🌶️/5
This book is hard to summarize in just a few words, so I will leave it short and simple. Suzuki Kaya lives a very boring, ordinary life and he passes every day by just waiting until the day he dies.... That is until he meets a girl from another world. Together, they spend their evenings learning about each other and the world happens, until one day, when she's gone forever. Will they ever see each other again?
Alright, so I will be the first to admit that I am a book rating SNOB. When I go to buy books, I will look up their Goodreads review. If a book has anything less than a 4+ star rating, I usually won't get it. Seriously, even if it's like 3.9, I still tend to put it back. I guess with this book, I was so captivated by its cover and title that I forgot to look up the reviews. I was absolutely shocked when I saw it had a 3.11 star average rating!! I was so worried about whether or not I would enjoy it, but decided to give it a chance anyways. Like most of the reviewers seem to agree, Kaya is sooooo unlikable. He is such a horrible main character. He spends his life looking down on everyone and talking about how pointless life it. It would have been better if I could chalk it up to depression or something, but he straight up feels like everyone sucks and is stupid. His relationship with Chika starts to unlock some more emotions in him, which is great. But soon enough, there's a time jump and he's back to being insufferable and using all the people around him. The ending got me a little emotional, and he seemed like he was on a better path. I did think the book was decent. It was disjointed at some points and I feel like there could have been a better connection between the two parts of the story. It could have been so much better, but it is what it is. It left off on a hopeful note. I picked up another book by this author with a much high rating, so we'll see how that one goes. This was a kind of hopeless book, but still got me feeling hopeful at the end. I would ultimately say pass on this one, unfortunately. If there's anything I learned, it's definitely don't judge a book by its cover or name!
July 24, 2023
I had to stop reading halfway through at 230 pages. I feel like I really tried with the main character. I would say my biggest problem was how much he would narrate in between conversations and constantly repeat himself over and over. In a sense, I thought he was like an antihero but as the story progressed, I realized I’m supposed to be taking him seriously. For Glob sakes he constantly refers to a dog he knows as “it”, which I also have to say is very disheartening and even awkward to read over and over. And the way that ends is just tragic.
The girl he meets from another world is also not interesting. In no way do they feel opposite or playoff one another well. Since he constantly has inner thought, the conversations are too scratchy, and she just seems robotic. I suppose that fits as she lives in a world with no romance or love.
So many flaws that make you question why the character isn’t contemplating them himself. Why doesn’t he ask questions? He holds so much back. It baffles me how he’s from Japan, and the girl he meets from the other world has never heard of Japan. And the entire time they never question what language they are speaking. Just little things like that.
Maybe somethings are better answered later on in the book, but as I’m reading from other peoples reviews, it doesn’t seem so. I feel terrible to give this book a bad rating as I loved I Want to Eat Your Pancreas but I would just like other people to be aware. Hopefully this review makes up for the guilt I feel for having to put down this book halfway through. The worst feeling ever.
The girl he meets from another world is also not interesting. In no way do they feel opposite or playoff one another well. Since he constantly has inner thought, the conversations are too scratchy, and she just seems robotic. I suppose that fits as she lives in a world with no romance or love.
So many flaws that make you question why the character isn’t contemplating them himself. Why doesn’t he ask questions? He holds so much back. It baffles me how he’s from Japan, and the girl he meets from the other world has never heard of Japan. And the entire time they never question what language they are speaking. Just little things like that.
Maybe somethings are better answered later on in the book, but as I’m reading from other peoples reviews, it doesn’t seem so. I feel terrible to give this book a bad rating as I loved I Want to Eat Your Pancreas but I would just like other people to be aware. Hopefully this review makes up for the guilt I feel for having to put down this book halfway through. The worst feeling ever.
March 22, 2024
I admit I had high expectations for this book, but I feel completely blindsided by how much it missed the mark.
I absolutely adored Yoru Sumino's other title “I Had That Same Dream Again”, and assumed I would find similar enjoyment in this novel. However, despite having an interesting concept, the story didn’t meet its potential.
The main character lacks emotion, which would be fine except there is nothing to balance out his lack of empathy. All the characters feel at least somewhat apathetic, which leads to conversations that are dry and stilted. I struggled to find purpose in everyone's interactions and honestly skim-read most of the book. Perhaps something just went wrong in translation, because there are also a large number of grammatical errors.
The one thing which I expect of Sumino, which is present in this novel is her ability to make an interesting moral lesson. The lesson here is thought provoking and reflective, but feels a little disjointed from the rest of the book.
I absolutely adored Yoru Sumino's other title “I Had That Same Dream Again”, and assumed I would find similar enjoyment in this novel. However, despite having an interesting concept, the story didn’t meet its potential.
The main character lacks emotion, which would be fine except there is nothing to balance out his lack of empathy. All the characters feel at least somewhat apathetic, which leads to conversations that are dry and stilted. I struggled to find purpose in everyone's interactions and honestly skim-read most of the book. Perhaps something just went wrong in translation, because there are also a large number of grammatical errors.
The one thing which I expect of Sumino, which is present in this novel is her ability to make an interesting moral lesson. The lesson here is thought provoking and reflective, but feels a little disjointed from the rest of the book.
November 24, 2024
I loved the idea of the book, it just wasn’t what I thought haha. The first half the book kept me interested, but even so I had some problems with it, but the last like 30%, I had to really drag through. And the ending really confused me. Like I’m not sure if I’m supposed to interpret Kaya meeting Aki as:
1. She was Chika (I don’t think so, just adding it to the list haha)
2. She was the girl who talked with Chika in the past
3. She reminded Kaya of Chika being the final thing to help him let go
4. Was he hallucinating the glowing eyes and nails at the end?
5. Was Chika really all a hallucination? I really want to doubt that, but why else would he see eyes and then say, “I wonder if Chika met me over there?” I was hoping others’ were also confused, but maybe I’m alone on this and too tired to understand what it’s supposed to mean. (Highly possible. XD)
I had a hard time rating this! It's not like this book has content I avoid (which is typically why I would rate something so low), it's just the story was not for me!
1. She was Chika (I don’t think so, just adding it to the list haha)
2. She was the girl who talked with Chika in the past
3. She reminded Kaya of Chika being the final thing to help him let go
4. Was he hallucinating the glowing eyes and nails at the end?
5. Was Chika really all a hallucination? I really want to doubt that, but why else would he see eyes and then say, “I wonder if Chika met me over there?” I was hoping others’ were also confused, but maybe I’m alone on this and too tired to understand what it’s supposed to mean. (Highly possible. XD)
I had a hard time rating this! It's not like this book has content I avoid (which is typically why I would rate something so low), it's just the story was not for me!
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
October 30, 2025
I Will Forget This Feeling Someday by Yoru Sumino is a reflective and bittersweet novel with hints of nostalgia. The book is about memory, love, and how time passes. I already enjoy reading and watching books and movies with a similiar genre to this book such as Your Name by Makoto Shinkai. The story follows Kaya Suzuki, a man whose monotonous life changes after he meets a mysterious girl from another world at a bus stop. Their brief connection leaves a lasting impact on him which shaped his thoughts and emotions even after the years passed by. Through Kaya’s journey from youth to adulthood, the author explores how people cling to fleeting feelings, which is nostalgia which I related to and the difficulty of moving on. I give this book a 5 star rating because I felt that the writing is poetic yet contemplative. Although the story’s pacing is slow, I liked it because nothing felt rushed and it felt like I was feeling the characters' emotions. The novel beautifully captures nostalgia and how people feel like they have to hold onto precious moments, which I related to the most.
March 16, 2023
I personally felt this book was lacking a bit, in terms of the plot and character development.
The pacing felt a bit too slow for my liking and the ending seemed rushed to me.
Maybe it's just a me thing but i felt that the characters were a bit 2D all i got from suzuki is that he is anti social and has attachment issues. (Loving multiple people isnt pi, just cause she even knows someone else doesnt mean she likes you any less) and that chika is just nice(?) like i feel thats it to her character; i was hoping that it would show some more human feelings in her.
i'd say that this book's redeeming quality is the interesting premise and setting. But thats about it. I was hoping this would be another satisfying read as i have read "i want to eat your pancreas " which quite literally ripped my heart out into two (but in a good way)
if you're thinking about reading this i would suggest not setting your expectations too high, that mightve been the reason for me little let down
The pacing felt a bit too slow for my liking and the ending seemed rushed to me.
Maybe it's just a me thing but i felt that the characters were a bit 2D all i got from suzuki is that he is anti social and has attachment issues. (Loving multiple people isnt pi, just cause she even knows someone else doesnt mean she likes you any less) and that chika is just nice(?) like i feel thats it to her character; i was hoping that it would show some more human feelings in her.
i'd say that this book's redeeming quality is the interesting premise and setting. But thats about it. I was hoping this would be another satisfying read as i have read "i want to eat your pancreas " which quite literally ripped my heart out into two (but in a good way)
if you're thinking about reading this i would suggest not setting your expectations too high, that mightve been the reason for me little let down
June 17, 2023
I finished this yesterday. I started it two weeks ago. I read for a couple of days and then put it down until yesterday. Part of this is free time. Part of it is just not having a connection to Kaya or even Chika for a while. And when I finally did, well, it didn't matter that much.
No doubt, for me, there is something sub-conscious about reading other books by Sumino. My first, favorite and one that rips me apart no matter how many times I seem to read it is _I Want to Eat Your Pancreas_. And nary a one since then has had anywhere NEAR the same impact on me. I felt like I was getting close to that when the book abruptly changed directions and just left me wondering why I should care what is going on with Kaya 15 years later.
I still give this book 3-stars because it does have some moments. Your reaction may be wholly different than mine. But I don't think I'll ever pick this one up again.
No doubt, for me, there is something sub-conscious about reading other books by Sumino. My first, favorite and one that rips me apart no matter how many times I seem to read it is _I Want to Eat Your Pancreas_. And nary a one since then has had anywhere NEAR the same impact on me. I felt like I was getting close to that when the book abruptly changed directions and just left me wondering why I should care what is going on with Kaya 15 years later.
I still give this book 3-stars because it does have some moments. Your reaction may be wholly different than mine. But I don't think I'll ever pick this one up again.
August 26, 2023
I had picked up this book randomly in my bookstore and so went into it not knowing anything... it was a weird ride.
It questions the point of life and the driving force behind it.
I gave it three stars because it was a bit tedious and repetitive at some points. It was almost a four star because I did appreciate the message although done in an odd but effective way.
Definitely would read something else by this author.
Slight spoilers ahead, nothing specific, but if you want to go into knowing very little maybe don't read further.
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Our main character is fine and goes through the motions of what is expected of him, slightly sociopathic tendencies, until he has a chance supernatural type encounter at an abandoned bus stop. After that he finds a purpose and to him the only purpose... but nothing lasts forever.
The last small part of the book shows our main character as an adult and we discovers if he has changed or if life is truly meaningless.
It questions the point of life and the driving force behind it.
I gave it three stars because it was a bit tedious and repetitive at some points. It was almost a four star because I did appreciate the message although done in an odd but effective way.
Definitely would read something else by this author.
Slight spoilers ahead, nothing specific, but if you want to go into knowing very little maybe don't read further.
...
Our main character is fine and goes through the motions of what is expected of him, slightly sociopathic tendencies, until he has a chance supernatural type encounter at an abandoned bus stop. After that he finds a purpose and to him the only purpose... but nothing lasts forever.
The last small part of the book shows our main character as an adult and we discovers if he has changed or if life is truly meaningless.
December 18, 2025
On my opinion, this book has been really interesting. The storyline captures my attention, especially because it involves different roles and determination. The characters in the story Kaya and Chika, have different lives. Kaya is very unmotivated, he doesn’t feel like his life will be any different. He keeps on waiting for something big to happen, an event to change his life that will keep him motivated. However, Chika is that big event. Now he can look forward to talking to her, although he can’t necessarily see her whole appearance. I enjoy how the story shows where love blossoms across parallel worlds, which makes this one of a kind love that feels very special. However he gets a girlfriend as an adult and struggles to hold onto a feeling that hurts, but everything is always changing. I think this book suggests that we can’t stick with the moments or freeze them. We have to allow new growth in experiences into our lives.
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January 3, 2024
ah... i am shocked. this book kept me on the edge even though i don't even know what it's supposed to be about, yet i still look forward to what happens next. i thoroughly hate and not understand the MC, no matter the logical way of thinking that he has, or the ways that he thinks about the world that I can understand given his life story, background, or his surroundings, i don't know. still. super annoying and def not fun to read if you have a short fuse. He was just an insufferable incel with a god complex and desire to be "different" by hating everyone and yet kept on thinking he is normal like everyone else and fell in love with an imaginary friend. I don't care if what he experienced actually happened or not, but I pity him entirely.
June 11, 2025
I personally loved this book so much, I felt like I was able to relate to the characters and every second of reading I was intrigued and interested in what was going to happen. I loved how you were able to feel everything the characters where going through and how connected you were to them. I like how every part of the book whether it was small or a big event all made sense in the end, just like everything happened for a reason. I also loved how deep of a meaning this book had, and also I loved how it didn't just work out perfectly in the end like some things we'll never figure out but I also did still feel reassured with how it ended and didn't think i needed more from the story, you had just enough.
September 17, 2024
I’m proud that I finally finished this book after 2 months of debating whether to not even continue it or not.
I’m also disappointed in myself for even finishing it.
This novel looked promising. At first, I was like: Wow this MC is so different—he’s unbothered and chill. What a breath of fresh air. Then as the novel progressed, I just find his character dull, repetitive, superficial, and a major asshole. On top of that, the dogs death was unnecessary and just pissed me the fuck off. Like what was the relevance?!
The writing style is not my cup of tea and the pace was super mega slow.
Verdict: I want my time back.
I’m also disappointed in myself for even finishing it.
This novel looked promising. At first, I was like: Wow this MC is so different—he’s unbothered and chill. What a breath of fresh air. Then as the novel progressed, I just find his character dull, repetitive, superficial, and a major asshole. On top of that, the dogs death was unnecessary and just pissed me the fuck off. Like what was the relevance?!
The writing style is not my cup of tea and the pace was super mega slow.
Verdict: I want my time back.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
October 19, 2024
I love Yoru Sumino's books. I've read them all. Beautiful prose. Incomparable creativity. The way her books make me think. This book, being the darkest one, I feel a little conflicted. On one hand I hated the protagonist for being a narcissistic piece of shit, but, on the other hand, in the last seventy pages Sumino does her incredible magic and again I found myself baffled about her work. In my opinion there's no one like Yoru Sumino that truly understands human connections. How they really work. And that never seizes to amaze me.
October 1, 2025
「我只是為了要持續思考、感受才過生活。為了在腦中思考只屬於自己的想法、從書本和音樂感受到各種情感，必須要有身體和生命才行。這就是我生活的理由。身體是讓我可以繼續保有心靈的容器。每一天都只是為了讓身體活下去而過的，所以無所謂。」
「看來這段生涯並不值得抱持快樂或無聊之類的強烈情感。雖然有可能產生一陣疾風般的情感，可是風立刻就會逝去，剩餘時間就只是珍惜那疾風的記憶度過的餘生。
……
我敢斷言，人生當中有意義的時間，就只有吹拂著那陣風的時間。如果能夠早點迎接生命終點，就會輕鬆許多，可是包含我在內，幾乎所有人都沒有結束自己生命的勇氣，所以只能藉由麻痺自己，或是消極地縮短自己生命來消化每一天。
有時也會假裝傾心於某個對象，有時會假裝陶醉於某樣東西，有時會嘗試某種嗜好品，有時會嘗試跟某人交往，然後無為地死去。
像這樣執著於個體而生活的人類，是多麼愚蠢的生物。然而既然出生了，只要活著就會自然理解到，自己也是愚蠢的人類當中的一個。雖然遺憾，不過要在不斷消費的每一天當中，對既定的事抱持太大的失落感，也只是白費心力而已，只能默默接受。這個世界並不值得抱著強烈的情感去面對。 」
住野夜... “這份心情總有一天會遺忘”
「看來這段生涯並不值得抱持快樂或無聊之類的強烈情感。雖然有可能產生一陣疾風般的情感，可是風立刻就會逝去，剩餘時間就只是珍惜那疾風的記憶度過的餘生。
……
我敢斷言，人生當中有意義的時間，就只有吹拂著那陣風的時間。如果能夠早點迎接生命終點，就會輕鬆許多，可是包含我在內，幾乎所有人都沒有結束自己生命的勇氣，所以只能藉由麻痺自己，或是消極地縮短自己生命來消化每一天。
有時也會假裝傾心於某個對象，有時會假裝陶醉於某樣東西，有時會嘗試某種嗜好品，有時會嘗試跟某人交往，然後無為地死去。
像這樣執著於個體而生活的人類，是多麼愚蠢的生物。然而既然出生了，只要活著就會自然理解到，自己也是愚蠢的人類當中的一個。雖然遺憾，不過要在不斷消費的每一天當中，對既定的事抱持太大的失落感，也只是白費心力而已，只能默默接受。這個世界並不值得抱著強烈的情感去面對。 」
住野夜... “這份心情總有一天會遺忘”
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