"In the middle of all five weddings, I began to feel like I didn't matter. As if the fact that I had feelings had gotten lost in the shuffle. And the blog was a way to feel like some small fraction of my life was, in fact, still about me." Sara Goodman Confino, For the Love of Friends, page 311
Heavy
spoiler warning, because I have a lot of opinions about everything that happens in this book from the inevitable plot point that occurs in every story about an anonymous blog onwards.
Lily is a typical wedding-com heroine, which is to say that she's a single woman aged between her late twenties and mid thirties (she's 32, to be exact) and everyone keeps harping on about how she isn't married. Please pause here to digest the absolute horror of her lack of ring. I understand if you need a moment.
SO. Lily is going to be in five weddings - for a work friend (Caryn), her college roommate (Sharon), her childhood best friend (Megan), her brother (Jake, who is marrying Madison), and her sister (Amy) - and the sheer amount of money she needs for this is horrifying. She starts a blog pretty much on impulse about her life and being in five weddings. It always irks me when a blog is used for quick, easy money, but Lily doesn't actually make much for the majority of the story - finally, a novel that's realistic about blogging! Lily's not perfect - she's particularly jealous of and unfair on her younger sister. She also doesn't always ask for the things she wants and just assumes the response will be negative, although we certainly see a couple of times when she does and she's shouted down by someone else. The blog is a place to vent. A place where she is still allowed to have feelings.
The problem with this novel is that the moment the blog is discovered (and, apparently, we're supposed to ignore the fact that Lily is literally doxxed), the novel starts working super hard to justify the brides' bad behaviour. Yes, Lily's venting is incredibly sarcastic and this isn't a subject she should be writing a public blog about, and, yes, as I said above, I don't like how belittling she is about her little sister (who did nothing to deserve it - Amy, and Madison, are both perfectly reasonable brides). However, everyone in her life suddenly wants her to know what a horrible, self-centred person she is, as if she hasn't spent the ENTIRE novel giving up a year of her life and almost bankrupting herself to go above and beyond for these people whilst they've treated her like dirt. She tracked down a dress she saw on Caryn's Pinterest board when she knew she was feeling despondent over wedding dresses and took her to a special viewing during their lunch break, fought with Sharon's mother (at Sharon's request), and withstood every criticism of her appearance with minimal arguing.
Let's start with Caryn, who only asked her to be a bridesmaid in the first place so that she could act as a buffer between her and the friends she doesn't like. Caryn forces Lily to dye her dark hair for her wedding (as someone with very dark hair, no way in hell - it would take so much bleach, I probably wouldn't have any hair left afterwards!) amongst several other changes to her physical appearance, including suggesting that she get botox, and whilst the novel notes that she went overboard with what she asked for, it also attempts to handwave it because wealth and status are important to Caryn. That's not a justification! Lily doesn't have the budget and Caryn knows it. She's also the first bride to get on the let's-make-Lily-feel-bad-about-her-size train when a minimising bra is suggested. Throughout the story, Lily (who sounds like she's a pretty average size) begins to show signs of being seriously unhappy with her body. She mentions early on she'd worked through some body image issues when she was younger and it feels like the brides brought them screaming back. The brides (or their friends or relatives) seem determined to make her hate herself.
Then there's Sharon. Sharon, Sharon, Sharon. Where to begin? Sharon explicitly asks Lily to join the wedding to be a buffer between her and her controlling mother because she doesn't even want a big wedding and her mum is making her have one. Yet, when the blog comes out, she insists that her mother only pushes for the things she knows Sharon really wants, but won't say because of her social anxiety. When it comes down to it though, even in private she was completely unable to tell her mother that she didn't want black bridesmaid dresses and needed Lily to fight that battle for her, which Lily did. The view Lily has of Sharon's mother was created by Sharon as much as it was by her mother's actions. The social anxiety reveal also feels like it's just there to make Lily look worse.
And then there's Megan. If Lily is self-centred, you really have to wonder what Megan would be considered to be. Supposedly, Megan has been Lily's best friend since elementary school, but her responses to Lily's issues with the ways that Caryn is changing her appearance are either ooh keep that for my wedding or well, that's just selfish, she knows you're going to be in multiple weddings and you'll need to change that back for mine. To be fair, being insensitive and tactless are pretty much her only crimes and she's a lovely bride otherwise. I don't particularly judge her for the groomsman thing. Of course she doesn't want drama at her wedding. Surely Lily can wait until after the wedding to properly discuss her feelings for Alex with her and get her blessing then?
The issue Jake and Madison have with Lily is justified - she didn't really put in a lot of effort to get to know her new sister-in-law, in part because she'd overextended herself with all the weddings. HOWEVER, their other sister, Amy, bonded with Madison on a trip she and her partner went on with Jake and Madison to check out the place where they were planning to have their destination wedding. A trip that Lily was specifically not invited on for the crime of being single - apparently, it was a "couples thing". There's certainly an argument to be made that Lily wouldn't have had the time or money anyway, but then she's made time for a lot of things throughout the novel and by not inviting her they're not really putting in the effort either.
It's just infuriating, because the fact that Lily was not treated like a human being doesn't get much acknowledgement from the people around her. It's like the novel turns round and says, suck it up, your feelings don't matter because you're a bridesmaid. No. she shouldn't have aired all their personal laundry on the internet, but I still feel like it comes down way too hard on the brides' side.