I’ve just put this book down and I’m genuinely sad, angry and frustrated. This was possibly my most anticipated release of the year and it was a huge letdown.
I’ve never read anything by Holly Smale before, but I’ve listened to her on various autism podcasts, read articles about her and followed her on Twitter. I love what she’s doing to raise awareness and advocate for the autistic community. I knew she is an esteemed YA author who got a late diagnosis, so her writing about an autistic protagonist seemed absolutely perfect to me. Finally we’d get a work of fiction by an own voices author who’s known to be a good writer!
The Cassandra Complex is definitely very readable, and the white pages before each chapter, as well as short chapters themselves, make this an especially easy read. Because of this I started out really enjoying this novel. After the first 50 pages or so I got slightly worried that this entire book would focus on Cassandra’s breakup with Will. When I kept on reading and figured this would be the case, I really wanted to DNF it.
Before reading this I really hoped this book would center Cassandra. I’ve read so many (romance) books featuring autistic characters at this point, where there’s always a midway point where the character either gets diagnosed or explains to others around her that she’s autistic. That this book set out with a very obviously autistic person (special interest, struggles with sensory input, gets meltdowns, communicates differently, takes things literally, struggles with certain foods) made me really happy initially, because I thought the focus would be about her living her live as an autistic woman. It would’ve been such a nice change from the other stories I’ve read so far! I thought we’d read about how she finds a job which suits her, about how she finds a friend who loves Greek myths just as much as she does, and generally speaking gets to live her best life.
Instead we get a story about Cassandra clinging onto a non-functioning relationship, changing herself and crossing her own boundaries constantly to please her ex, whilst also clinging onto a work environment that doesn’t suit her. It’s an incredibly depressing read if you view it this way.
The breakup is meant to be what sets the story on motion and what makes you want to keep reading, but I really don’t think this worked. Will and Cassandra have been together for 4 months when they break up. Will himself acknowledges that this is not a long time, but Cassandra is clinging on, because she was getting close to falling for him. We don’t know what basis their relationship has, they have nothing in common and seem constantly confused at what the other person wants. So as a reader, I thought this breakup made perfect sense. I didn’t want to read on to see how their love story would develop, I never thought it would work out in the first place.
The autism rep in this is very visible but, as it turns out, the fact she’s autistic was apparently meant to be a plot twist. She and those around her had no idea (yet the person who reveals this to her is suddenly an expert on the matter, even knowing modern discourse on it, which even most psychologists aren’t aware of). How, though?! I know in hindsight this is a question lots of autistic women (or anyone with a late diagnosis) ask themselves, but Cassandra was so stereotypical in so many ways! She takes things literally, doesn’t do well being around people, can’t make eye contact, wears the same things every day of the week, has a meltdown in public and says very detailed things in response to questions (which can be about Greek myths, but also specifics about numbers. At one point she says she’d have 80,000 seconds to do something, for instance). She doesn’t mask either (even though she says she does, but I’ve never seen her mask in this book) so she’s never fully hid away who she is, either. It’s all very visible, to the point where her colleagues, family members and flatmates comment on it. How is the diagnosis such a shock, then? I wish they’d just not have named it at all.
Aside from the storyline about her relationship and her getting her diagnosis, there’s a lot more this book covers.
There’s simply too much that’s happening at once, and in the end nothing stuck with me. Cassandra’s family history is something which is referenced in the beginning, then doesn’t show up again until the last 100 pages or so, but it turns out to be significant anyway. Then there’s the situation with her work, and oh - I guess this entire novel is based around the concept of time travel. To top it all off Greek myths are referenced thoroughly on every page. I genuinely love Greek myths - the author and I both loved Stephen Fry’s books! - but every page contained very detailed (and often obscure) references, to the point where I skimmed entire sections. I actually got most of these references but even I found them tiresome, so I can’t imagine what someone who’s not into myths must be thinking when they read these segments.
I really expected this to be an easy 5 stars. But this was too much of everything, and none of it felt executed right. Cassandra lacks personality to me. Her entire life seems to be shaped by those around her, and except for her love of banana muffins I can’t name a single thing which really defines her. Even her special interest isn’t of her own making. The issues she faces in this novel aren’t really solved either, or at least not in the long-term. I don’t know if there will be a ‘happy ever after’ because it feels like her story is only beginning. (Which makes me think the author is set on making a sequel?) I really wanted to see how Cassandra found her way into this world and learned to thrive. Instead we got a lot of other things - but not that.