It seems I'm in the minority here and for the sake of the author and for other readers, that makes me really happy! It's clear this author feels strongly about the plight of her characters in this book and how they reflect the real life struggle of so many people. She tackles a subject I haven't yet read about in fiction and I commend her for that. I feel just as strongly as she does about the acceptance and support of every person facing such struggles as the characters in this story do. I just wish I had connected with this book in a way that I simply did not. If I'm being really honest here, I think an opportunity to truly take a stand for and support characters like Benton was missed by the bizarre course this story took. Unfortunately the flaws in the story outweighed the highlights for me. That, in conjunction with the fact that I felt that too much drama was thrown in to the story subsequently taking away from the believability of the plot resulted in my total detachment from the book.
First...the highlights...
The dynamic between Hollis and Abigail is such an interesting one. At first, I thought Hollis was going to be stuck living with a rude, self-absorbed roommate who wasn't interested in forging a friendship with her. And with Hollis keeping her own secrets, it seemed unlikely the two would ever become friends. But soon it became clear that they had more in common than they thought. Strangely enough, both feel imprisoned by their own bodies. True, their circumstances are drastically different, but their feelings of shame, of frustration with the deck they've been dealt, living under a constant cloud of not belonging, of being judged, of feeling uncomfortable in their own skin, all of that is the same. At the end of the day, we all just want to feel accepted, feel beautiful in our own bodies, feel secure with who we are.
Risher Stevenson. He's undeniably charming and deliciously attractive. But I consistently wondered if he was really THAT fantastic of a guy, or just too good to be true. One minute, I'm trying not to throw my kindle in frustration because of all the times he didn't man up and put Leah in her place. Other times, I'm overwhelmed with just how much of a man Risher really is when it really counts... with Hollis, with going slow and letting her tell him her secrets at her own pace, with just how sweet and romantic he could be. I liked him. He was one of the few things that kept me engaged in this story.
Here's where it gets dicey...
The book started out strong, I really felt invested in Hollis' tragic past and where she was going as she set off for college. But by the halfway mark, or possibly sooner, I felt the disconnect. For me, there was something pivotal missing in the cultivation of Hollis' relationships. While several weeks passed, the relationship between Hollis and Risher still felt like insta-love because something in the build up of their relationship was missing for the reader. I think it's because the story skips time, so you're told they've dated and spent time together but you don't actually see it. Therefore, before I knew it, they're madly in love and I'm wondering why, how that happened, what they have in common, where the attraction came from. The same went for the friendship between Hollis and her roommate. Later in the story, her roommate has decided that they're best friends, and while I know deep rooted pain and secrets have been shared and a circumstantial bond has formed, they still seemed more like roommates than friends. Essentially, I just felt like something was missing, something that could connect me to these characters and help me to understand their bonds. I needed to see the build, I needed to feel the growing connections instead of just hearing about them.
I struggled with some of the dialogue and with much of the antics where Leah was concerned. I really need a believable progression of events in a book to stay connected and there were just too many over-the-top moments that felt too dramatic to be believed. Hollis' accident, what happened to the boy that was there with her, the antics with Leah, the drama with Abigail, then what happens to Benton late in the book and what he chooses to do afterward... it was just too many overly dramatic plot devices used to surround one character and it felt contrived and unnatural. The climax of the story, the scene late in the book that alters the trajectory of these characters paths forever was, for me, completely outlandish and infuriating. I just couldn't believe in what happened, what Hollis' reaction to it was, how she handled it... it was just so too crazy to be believed. Sadly, that was what went through my head for much of this story. I found everything just too crazy to be believed. The way Hollis was treated for her scars, the things Benton chose to accept rather than just dealing with the wrath of his parents, the way Hollis behaved at times, it was just all too much, too dramatic, too unbelievable.
Again, I commend the author for her desire to attack a topic she feels so strongly about. I wish I came away feeling differently, but there was just too much about this story that didn't work for me.