”I never doubted my path before,” Sebastian continues, the rosary clinking in his hands. “But then you walk into that garden and I’m made dizzy by you, by the divine you carry inside you. By your quiet strength and your curiosity and your kind heart. Being near you is an ecstasy that feels blessed by God’s kiss, like wanting you is the most holy, most perfect thing I can do.”
Holy fuck (no pun intended).
This book.
It was absolutely perfect to read towards the end of October.
We are following George (I freaking adore her character) who has flown across the sea to attend her first term at Blackfriar’s University. I’d say the first 100ish pages or so is mainly her getting settled into life at university. Along the way we meet William who is a part of this popular rich kid clique called the Orpheus Society. Not much is known about what goes on in this society but what we do know is that no one is allowed outside on Devil’s Night which seems to be a night where the Orpheus Society runs wild and free on campus. They break shit, graffiti shit, and after her roommate disappears George thinks that something more sinister is taking place inside this secret society. They have the money to pay off anyone including the local police but George, who has a thriving true crime podcast and is determined to find out the truth, refuses to stop sniffing and digging for answers even though William and his society buddies bully, torment, threaten, and taunt her every step of the way. She knows she is in danger but nothing will stop her from finding and revealing the truth and bring the Orpheus Society and its members to their knees.
Please, kiss me until I believe you can be mine.
Kiss me until your God blesses our betrayal.
Kiss me until sin has no meaning.
In chapter one we also meet one of the priests, Sebastian, in a very naked swimming situation which is the perfect way to start a book in my opinion. The two are immediately drawn to each other and their once kind friendship develops into something more forbidden, taboo, and dirty. They both fight so hard to remain friends because Sebastian loves his faith and George doesn’t want to be the one to make him sin but fate is a steamy little bitch isn’t she?
The atmosphere of this school is so eery and full of secrets and skeletons in the closets. It was an amazing experience and had me on edge. I loved that George was into true crime and I truly felt like I was right there with her trying to figure out what in the actual hell is going on at this school and while we don’t find out much because of continued research, friendships, boys, budding romances, and other things, I am just excited to be along for the ride. Answers will come when they come. Until then I’m left in my little reader hole of making guesses and hanging in the suspense. This one is definitely a 2021 fave.
Warning: this book does end on a cliffhanger and the concluding book isn’t out yet.
TWs: Kidnapping, drug use, drinking, talk of possible ritualistic sacrifice, scientific experiments with already dead rabbits, graphic depictions of a crime scene including autopsy, murder, discussion of past rape/sexual assault, ptsd and anxiety related to past rape/sexual assault, bullying, discussion of grief and losing a parent
Overall rating 5 stars
Steaminess 3 stars