This manga series has turned into one of my favourite mangas of all time!
This book has such a nice blend between feeling easy to read & process while still discussing and pointing out significant issues and problems for trans teens. It also shows contrast in different journeys and looks into ways that trans people experience relationships with their gender identity and expression differently.
Firstly, something that I appreciated about the novel is that while being a trans male was quite prevalent part to the storyline, it wasn’t the ONLY point. The book was less about “Ryo is trans and therefore this is his journey being trans and transitioning” but more of “Ryo is trans and this is how he’s navigating and accepting himself. These are some of the things he loves and ways he expresses himself” which was great.
In terms of just a few things I loved about Ryo’s journey specifically:
Firstly, he starts the series off not knowing the word “transgender” and doesn’t really know much about lgbt. But he still can clearly recognise that he’s experiencing a disconnect between his mind and body, and moreover finds this distressing as he struggles to vociferate the issues he’s dealing with, especially as none of his female peers seem to be struggling with these issues.
Some things they bring out are his body dysphoria with is chest and neck, as well as needing to wear the female uniform at school and being socially treated as a girl. He’s always trying to wear his gym suit so he can avoid the skirt, etc etc.
This brings me to my next point (which I did mention a bit before) where it brings into his other hobbies: he loves art (specifically graffiti street art) and fashion, and feels like he can properly express himself and present in a way that he’s comfortable with fashion. So this hobby did stem from wanting to properly express his gender in presentation but stems into just a genuine love for clothing and fashion which I thought was great.
When he learns about being transgender he’s very quickly like “oh yes this is what I am” which does give a little checkmark for him but moving forward is still a difficult process for him from there.
He struggles A LOT with telling people he’s trans. I thought this was a FANTASTIC point that is brought up in his character’s journey: Ryo knows in his head who he is and expresses this to his close friends— but he also experiences a lot of anxiety and fear when it comes to other people finding this out. He worries about needing to come out in job applications, being rejected, being bullied, etc etc. He carries a lot of fear just being the idea of people knowing he is trans, even if he’s not always worried about how it’s going to be received, which I thought was a really real worry and I was happy to see that was included in the storyline.
Something I also particularly enjoyed about Ryo is that being trans to him isn’t his full identity— and what I mean by that is this is obviously a series that does heavily revolve around him being transgender, but he mentions this a few times through the series— that he wants to be able to just live his life and have it not be a big deal. At one point it’s brought up that it could be a “unique selling point” for their brand image (having a designer who is trans) but Ryo isn’t interested in making their brand about that, because he doesn’t want to constantly be making something so fixated around his gender— he simply wants to exist peacefully as a guy.
On the flip side of things looking at other characters in the series with different experiences, I thought this was included so well and I was so happy to see that different experiences were also called to attention. There’s another character in this novel who (AMAB) has lived most of their life out as a gay male, but later learns that’s not really how they identify, and they see their gender as more fluid (it’s implied they are genderfluid, but in general they just do not conform to the gender binary). These two different experiences I thought were so nice to be contrasted a bit!! They did a really great job at showcasing different hardships with different gender identities, and why they can all be difficult to deal with in their own manners. For example, the more gender non-conforming character applauds Ryo for his assertiveness, for being so certain that he’s a guy, and mentions that they often struggle because they don’t know how they feel, and that it’s difficult for them to pinpoint where they are on the gender spectrum, which I think is a very transparent experience of many of various non-binary identities. On the opposite side, in this story it also looked at how Ryo seems (it’s implied but not explicitly stated) to experience a lot more heavy dysphoria, wherein every aspect of being female causes him so much pain because it’s so wrong to how he knows he is. Now that’s not to say that non-binary identities don’t experience as much dysphoria as binary-trans folks do— but more just looked at the idea that with more gender non-binary identities there can be a crossover of things that don’t cause the person distress.
I shouldn’t write more because this review will go on for years and year, but I really loved this series. The characters are so so loveable.
It deals with so many important experiences to members of the trans (and wider LGBT+ community) like:
- figuring out identity
- struggling to understand how your feel about your identity & not knowing how to express what you feel
- fear of coming out
- coming out and being accepted, coming out and being rejected, and why both are fucking terrifying
- being outed without consent
- transphobia
- dysphoria
- realising a previous identity no longer matches who you are
- experimenting with gender-expression & presentation
- wearing your identity on your sleeve vs wanting to blend in
- LGBT identifying students in schools & in the school system
- LGBT in the workplace
- coming out to LGBT allies
And lots more. I genuinely would recommend this series to anyone, regardless of whether they identify as a member of the LGBT+ community or not!