ok so, first of all, i think the fact i’ve finished reading this book is very rude!! i needed, like, 1000 more pages of that
so, how does one review that one book they read in february but already know will probably be their favourite of the year? hmmmmmm (i have no idea please send help)
my expectations for this book were somewhere along the lines of a fun internet mutuals to lovers (yes) book with a bunch of important themes that i’ll enjoy a lot and what i got was a fun internet mutuals to lovers book that heavily broke my heart
first of all, i had a few very very minor issues about this book and like, all of them, were completely eclipsed by how much i loved the characters. the dialogue was a little stilted in some places for the first 30-40% person or so? and the last maybe 20% dragged on a little? and often that would make me make my rating a little lower or just Not like a book as much but??? there was a group of characters at the heart of this book that made me ignore everything
i just loved them y’know!!! the heart of this book is a group of friends who i would like to read much much more about - if you need a book that makes you fall completely in love with a cast of characters then like!!!!!! this book exists i loved all of them (apart from one, obvs)
this had this sort of classic queer ya contemporary atmosphere to it that i can’t quite explain i’ll just hope people can uhhh interpret my extremely vague words. what i DO vaguely mean though is that the feeling while reading this? reminded me of the feelings i’ve gotten when reading a lot of the big queer ya books
cannot review this book without talking about the romance within it because . fuck . so i’ve read a lot of ya books recently where there’s a romance but it maybe takes up only a tiny bit of the book and that’s super cool!! i love that!! but i know that i and a lot of other teen readers want stories with big intense romances that take up a big part of the story and this had that which i was VERY happy about and enjoyed a lot
also i’m SO glad there’s finally an internet mutuals to lovers book because like,,,,,half of my queer friends have had an online relationship at Some point at this point it’s probably more realistic than people meeting at school and stuff??? (or am i just saying this as an 18 year who has had Way. Way too many crushes on online friends over the years)
the romance was so tender and beautiful and !!!!!! i spent the majority of this book ~dead~ this book ended me!!! there was one chapter i’m pretty sure i highlighted the whole of?? once i have a physical copy of this book there will be multiple post it notes on every page i just know it
relating to that this book was SUCH a slow read for me and?? i’m certain that was because the writing was SO GORGEOUS!! like i said there was a little bit of stilted dialogue towards the start but it got more natural throughout and god,,there were so many beautiful lines that i’ll be thinking about for a while
i cannot talk about this book without also mentioning that there was a lot of pain in it - there’s a lot of debates lately about queer ya being happy or not or whatever and this book is one of a few recently that get this really important balance (think: books like felix ever after?) where there’s so much pain and fear and trauma but it’s not without so, so much joy and happiness and i’m so glad these stories exist because it is the reality for a lot of people
so yeah, i love love love LOVED this book and there’s so many more things i could yell about BUT!! just let it be known that this book is annoyingly good and i’m excited to aggressively shout at my friends to read it (just joking,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,probably)
i’ll write a review for this book that actually makes sense soon (ish) for an instagram post and replace this one with that but i just couldn’t NOT yell about this book immediately ok
rep: Mexican-American gay mc, Vietnamese-American gay li, Latinx side characters, Vietnamese side characters, Latina pansexual side character, Black side character, Vietnamese lesbian side character, Vietnamese bisexual side character, Filipino gay side character
tw: homophobia, homophobic slurs, physically abusive parent, forced outing