//TW// Discussion of rape and lesbophobia.
Fuck off.
(Some semblance of a review to come once I gather my thoughts. What the hell was this.)
Okay it's been like five minutes let's get into it. First of all, I was having a great time with the first 200ish pages. It wasn't something I would normally read (I won't lie I picked this up 100% for the cover) but I think it was written very well and the story was interesting. Also, cheating stories are a guilty pleasure of mine- I appreciate the scandal, betrayal, and drama of it all. (This was not, as it turns out, a story of people being unfaithful, but rather the two main characters being kind-of unfaithful whilst the author tries to convince you that they are not only morally ok but the victims of this story. But I digress.) However, around 250 pages in we got introduced to... the LESBIANS *cue intensely dramatic music*- oh the horror!!
Look, this shit is set in 1958- I'm not expecting our cishet protagonist to be a radical queer ally, but ho-lee shit dude. The villainisation if the two lesbian women in this novel unfuckingbelievable. They are given no sympathy, except in a few passing remarks from Howard made by the author SOLELY to make him seem incredibly kind and nice and blah blah BLAH everyone feel bad for straight guy that got betrayed and ignore the oppressed couple living in a time where their relationship was illegal. Rather, the couple are seen as impulsive, promiscuous, dangerous, selfish, and stupid. I could elaborate on every goddamn adjective there, but I really don't want to. Just thinking about it makes me feel like shit. And I tried, I promise you I TRIED to see this in a metatextual lense, to critically view whether these ideas stem from a main character from the 1950s who does not reflect the author's actual beliefs or from the actual author. But honestly? This book bends over fucking backwards to make everything Jean does seem kind and good and self-sacrificial because dear old Jean is a perfect saviour who puts everything aside for her mother and her job and Margaret. SHE’S the victim. Howard, one of the lesbians’ husband and Jean’s crush, is the victim. They are the dutiful ones who must sacrifice everything for these Evil Selfish lesbians. Jean’s hostility is vindicated at every turn. Chambers is even careful to include an unsubtle paragraph about how Jean couldn’t possibly be homophobic, because she liked Martha at first and she was ‘intrigued’ by lesbianism and would never be a conservative!!! It just so happens that the lesbians she comes across are awful terrible idiots who don’t care about anyone but themselves! It’s a shame she can’t seem progressive, but these gays are really forcing her hand here- I mean, one of them married the guy she likes and forced herself through sex with him before cruelly denying it to him for the rest of their marriage- isn’t Howard the real victim here?? (For those who can’t tell- *lights up giant neon sign reading SARCASM*).
Oh also, as we’re well into spoiler territory here and I have already implied it- the ‘virgin’ mother is the lesbian. Except it was not a virgin birth- she was raped whilst unconscious (because her evil, more outwardly lesbian gf convinced her to od- fuck this fucking book) and impregnated by a mentally ill man. I cannot tell if mental illness is getting demonised OR if it’s being used to excuse the horrific thing he did. Possibly both, somehow. She already forced herself through sex with a man despite not wanting that, but that’s obviously not enough trauma, she needs to be outright raped too. So, that’s a lesbian woman trapped in a loveless heterosexual marriage in 1958 Britain; she then runs away into abject poverty in order to live with the women she loves, only to find the relationship fall short of what she expected and for the poor conditions of her new home to be so bad she begs (yes, BEGS) to go back to her sham marriage; she is continually seen as the villain by Howard, Margaret, and Jean; AND in the end, her daughter, who she states is the best thing in her life, is a product of a rape. This is like a shitty exploitative gay trauma movie if it was centred around a straight person who thought their life being like, kind of mundane, was a far greater tragedy. Can’t even let the lesbians be the main characters of their trauma porn. Christ.
Obviously, that was my main issue with the story. But some other things that made it fall flat:
- Howard is not allowed to be flawed, which makes him boring and unrealistic. I’m tired of love interests who need to be perfect because then they’re easy to love, making the love story less satisfying.
- On top of that, the romance happened too fast. I always seem to think this, so maybe I just prefer tragic love stories spanning years or something. But either way, these two hang out like twice and fall for each other and it’s dumb. I liked the build-up honestly but there needed to be more of it before any confessions or realisations of their love or anything like that.
- The ending. Bro you made me read two boring heterosexuals villainise queer people for 150 pages whilst fucking each other and then you don’t even let them end up together and kill off the guy. Bury your straights, I guess.
- Wait I’m not done- this ending is sad for the sake of being sad, without any acceptable elements of that type of ending- there is no catharsis to be had in the tragic ending. It just is, and then the book ends, and you’re wondering why you ever bothered to get invested in the story at all. It just felt like a smug pretentious gotcha from the author.
- The setting feels like an afterthought- in the afterword Chambers states she did this to fit in with the real life train crash that happened in the city in the book. There are vague references to misogyny and period-appropriate elements but it all felt glossed over in shiny paint. It failed to really interrogate life as a woman and as a lesbian in 1958. Also, I'm pretty sure there are zero people of colour in this book (and race is, conveniently, never brought up once in the whole things, lest risk talking about how it was a pretty shitty fucking time to be nonwhite then (and now, of course)). It's all very safe in its depiction of everything in this era despite it being, you know, *kind of* (understatement of the century) awful if you weren't a cishet white able-bodied rich guy! (Did I forget to mention Howard, the cishet white able-bodied rich guy, is the most victimised and pitied character in the book? Hate it here!)
- God, okay, I think that’s it. I want to take a shower.
Tldr; If you hate gay people and love being disappointed you should read this.