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The Memories We Bury
An emotionally charged and captivating novel about the complexities of female friendship and motherhood.
Lizzie Thomson has landed her first job as a music teacher, and after a whirlwind romance with Markus, the newlywed couple move into a beautiful new home in the outskirts of Edinburgh. Lizzie quickly befriends their neighbour Morag, an elderly, resourceful yet lonely widow, whose own children rarely visit her. Everything seems perfect in Lizzie’s life until she finds out she is pregnant and her relationship with both Morag and Markus change beyond her control.
Can Lizzie really trust Morag and why is Markus keeping secrets from her?
In 'The Memories We Bury' the author explores the dangerous bonds we can create with strangers and how past memories can cast long shadows over the present.
Lizzie Thomson has landed her first job as a music teacher, and after a whirlwind romance with Markus, the newlywed couple move into a beautiful new home in the outskirts of Edinburgh. Lizzie quickly befriends their neighbour Morag, an elderly, resourceful yet lonely widow, whose own children rarely visit her. Everything seems perfect in Lizzie’s life until she finds out she is pregnant and her relationship with both Morag and Markus change beyond her control.
Can Lizzie really trust Morag and why is Markus keeping secrets from her?
In 'The Memories We Bury' the author explores the dangerous bonds we can create with strangers and how past memories can cast long shadows over the present.
314 pages, Kindle Edition
First published April 17, 2020
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H.A. Leuschel
5 books283 followersHelene grew up in Belgium where she gained a Master in Journalism & Communication, which led to a career in radio and television in Brussels, London and Edinburgh.
She now lives with her husband and two children in Portugal and recently acquired a Master of Philosophy with the OU, deepening her passion for the study of the mind.
She now lives with her husband and two children in Portugal and recently acquired a Master of Philosophy with the OU, deepening her passion for the study of the mind.
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April 22, 2020
Disclaimer: This book was sent to me by the author, H.A. Leuschel, for an honest review.
Opinion:
“Why is it I seem to remember events that hurt me better than experiences id rather hold on to because they make me happy?”
The Memories We Bury is the first full novel by Helene Leuschel, but definitely not her first dive into psychological fiction. After reading her last collection of short stories, Manipulated Lives, I became obsessed with her ability to showcase the countless ways of manipulation that a person can find themselves victim to, or wield. Whether the manipulation is in a form of an abusive partner, a con man/woman, or a friend or family member being able to coerce their loved one into doing what they want, this author delivers a realistic and frighteningly detailed portrayal of such scenarios.
In this story, a young mother struggles to navigate parenthood with a reluctant and mostly absent husband, but finds friendship and guidance in her elderly neighbor. Together the two form a fast bond where the young mother, Lizzie, is able to find a mother figure in her neighbor, and where the neighbor, Morag, is able to feel of sense of purpose as a stand-in mother and grandmother. But as the two become closer and their lives begin to intertwine, the complexities surrounding motherhood and their pasts lead the women to a place that will be almost impossible to come back from.
What I love about H.A. Leuschel is her dedication to the development of her characters. They have distinct personalities that gives each of them a soft uniqueness, but are given a detailed background of family dynamics, trauma and experiences that adds to the overall framework of who they become. None of them are perfect, and they are all surely flawed in many ways, which makes them feel as genuine and raw as both you and I.
Lizzie is one of two women that this story focuses on. She is a young woman in her late 20’s who has just married a man who is walking confidence and charisma. Lizzie however, is an introvert and prefers to lose herself in the keys of a piano. They are a mismatched pair, but upon being introduced to them they seem to compliment each other well and bring a balance to their relationship. But as the story goes on, we quickly learn that her husband, Markus, is not Mr. Perfect. He is the typical arrogant and archaic type of salesman who talks down to his wife through quips and jokes, expects her to sit at home and run their household, and who always has a phone glued to his ear. Upon marrying, they discuss putting children off until they have had time to enjoy each other. But then, Lizzie gets pregnant.
Markus is reluctant to become a father and not ecstatic about the news, which leaves Lizzie to go through her pregnancy mostly alone. But with Markus working long hours or away on business trips, Lizzie begins to strike up a quick friendship with her sweet elderly neighbor, Morag.
“‘There are no half measures with you, Morag’ I heard Pete’s voice in my head. ‘You switch from confidence to paranoia in a heartbeat.’”
Morag is a fun lady. Very opinionated, very knowledgeable, and VERY matter-of-fact. She is always on the go and more than happy to spend time with her neighbor, as her children very rarely visit and her husband had passed. Her career was working as a nurse with premature babies, where she developed her love for children and for helping new mothers and fathers experience the joys of new life. It is through her hospital work that she eventually met her late husband Peter, and started a family of her own. But though Morag seems to be a very caring and heartfelt woman, hints of her tumultuous relationships with her children are hinted throughout the story.
It is after the birth of Lizzie’s son that things start to develop and change between Lizzie, Morag and Markus. As the story unfolds and describes the days and months after the birth of Lizzie’s son Jamie, the reader is also given insight into the childhood of Lizzie growing up with a cold and rarely comforting mother. It is there that Lizzie wishes for a mother figure, someone who will love her unconditionally and be there as a support system for her. But her need for someone to fill this role is ultimately where things begin to get rocky between Lizzie and Morag.
There is a lot of character and background building that takes up most of this book. The first half really dives into who Lizzie and Morag are. Their wants, desires, pasts, fears and qualities. It was a little slow for my liking in this first half, but everything blended together nicely to set up the REAL plot of this story. Once things really started to roll about halfway through, I was hooked. My mind was reeling about what might happen, where I thought the story would go or how the characters might end up. It was the perfect mix of suspenseful twists that didn’t feel fabricated or overly fictitious. The turmoil felt authentic, the forms of manipulation were realistic, and the outcome was shocking.
Overall, The Memories We Bury was another enjoyable story of dark human behavior. I am so excited to see what else this author comes up with, and what other types of personalities will grace the pages of her next stories.
Opinion:
“Why is it I seem to remember events that hurt me better than experiences id rather hold on to because they make me happy?”
The Memories We Bury is the first full novel by Helene Leuschel, but definitely not her first dive into psychological fiction. After reading her last collection of short stories, Manipulated Lives, I became obsessed with her ability to showcase the countless ways of manipulation that a person can find themselves victim to, or wield. Whether the manipulation is in a form of an abusive partner, a con man/woman, or a friend or family member being able to coerce their loved one into doing what they want, this author delivers a realistic and frighteningly detailed portrayal of such scenarios.
In this story, a young mother struggles to navigate parenthood with a reluctant and mostly absent husband, but finds friendship and guidance in her elderly neighbor. Together the two form a fast bond where the young mother, Lizzie, is able to find a mother figure in her neighbor, and where the neighbor, Morag, is able to feel of sense of purpose as a stand-in mother and grandmother. But as the two become closer and their lives begin to intertwine, the complexities surrounding motherhood and their pasts lead the women to a place that will be almost impossible to come back from.
What I love about H.A. Leuschel is her dedication to the development of her characters. They have distinct personalities that gives each of them a soft uniqueness, but are given a detailed background of family dynamics, trauma and experiences that adds to the overall framework of who they become. None of them are perfect, and they are all surely flawed in many ways, which makes them feel as genuine and raw as both you and I.
Lizzie is one of two women that this story focuses on. She is a young woman in her late 20’s who has just married a man who is walking confidence and charisma. Lizzie however, is an introvert and prefers to lose herself in the keys of a piano. They are a mismatched pair, but upon being introduced to them they seem to compliment each other well and bring a balance to their relationship. But as the story goes on, we quickly learn that her husband, Markus, is not Mr. Perfect. He is the typical arrogant and archaic type of salesman who talks down to his wife through quips and jokes, expects her to sit at home and run their household, and who always has a phone glued to his ear. Upon marrying, they discuss putting children off until they have had time to enjoy each other. But then, Lizzie gets pregnant.
Markus is reluctant to become a father and not ecstatic about the news, which leaves Lizzie to go through her pregnancy mostly alone. But with Markus working long hours or away on business trips, Lizzie begins to strike up a quick friendship with her sweet elderly neighbor, Morag.
“‘There are no half measures with you, Morag’ I heard Pete’s voice in my head. ‘You switch from confidence to paranoia in a heartbeat.’”
Morag is a fun lady. Very opinionated, very knowledgeable, and VERY matter-of-fact. She is always on the go and more than happy to spend time with her neighbor, as her children very rarely visit and her husband had passed. Her career was working as a nurse with premature babies, where she developed her love for children and for helping new mothers and fathers experience the joys of new life. It is through her hospital work that she eventually met her late husband Peter, and started a family of her own. But though Morag seems to be a very caring and heartfelt woman, hints of her tumultuous relationships with her children are hinted throughout the story.
It is after the birth of Lizzie’s son that things start to develop and change between Lizzie, Morag and Markus. As the story unfolds and describes the days and months after the birth of Lizzie’s son Jamie, the reader is also given insight into the childhood of Lizzie growing up with a cold and rarely comforting mother. It is there that Lizzie wishes for a mother figure, someone who will love her unconditionally and be there as a support system for her. But her need for someone to fill this role is ultimately where things begin to get rocky between Lizzie and Morag.
There is a lot of character and background building that takes up most of this book. The first half really dives into who Lizzie and Morag are. Their wants, desires, pasts, fears and qualities. It was a little slow for my liking in this first half, but everything blended together nicely to set up the REAL plot of this story. Once things really started to roll about halfway through, I was hooked. My mind was reeling about what might happen, where I thought the story would go or how the characters might end up. It was the perfect mix of suspenseful twists that didn’t feel fabricated or overly fictitious. The turmoil felt authentic, the forms of manipulation were realistic, and the outcome was shocking.
Overall, The Memories We Bury was another enjoyable story of dark human behavior. I am so excited to see what else this author comes up with, and what other types of personalities will grace the pages of her next stories.
April 16, 2020
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The Memories We Bury was psychological fiction that revolved around neighbors Lizzie and Morag and their relationship that started sweet and turned bitter over the time. It was about obsession, manipulations, friendship, family, trust and betrayal. About danger that comes with trusting a stranger that comes under title ‘neighbor’ and its consequences, impact of childhood and its role in shaping person, controlling parents and their mistakes.
This was my 3rd book by author and like other two books, this book had captivating, flawless, and beautiful writing. Book was set in Edinburgh, first person narrative with alternative POV of Morag and Lizzie.
It started in 2016 with Lizzie and Morag’s perspective telling how they were disappointed with what happened with them, Lizzie with her betrayal both from Morag and her husband, Markus and Morag with Lizzie moving away with her son, Jamie to Glasgow after all she did for her. That added enough curiosity to find out what happened and who was at fault, why they separated and are hurt. So to get the answers we are taken back to 2013, to the beginning of Lizzie and Morag’s friendship, their past life and at the root of distrust and betrayal.
In the beginning all characters looked nice but few chapters in this book and I knew there was something wrong with Morag. I had so many questions about her and her behavior and they all were answered in due time, some I could guess while some were surprise. I wanted to know why nobody from her family were close to her, why she was secretive and vague about them, why she was crossing the limits of friendship and neighbourship (Is that a word?), and why she was trying to control Lizzie life and constantly mentioning she knows all and means the best. And whenever she said that she reminded me of Gothel from Rupenzel and her Disney version song ‘mother knows the best’. Thing was she was not Lizzie mother, a mother figure to Lizzie and that’s because Lizzie thought she was loving, caring and adoring elderly lady until she became like her mother, but in worst way.
At 50% of the book I could see what Morag was trying to do. And what she did to Lizzie so that she could have more time with Jamie. I didn’t even need to read the truth about her past and family, about Aileen and her sister Lorna’s view and what Morag said later to everybody to know that she was wrong and only person responsible for what happened in Morag’s life and what she might have done. Who could have think 64-years-old lady could be so manipulative and controlling! After reading this book I’m not letting anybody enter my and my daughter’s space.
Lizzie was timid, naïve, and push over, easy to be intimidated especially by people like her husband- Markus and Morag. She was realistic and I empathized with her. Her past was poignant. I could see how difficult her childhood was and how much she might have struggled to come out of it and get her freedom. It was so sad to see her losing her freedom and control over her life this easily. I felt angry for her, I wanted to shake her so hard so she could come out of Morag’s clutches and the fog she created. And when that happened I was cheering for her new found strength that helped her to fight Markus’s belief and Morag’s control.
She was the only nice person in the book. Okay, there were others but were not present in her life all the time. Lizzie’s friends were good but I do feel they should have talked to Lizzie about their concerns.
Markus was there just to pay bill, he was ambitious, egoistic charmer. When he got the new about pregnancy he withdrew to the safety of his work and office. He wasn’t ready for being a parent and had no clue about parenting. His big mistake was he left Lizzie alone most of the time, he wasn’t even present at the birth of Jamie, moreover he believed whatever Morag said because he thought she was nanny or surrogate mother and grandmother to whom he didn’t have to pay. I don’t understand why Lizzie stayed with him so long. He was not likable person and by no means a father and husband material.
I liked the message in the book. Parenting is tough no doubt there. It shows that how confidence and little help either from family, loved ones, or group can help you with questions one have but at the same time how important the need of boundaries, your space, and independence is. You cannot trust anyone with your kid especially not a stranger you met few months ago. Only and only a mother can decide how she want to nurture her child, just don’t let anybody say or prove otherwise. Most important was even a perfect parent can make mistake and can be wrong about their way of upbringing. How wrong it is to push children in achieving something or fulfilling dreams you set for them and its consequences are irreversible. It also said about dealing with grief and past bad memories. I loved this lines about it-
Best thing about the book was it was very realistic. It can happen to anybody. Climax was tense. One by one all the mystery and secrets were revealed. I was right about Morag all along and yet author succeeded in surprising me with Morag’s past, what happened to her family and her claims. When I thought it was all was over and book will end soon, there was another little surprise that enlighten me about how much truth was there in Morag’s claim. I admired Lizzie here and I was glad to see she could see who was right and good and who was not. End was great, warning us, ‘not everybody can change’.
Overall, it was gripping, realistic, emotive, and steady paced psychological fiction with beautiful writing and great characters.
*** Note: I received e-copy of this book from the author, in exchange for an honest review. Many thanks to author. ***
The Memories We Bury was psychological fiction that revolved around neighbors Lizzie and Morag and their relationship that started sweet and turned bitter over the time. It was about obsession, manipulations, friendship, family, trust and betrayal. About danger that comes with trusting a stranger that comes under title ‘neighbor’ and its consequences, impact of childhood and its role in shaping person, controlling parents and their mistakes.
This was my 3rd book by author and like other two books, this book had captivating, flawless, and beautiful writing. Book was set in Edinburgh, first person narrative with alternative POV of Morag and Lizzie.
It started in 2016 with Lizzie and Morag’s perspective telling how they were disappointed with what happened with them, Lizzie with her betrayal both from Morag and her husband, Markus and Morag with Lizzie moving away with her son, Jamie to Glasgow after all she did for her. That added enough curiosity to find out what happened and who was at fault, why they separated and are hurt. So to get the answers we are taken back to 2013, to the beginning of Lizzie and Morag’s friendship, their past life and at the root of distrust and betrayal.
In the beginning all characters looked nice but few chapters in this book and I knew there was something wrong with Morag. I had so many questions about her and her behavior and they all were answered in due time, some I could guess while some were surprise. I wanted to know why nobody from her family were close to her, why she was secretive and vague about them, why she was crossing the limits of friendship and neighbourship (Is that a word?), and why she was trying to control Lizzie life and constantly mentioning she knows all and means the best. And whenever she said that she reminded me of Gothel from Rupenzel and her Disney version song ‘mother knows the best’. Thing was she was not Lizzie mother, a mother figure to Lizzie and that’s because Lizzie thought she was loving, caring and adoring elderly lady until she became like her mother, but in worst way.
At 50% of the book I could see what Morag was trying to do. And what she did to Lizzie so that she could have more time with Jamie. I didn’t even need to read the truth about her past and family, about Aileen and her sister Lorna’s view and what Morag said later to everybody to know that she was wrong and only person responsible for what happened in Morag’s life and what she might have done. Who could have think 64-years-old lady could be so manipulative and controlling! After reading this book I’m not letting anybody enter my and my daughter’s space.
“Why is it I seem to remember events that hurt me better than experiences I’d rather hold on to because they made me happy?”
Lizzie was timid, naïve, and push over, easy to be intimidated especially by people like her husband- Markus and Morag. She was realistic and I empathized with her. Her past was poignant. I could see how difficult her childhood was and how much she might have struggled to come out of it and get her freedom. It was so sad to see her losing her freedom and control over her life this easily. I felt angry for her, I wanted to shake her so hard so she could come out of Morag’s clutches and the fog she created. And when that happened I was cheering for her new found strength that helped her to fight Markus’s belief and Morag’s control.
She was the only nice person in the book. Okay, there were others but were not present in her life all the time. Lizzie’s friends were good but I do feel they should have talked to Lizzie about their concerns.
Markus was there just to pay bill, he was ambitious, egoistic charmer. When he got the new about pregnancy he withdrew to the safety of his work and office. He wasn’t ready for being a parent and had no clue about parenting. His big mistake was he left Lizzie alone most of the time, he wasn’t even present at the birth of Jamie, moreover he believed whatever Morag said because he thought she was nanny or surrogate mother and grandmother to whom he didn’t have to pay. I don’t understand why Lizzie stayed with him so long. He was not likable person and by no means a father and husband material.
I liked the message in the book. Parenting is tough no doubt there. It shows that how confidence and little help either from family, loved ones, or group can help you with questions one have but at the same time how important the need of boundaries, your space, and independence is. You cannot trust anyone with your kid especially not a stranger you met few months ago. Only and only a mother can decide how she want to nurture her child, just don’t let anybody say or prove otherwise. Most important was even a perfect parent can make mistake and can be wrong about their way of upbringing. How wrong it is to push children in achieving something or fulfilling dreams you set for them and its consequences are irreversible. It also said about dealing with grief and past bad memories. I loved this lines about it-
“I always believed that you could put your bad memories inside a box, firmly close it shut, turn the key, put it away, and move on. Now I know that it is not possible, nor is it good to imagine that you can do so. The future always come looking for past.”
Best thing about the book was it was very realistic. It can happen to anybody. Climax was tense. One by one all the mystery and secrets were revealed. I was right about Morag all along and yet author succeeded in surprising me with Morag’s past, what happened to her family and her claims. When I thought it was all was over and book will end soon, there was another little surprise that enlighten me about how much truth was there in Morag’s claim. I admired Lizzie here and I was glad to see she could see who was right and good and who was not. End was great, warning us, ‘not everybody can change’.
Overall, it was gripping, realistic, emotive, and steady paced psychological fiction with beautiful writing and great characters.
*** Note: I received e-copy of this book from the author, in exchange for an honest review. Many thanks to author. ***
July 7, 2020
I thoroughly enjoyed The Memories We Bury and I like H.A. Leuschel's writing style. This is a riveting psychological read, with thoroughly rounded characters and an absorbing plot, sensitively woven throughout with themes of personal insecurity, trust, hope, duplicity and lies.
There are two main characters, Lizzie, the insecure young woman with a small baby, whose own childhood was blighted by manipulating mother. Now she is left to struggle mostly alone with motherhood by a husband who is only concerned with himself and his work and his life away from home.
The second character is Morag, a retired nurse and neighbour of Lizzie. From the start of the story the reader is led to believe that this older woman with be a godsend to the young mother; she is the support, the ever-available friend, always anxious to help.
Character led novels are my favourite and I was not disappointed in The Memories We Bury. Indeed the title itself give more than a hint that there are many layers to these two lonely women and, gradually, each character is shown through the spoken and internal dialogue – excellently written.
Each chapter has the alternating points of view from Linzie and Morag and is evenly paced as the tension is slowly but surely ramped up. Through the narrative the author reveals the background of both characters, exposing their frailties and insecurities that controls the way they behave towards one another. The husband is, in a way, used by each as a foil but it is struggle between them that is the main battle of wills.
The setting of this novel is mainly of the houses of the characters and, though giving a great sense of place, seemed, to me to be secondary to the story. This is not a criticism, indeed, I felt it added to the claustrophobic feeling in this emotional read.
This is a shorter review than I normally write. This in no way detracts from H.A. Leuschel's novel and I thoroughly recommend The Memories We Bury to any reader who enjoys a compelling psychological read.
There are two main characters, Lizzie, the insecure young woman with a small baby, whose own childhood was blighted by manipulating mother. Now she is left to struggle mostly alone with motherhood by a husband who is only concerned with himself and his work and his life away from home.
The second character is Morag, a retired nurse and neighbour of Lizzie. From the start of the story the reader is led to believe that this older woman with be a godsend to the young mother; she is the support, the ever-available friend, always anxious to help.
Character led novels are my favourite and I was not disappointed in The Memories We Bury. Indeed the title itself give more than a hint that there are many layers to these two lonely women and, gradually, each character is shown through the spoken and internal dialogue – excellently written.
Each chapter has the alternating points of view from Linzie and Morag and is evenly paced as the tension is slowly but surely ramped up. Through the narrative the author reveals the background of both characters, exposing their frailties and insecurities that controls the way they behave towards one another. The husband is, in a way, used by each as a foil but it is struggle between them that is the main battle of wills.
The setting of this novel is mainly of the houses of the characters and, though giving a great sense of place, seemed, to me to be secondary to the story. This is not a criticism, indeed, I felt it added to the claustrophobic feeling in this emotional read.
This is a shorter review than I normally write. This in no way detracts from H.A. Leuschel's novel and I thoroughly recommend The Memories We Bury to any reader who enjoys a compelling psychological read.
June 17, 2021
Every new mother has had the experience of an elderly lady eager to help and giving advice, leaving you feeling overwhelmed and doubting yourself. This book focuses on new motherhood, self-doubt, and new friendships. But what if there is more to the advice, what if the person oversteps? Where do you draw the line?
How much do our childhoods affect the people we are drawn to later in life? Do the way we are treated as children dictate our adult needs and desires?
Lizzie’s mother was a dominant woman who ruled the household> She disliked her shy, average daughter, until a teacher discovered Lizzie’s talent for music. This discovery awoke a new drive in her mother. Suddenly she was constantly pushing her to practise playing the piano and driving her to excel. Suddenly Lizzie had all her mother’s attention – until she didn’t win every recital she entered, when Lizzie reached her peak, her mother lost interest.
When Markus, a confident, successful, good looking man pushes his way into Lizzie’s life she is quickly swept off her feet by his attention. He sees her, spoils her and takes care of her and all too quickly they are married. When Lizzie falls pregnant, it doesn’t suit Markus, he is not ready to be a father. His only interest is pursuing his career and enjoying life. This leaves the drifting apart and Lizzie finds herself all alone with a new baby. Doubting herself and with no one to lean on.
The Morag, the perfect mother and friend, next-door neighbour steps in. Lizzie feels blessed to have her around, she is sweet, caring and helpful. She knows what Lizzie needs to hear.
As you read this book you start to notice that something is wrong. Morag is just too much, but at the same time, some of Lizzie’s actions leave you wondering. Soon you are unsure of which character to trust, but as you keep reading your original suspicions are proven correct and you feel rewarded for rooting for the right character.
This is a moving story that keeps you wondering and leaves you shocked at the end. The author manages to keep you guessing. When you reach the end of the book you are reminded of the importance of trusting your instincts about people. When something does not feel right, chances are pretty good that they aren’t. No matter how much you enjoy the attention, do not give someone else too much power over your life. Remain in control, even when you are doubting yourself.
The author created a seriously damaged group of people. The only character that managed to remain innocent throughout the story was baby Jamie. Everyone else leaves you wondering. You are never sure who the bad guy is…. Not until the very end. Chapter after chapter your opinion sways. The author did a great job of keeping the reader wondering where the story was going to go.
I loved it. This is a quick, gripping read that leaves you unable to put the book down.
Fans of psychological fiction will find this book extremely enjoyable.
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How much do our childhoods affect the people we are drawn to later in life? Do the way we are treated as children dictate our adult needs and desires?
Lizzie’s mother was a dominant woman who ruled the household> She disliked her shy, average daughter, until a teacher discovered Lizzie’s talent for music. This discovery awoke a new drive in her mother. Suddenly she was constantly pushing her to practise playing the piano and driving her to excel. Suddenly Lizzie had all her mother’s attention – until she didn’t win every recital she entered, when Lizzie reached her peak, her mother lost interest.
When Markus, a confident, successful, good looking man pushes his way into Lizzie’s life she is quickly swept off her feet by his attention. He sees her, spoils her and takes care of her and all too quickly they are married. When Lizzie falls pregnant, it doesn’t suit Markus, he is not ready to be a father. His only interest is pursuing his career and enjoying life. This leaves the drifting apart and Lizzie finds herself all alone with a new baby. Doubting herself and with no one to lean on.
The Morag, the perfect mother and friend, next-door neighbour steps in. Lizzie feels blessed to have her around, she is sweet, caring and helpful. She knows what Lizzie needs to hear.
As you read this book you start to notice that something is wrong. Morag is just too much, but at the same time, some of Lizzie’s actions leave you wondering. Soon you are unsure of which character to trust, but as you keep reading your original suspicions are proven correct and you feel rewarded for rooting for the right character.
This is a moving story that keeps you wondering and leaves you shocked at the end. The author manages to keep you guessing. When you reach the end of the book you are reminded of the importance of trusting your instincts about people. When something does not feel right, chances are pretty good that they aren’t. No matter how much you enjoy the attention, do not give someone else too much power over your life. Remain in control, even when you are doubting yourself.
The author created a seriously damaged group of people. The only character that managed to remain innocent throughout the story was baby Jamie. Everyone else leaves you wondering. You are never sure who the bad guy is…. Not until the very end. Chapter after chapter your opinion sways. The author did a great job of keeping the reader wondering where the story was going to go.
I loved it. This is a quick, gripping read that leaves you unable to put the book down.
Fans of psychological fiction will find this book extremely enjoyable.
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March 31, 2020
Oh my… well, to give it to you short? A whole lot of uncomfortable and disturbing going on here… For the duration of the book (until the truth as such, that is), I kept waiting for the other shoe to drop. Emotionally charged and draining, it was impossible to tell who the unstable person was and who the victim. And such is real life too- we often see and accept the person by what appears on the surface, unwilling to believe anything malicious of them. Well, sometimes still waters run deep and utterly dangerous.
The Memories We Bury is yet another title by Leuschel that could be a psychological case study (see also Manipulated Lives and My Sweet Friend) but far from being an academic read, the scenario is truly relatable from all the angles.
So, what is the scenario? We have a young woman Lizzie at the start of motherhood, navigating unknown waters and emotions. We have a rather lonesome elderly lady Morag, the perfect source of nurture and care, happy to help steer the start of new lives. Neighbors. Each the perfect soothing balm for the other’s gaping need.
At a first glance, quite the perfect outcome, right?… but… are people really what they seem? Who is using who?
Again, like in the previous titles, the author makes good work tricking the reader off the scent on really knowing who to trust. I couldn’t help but think the whole time how true to life this book is – you really can’t tell anyone’s ulterior motives; you really can’t tell how far someone is willing to cross the line for their own selfish reasons. And, it’s scary! You can trust and give people a chance. Or, you can be a hermit for the rest of your life, never trusting, always seeing the wolf. But, it’s also never that black and white when it comes to making this decision to trust, or not trust, someone. There is always the aspect of who the person is themselves that will wager in on the decision – how they grew up, how their environment has shaped them, what they believe in and what their moral compass looks like.
This book ultimately reminded me that with every interaction and transaction, there can always be multiple outcomes. Yes, it all boils down to one small decision made but the decision to let someone into our lives can either be the gateway to a happy life that we all yearn for, or the step into the ninth circle of hell. Who can tell? Who can ever tell?
Anyway, Leuschel did a wonderful job hitting the notes from all characters’ perspectives. You can feel for one and the other because their background is thoroughly bared for you and your soul aches a bit because you can relate. No matter how little or how much, you will be able to relate on some level. And, in the end, when you have felt the tug of sympathy for everyone involved, it will be all the worse having to learn the truth. It makes you sick a little because it’s something that can easily happen… Humans.. We’re such creatures, us!
All three titles by the author have hit the mark with me. I have enjoyed the psychological aspect – the detailed and interesting case studies wrapped in fictional, the realistic portrayal of various mental states and the feeling of ‘Beware’ that I am always left with! 🙂
The Memories We Bury is yet another title by Leuschel that could be a psychological case study (see also Manipulated Lives and My Sweet Friend) but far from being an academic read, the scenario is truly relatable from all the angles.
So, what is the scenario? We have a young woman Lizzie at the start of motherhood, navigating unknown waters and emotions. We have a rather lonesome elderly lady Morag, the perfect source of nurture and care, happy to help steer the start of new lives. Neighbors. Each the perfect soothing balm for the other’s gaping need.
At a first glance, quite the perfect outcome, right?… but… are people really what they seem? Who is using who?
Again, like in the previous titles, the author makes good work tricking the reader off the scent on really knowing who to trust. I couldn’t help but think the whole time how true to life this book is – you really can’t tell anyone’s ulterior motives; you really can’t tell how far someone is willing to cross the line for their own selfish reasons. And, it’s scary! You can trust and give people a chance. Or, you can be a hermit for the rest of your life, never trusting, always seeing the wolf. But, it’s also never that black and white when it comes to making this decision to trust, or not trust, someone. There is always the aspect of who the person is themselves that will wager in on the decision – how they grew up, how their environment has shaped them, what they believe in and what their moral compass looks like.
This book ultimately reminded me that with every interaction and transaction, there can always be multiple outcomes. Yes, it all boils down to one small decision made but the decision to let someone into our lives can either be the gateway to a happy life that we all yearn for, or the step into the ninth circle of hell. Who can tell? Who can ever tell?
Anyway, Leuschel did a wonderful job hitting the notes from all characters’ perspectives. You can feel for one and the other because their background is thoroughly bared for you and your soul aches a bit because you can relate. No matter how little or how much, you will be able to relate on some level. And, in the end, when you have felt the tug of sympathy for everyone involved, it will be all the worse having to learn the truth. It makes you sick a little because it’s something that can easily happen… Humans.. We’re such creatures, us!
All three titles by the author have hit the mark with me. I have enjoyed the psychological aspect – the detailed and interesting case studies wrapped in fictional, the realistic portrayal of various mental states and the feeling of ‘Beware’ that I am always left with! 🙂
April 15, 2020
4.5*
The Memories We Bury is told from two alternating points of view—Lizzie, a young mother and Morag, widowed and a retired nurse, who live next door to each other—giving a good, but confusing, insight into each character. I say confusing because for the longest time I wasn’t sure how the story was going to develop.
Lizzie’s childhood was tainted by a cold, critical mother and a weak father. She always felt less than, never good enough, her mother’s obvious disappointment in her a constant theme. Until Lizzie’s musical talent gave her mother something to boast about. But even that waned as she realised Lizzie’s talent wasn’t going to take her to the top.
Lizzie’s feelings of insecurity and timidity carry on into adulthood and shape her decision making. All she really wants is to be loved for herself. Now she’s married with a job as a music teacher when she finds herself pregnant. Although the pregnancy was unplanned, Lizzie is happy. Less so Markus, her husband.
Morag, lonely and seemingly abandoned by her children, is more than happy to have Lizzie and Markus living next door, especially as there will soon be a baby to coo over. Markus’ feelings couldn’t be clearer as he leaves everything home and baby related to an exhausted Lizzie, who is only too grateful for Morag’s help and kindness.
Markus is a very unlikeable character, critical and intent only on what he wants regardless of the effect on anyone else. Certainly not the type of person that Lizzie needs. So it follows that she would appreciate Morag’s help and look forward to spending time with her. Slowly it becomes apparent by Morag’s behaviour all is not what it should be. Lizzie, however, is reluctant to antagonise the only friend she has.
The Memories We Bury is a disturbing read, more so because it’s a scenario that could be all too possible. The narrative is written in such a way as to make the reader wonder which of the two women is unbalanced. It’s only later on that the pieces begin to fall into place and the state of affairs becomes quite shocking as we learn the extent of the manipulation.
As with the author’s previous books, The Memories We Bury shows the complexity of the human psyche and the lengths people are prepared to go to to satisfy their own needs, as well as how relationships can become extremely unhealthy and frightening.
I chose to read and review The Memories We Bury based on a copy of the book kindly supplied by the author.
The Memories We Bury is told from two alternating points of view—Lizzie, a young mother and Morag, widowed and a retired nurse, who live next door to each other—giving a good, but confusing, insight into each character. I say confusing because for the longest time I wasn’t sure how the story was going to develop.
Lizzie’s childhood was tainted by a cold, critical mother and a weak father. She always felt less than, never good enough, her mother’s obvious disappointment in her a constant theme. Until Lizzie’s musical talent gave her mother something to boast about. But even that waned as she realised Lizzie’s talent wasn’t going to take her to the top.
Lizzie’s feelings of insecurity and timidity carry on into adulthood and shape her decision making. All she really wants is to be loved for herself. Now she’s married with a job as a music teacher when she finds herself pregnant. Although the pregnancy was unplanned, Lizzie is happy. Less so Markus, her husband.
Morag, lonely and seemingly abandoned by her children, is more than happy to have Lizzie and Markus living next door, especially as there will soon be a baby to coo over. Markus’ feelings couldn’t be clearer as he leaves everything home and baby related to an exhausted Lizzie, who is only too grateful for Morag’s help and kindness.
Markus is a very unlikeable character, critical and intent only on what he wants regardless of the effect on anyone else. Certainly not the type of person that Lizzie needs. So it follows that she would appreciate Morag’s help and look forward to spending time with her. Slowly it becomes apparent by Morag’s behaviour all is not what it should be. Lizzie, however, is reluctant to antagonise the only friend she has.
The Memories We Bury is a disturbing read, more so because it’s a scenario that could be all too possible. The narrative is written in such a way as to make the reader wonder which of the two women is unbalanced. It’s only later on that the pieces begin to fall into place and the state of affairs becomes quite shocking as we learn the extent of the manipulation.
As with the author’s previous books, The Memories We Bury shows the complexity of the human psyche and the lengths people are prepared to go to to satisfy their own needs, as well as how relationships can become extremely unhealthy and frightening.
I chose to read and review The Memories We Bury based on a copy of the book kindly supplied by the author.
November 12, 2020
I read the novella “My Sweet Friend” by this author in late 2017 and since then I’ve been eager to get a chance to read more of her writing. In addition, the effective and attractive cover design was eye-catching and made me want to read “The Memories We Bury“.
With skillful prose and a deep understanding of human nature, Leuschel has written a novel that explores the fine line between caring, insecurity, manipulation, and being supportive.
Though on the surface, this should have been a straight-forward read, I found that there was an underlying feel of unease and disquiet that remained with me throughout the entirety of the book.
The novel serves to remind us that “The Memories We Bury” are often those memories which shed us in a less than flattering light. That feelings of inadequacy make us vulnerable to those who are more wily and manipulative.
Strong and empathetic characterization was the novel’s strong point. Told from the point of view of the two main female characters, the reader questions whose side they should be on… who’s telling the real truth?
Just how much do our childhood experiences influence the way our lives turn out?
Highly recommended to those readers who enjoy a psychological novel, strong in characterization, which delivers a message via a tense and ofttimes disturbing read. Though the pace of the book was rather slow, it was conversely also a page turner – cumulating in a final page that is memorable and shocking in equal measure.
Read this book!
With skillful prose and a deep understanding of human nature, Leuschel has written a novel that explores the fine line between caring, insecurity, manipulation, and being supportive.
Though on the surface, this should have been a straight-forward read, I found that there was an underlying feel of unease and disquiet that remained with me throughout the entirety of the book.
The novel serves to remind us that “The Memories We Bury” are often those memories which shed us in a less than flattering light. That feelings of inadequacy make us vulnerable to those who are more wily and manipulative.
Strong and empathetic characterization was the novel’s strong point. Told from the point of view of the two main female characters, the reader questions whose side they should be on… who’s telling the real truth?
Just how much do our childhood experiences influence the way our lives turn out?
Highly recommended to those readers who enjoy a psychological novel, strong in characterization, which delivers a message via a tense and ofttimes disturbing read. Though the pace of the book was rather slow, it was conversely also a page turner – cumulating in a final page that is memorable and shocking in equal measure.
Read this book!
September 1, 2020
Finished reading: August 27th 2020
"Trust is a fragile bird perched on a branch that is so dry it will break at the first unexpected breeze."
*** A copy of this book was kindly provided to me in exchange for an honest review. Thank you! ***
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March 15, 2020
Lizzie is a great character and one that I think most readers will like and sympathise with immediately – I felt genuinely angry on her behalf at times while reading this novel. She shares her memories of her childhood, and in particular her relationship with her mother, who was cold, distant, and constantly disappointed in Lizzie. I felt that this past explained her actions in the present. She’s a character who is looking for love from any quarter, and is prepared to accept quite a lot in order to get it – even agreeing with others and going against her own wishes. There were times when I wanted her to put her foot down and to say no to those around her, but it’s clear that her lack of confidence holds her back, and she avoids conflict at all costs. Leuschel has a fantastic understanding of human psychology, and this shines through in the novel as Lizzie’s childhood paves the way for the present day.
As a new mum, it shouldn’t fall to Lizzie to do everything to care for her new son, Jamie, as well as managing the house. Her husband, Markus, is around, and even if the pregnancy came a little unexpectedly, he played his part in it. Unfortunately for Lizzie, Markus makes his intentions clear from the outset – he misses the birth of his son, and then refuses to change nappies, prepare food, cook, clean, even refusing to get up in the night to comfort Jamie and allow Lizzie to sleep a little. Markus is utterly clueless, and while that in itself isn’t an issue, he makes no attempt to rectify his lack of knowledge or experience, leaving Lizzie to do everything. It’s clear that he’s an utterly selfish individual who can’t stand the slightest criticism, and sees himself in the traditional role of breadwinner, while his wife tends home and hearth. To make things worse, he is critical of Lizzie’s post-baby body, even though he proclaims his comments are made in jest.
It’s therefore understandable that Lizzie clings to the lifeline offered by their neighbour, Morag, who is only too happy to help. Her own children have grown up and left home, and Morag is more than happy to share her knowledge and experience as both a nurse and a mother with Lizzie, providing the encouragement she so desperately needs. I soon became wary of Morag, however, as she begins – slowly at first – to overstep the mark. Once she has a foot in the door, there’s no stopping her, and she seems to feel some sense of entitlement to Jamie. Her behaviour borders on the obsessive, and while she may just be overzealous, her behaviour comes across as being a little creepy at times.
"It was important though that Lizzie knew how essential I had become in her life, and that she had to tread carefully before professing any criticisms again."
The Memories We Bury is by turns uncomfortable and creepy, and builds up to a shocking finale. The last line in particular has quite an impact. This is a novel that will make you question the motives and behaviour of its characters and will leave you wondering whose version of events to believe. Recommended.
The Memories We Bury will be published on 17 April. Many thanks to H. A. Leuschel for the opportunity to read and review ahead of publication.
Originally posted on https://josbookblog.co.uk/
As a new mum, it shouldn’t fall to Lizzie to do everything to care for her new son, Jamie, as well as managing the house. Her husband, Markus, is around, and even if the pregnancy came a little unexpectedly, he played his part in it. Unfortunately for Lizzie, Markus makes his intentions clear from the outset – he misses the birth of his son, and then refuses to change nappies, prepare food, cook, clean, even refusing to get up in the night to comfort Jamie and allow Lizzie to sleep a little. Markus is utterly clueless, and while that in itself isn’t an issue, he makes no attempt to rectify his lack of knowledge or experience, leaving Lizzie to do everything. It’s clear that he’s an utterly selfish individual who can’t stand the slightest criticism, and sees himself in the traditional role of breadwinner, while his wife tends home and hearth. To make things worse, he is critical of Lizzie’s post-baby body, even though he proclaims his comments are made in jest.
It’s therefore understandable that Lizzie clings to the lifeline offered by their neighbour, Morag, who is only too happy to help. Her own children have grown up and left home, and Morag is more than happy to share her knowledge and experience as both a nurse and a mother with Lizzie, providing the encouragement she so desperately needs. I soon became wary of Morag, however, as she begins – slowly at first – to overstep the mark. Once she has a foot in the door, there’s no stopping her, and she seems to feel some sense of entitlement to Jamie. Her behaviour borders on the obsessive, and while she may just be overzealous, her behaviour comes across as being a little creepy at times.
"It was important though that Lizzie knew how essential I had become in her life, and that she had to tread carefully before professing any criticisms again."
The Memories We Bury is by turns uncomfortable and creepy, and builds up to a shocking finale. The last line in particular has quite an impact. This is a novel that will make you question the motives and behaviour of its characters and will leave you wondering whose version of events to believe. Recommended.
The Memories We Bury will be published on 17 April. Many thanks to H. A. Leuschel for the opportunity to read and review ahead of publication.
Originally posted on https://josbookblog.co.uk/
November 16, 2020
If you’re looking for a book that will have you with a permanent knot in your stomach throughout, then this is it!
It’s told from Lizzie and Morag’s point of view as we go back in time to see how events unfolded. Everything starts off well until little things start happening, comments are made and at times I just wanted to scream at Lizzie to make her realise what was happening.
This is definitely a character driven story as we delve into the backgrounds of both Lizzie and Morag, who each having troubled lives and memories they wish to bury. They have dark pasts and the experiences they went through play a part as to how they behave now, from obsessive and manipulative to needing love.
This is a steady paced book that slowly builds the atmosphere bit by bit which really makes it feel quite sinister in places. It is definitely one of those books that will mess with your head and will have you questioning whether what you think is happening is really happening!
I don’t want to say too much more without giving the plot away because I feel like you just need to go with it to really feel how Lizzie feels.
Overall it’s a brilliant psychological novel that will have you on the edge of your seat until the very final line which will send shivers down your spine!
It’s told from Lizzie and Morag’s point of view as we go back in time to see how events unfolded. Everything starts off well until little things start happening, comments are made and at times I just wanted to scream at Lizzie to make her realise what was happening.
This is definitely a character driven story as we delve into the backgrounds of both Lizzie and Morag, who each having troubled lives and memories they wish to bury. They have dark pasts and the experiences they went through play a part as to how they behave now, from obsessive and manipulative to needing love.
This is a steady paced book that slowly builds the atmosphere bit by bit which really makes it feel quite sinister in places. It is definitely one of those books that will mess with your head and will have you questioning whether what you think is happening is really happening!
I don’t want to say too much more without giving the plot away because I feel like you just need to go with it to really feel how Lizzie feels.
Overall it’s a brilliant psychological novel that will have you on the edge of your seat until the very final line which will send shivers down your spine!
April 24, 2020
Oh, you just know there are going to be secrets in a story with the title The Memories We Bury. Bury the memories and make up a new reality, how could that hurt anyone? Well, just wait until you read this book—you'll see how harmful that new reality can be. And everyone has secrets.
This story is a compelling read and definitely a page turner. I found myself constantly trying to figure out the characters and what their agendas were. Was Morag really as helpful as she appeared to be or did she have other plans for the family next door? Why wasn't Markus more of a husband to Lizzie and father to Jamie? Is Lizzie as unstable as the other two think?
As the story progresses and memories and secrets are revealed, what will be the outcome for this group of people—who will get hurt and who will be saved?
There were a lot of great lines about memories throughout the story—about wanting to forget them, bury them, and wondering if it's even possible to escape them. Here are two I especially liked.
"The harder I try to bury part of my memories, the fiercer is the tremble they create below the surface when I as much as take a glimpse into their direction."
"Wouldn't it be a blessing to forget some of our memories forever, erased from the mind as if they'd never happened?" I don't know, would it?
The Memories We Bury is such a riveting story and you will find yourself drawn into Lizzie, Morag and Markus' lives as you try to figure out how it's all going to end. I definitely recommend it!
This story is a compelling read and definitely a page turner. I found myself constantly trying to figure out the characters and what their agendas were. Was Morag really as helpful as she appeared to be or did she have other plans for the family next door? Why wasn't Markus more of a husband to Lizzie and father to Jamie? Is Lizzie as unstable as the other two think?
As the story progresses and memories and secrets are revealed, what will be the outcome for this group of people—who will get hurt and who will be saved?
There were a lot of great lines about memories throughout the story—about wanting to forget them, bury them, and wondering if it's even possible to escape them. Here are two I especially liked.
"The harder I try to bury part of my memories, the fiercer is the tremble they create below the surface when I as much as take a glimpse into their direction."
"Wouldn't it be a blessing to forget some of our memories forever, erased from the mind as if they'd never happened?" I don't know, would it?
The Memories We Bury is such a riveting story and you will find yourself drawn into Lizzie, Morag and Markus' lives as you try to figure out how it's all going to end. I definitely recommend it!
February 29, 2020
Lizzie Thomson seems to have everything. Having recently started her first job as a music teacher in Edinburgh she is thrilled to be moving into her lovely new home with her husband, Markus. But Lizzie hides the sadness of her upbringing which has caused her to feel inadequate. Next door is Morag, a lonely widow who is estranged from her children. In alternate chapters we read, in the first person, the innermost thoughts of each of these women. But who is telling the truth? Is Morag to blame for her angry daughter? Is Lizzie being betrayed by her husband?
The whole story pivots on Lizzie’s unplanned pregnancy. New husband, Markus is not ready to settle down to domesticity, but as Lizzie is an orphan, Morag is only too happy to step in as substitute Granny for new-born, Jamie. As Lizzie’s close friends prove unreliable, she begins to rely on former midwife, Morag’s experience and help. They become close, which Markus dislikes until Morag’s compliments convince him that she is a useful asset, dealing with his increasingly pathetic wife.
As both Lizzie and Morag gradually reveal to us the effect of bad parenting in their backgrounds, we see this reverberating in their present lives. The worries of bringing up a first child are very familiar to any mother, but the complexity of Lizzie’s plight is gripping, compulsive reading. Without revealing more of the plot, I highly recommend this psychological study of friendship and obsession.
The whole story pivots on Lizzie’s unplanned pregnancy. New husband, Markus is not ready to settle down to domesticity, but as Lizzie is an orphan, Morag is only too happy to step in as substitute Granny for new-born, Jamie. As Lizzie’s close friends prove unreliable, she begins to rely on former midwife, Morag’s experience and help. They become close, which Markus dislikes until Morag’s compliments convince him that she is a useful asset, dealing with his increasingly pathetic wife.
As both Lizzie and Morag gradually reveal to us the effect of bad parenting in their backgrounds, we see this reverberating in their present lives. The worries of bringing up a first child are very familiar to any mother, but the complexity of Lizzie’s plight is gripping, compulsive reading. Without revealing more of the plot, I highly recommend this psychological study of friendship and obsession.
March 28, 2021
"Wouldn't it be a blessing to forget some of our memories forever, erased from the mind as if they'd never happened?"
We begin in September 2016 when 30 year old Lizzie Thomson seems to be having a nightmare-standing alone by a dark lake feeling "helpless, aimless and without memory of what has happened."
It is atmospheric with the present continuous verbs of shaking and shudder[ing], naked feet sinking into a graphic image of mud followed by a desperate scream. A hooded giant had chased Lizzie, caught her, dropped her into the water and pushed her under.
Over the course of the novella, Leuschel's first, the opening is ominous, complete with pathetic fallacy. This, in effect, is the end, the nightmare being the "remnants of confusing, unsettling years." She has survived three very difficult years being controlled, manipulated by Morag, a neighbour and a "surrogate" mother figure as well as a husband verging on the narcissistic, very wooden and absent from most of the story who relishes having a trophy wife but can't commit to the responsibilities of being married and having a son.
When we delve more into the story we realise the extent of Lizzie's victimisation and "damage." Her childhood was unhappy. Her insecurities dominated this important time in her life, mainly caused by her cold, emotionless mother's constant criticisms. There were moments when her mother tried, unsuccessfully, to show some admiration through Lizzie's gift of music. "Music became my haven." Her confidence grew and she was given a much-needed direction in life. It energised her and was the one constant in her unhappy life that sustained her.
The story has a modern structure, chapters alternating from Lizzie's account to Morag's, dual narration, giving us insight into the two main characters, their developing relationship, complete with frustrations and mistrust to the disintegration and psychological damage caused.
Morag, a widow in her sixties, felt discarded by her "adopted" daughter. She had a harsh upbringing just like Lizzie and it seems that Morag has continues the trend of being controlling, too well-organised and refusing to allow any mess or disorganisation in the home.
In spite of Lizzie's whirlwind romance, hasty and imprudent marriage followed by an unplanned pregnancy she was in such a vulnerable state, she was easy prey to Morag who made her feel special and acted as a mother substitute. "What united us was the basic human need to escape being alone." Morag's grown-up children had chosen not to have children which had devastated her: " Sometimes, you need to accept that you can't depend on your family for making your dreams come true." So she turned to Lizzie: "a little bird in need of [her] care." She admitted to living in a "limbo" for a very long time.
Inevitably, the relationship turned sour. You will need to read it to find out what went horribly wrong. If you haven't read any of Leuschel's previous stories it is worth having a look or for those more versed in her work on toxic relationships and manipulative people this one can be added to the growing list! "The Memories We Bury" follows an earlier and worrying trend. It seems that past memories can cast long shadows over the present, shaping our lives. Damaged for life? I'll leave you to decide.
"I enjoyed being part of building a person from scratch." Rather worrying!
We begin in September 2016 when 30 year old Lizzie Thomson seems to be having a nightmare-standing alone by a dark lake feeling "helpless, aimless and without memory of what has happened."
It is atmospheric with the present continuous verbs of shaking and shudder[ing], naked feet sinking into a graphic image of mud followed by a desperate scream. A hooded giant had chased Lizzie, caught her, dropped her into the water and pushed her under.
Over the course of the novella, Leuschel's first, the opening is ominous, complete with pathetic fallacy. This, in effect, is the end, the nightmare being the "remnants of confusing, unsettling years." She has survived three very difficult years being controlled, manipulated by Morag, a neighbour and a "surrogate" mother figure as well as a husband verging on the narcissistic, very wooden and absent from most of the story who relishes having a trophy wife but can't commit to the responsibilities of being married and having a son.
When we delve more into the story we realise the extent of Lizzie's victimisation and "damage." Her childhood was unhappy. Her insecurities dominated this important time in her life, mainly caused by her cold, emotionless mother's constant criticisms. There were moments when her mother tried, unsuccessfully, to show some admiration through Lizzie's gift of music. "Music became my haven." Her confidence grew and she was given a much-needed direction in life. It energised her and was the one constant in her unhappy life that sustained her.
The story has a modern structure, chapters alternating from Lizzie's account to Morag's, dual narration, giving us insight into the two main characters, their developing relationship, complete with frustrations and mistrust to the disintegration and psychological damage caused.
Morag, a widow in her sixties, felt discarded by her "adopted" daughter. She had a harsh upbringing just like Lizzie and it seems that Morag has continues the trend of being controlling, too well-organised and refusing to allow any mess or disorganisation in the home.
In spite of Lizzie's whirlwind romance, hasty and imprudent marriage followed by an unplanned pregnancy she was in such a vulnerable state, she was easy prey to Morag who made her feel special and acted as a mother substitute. "What united us was the basic human need to escape being alone." Morag's grown-up children had chosen not to have children which had devastated her: " Sometimes, you need to accept that you can't depend on your family for making your dreams come true." So she turned to Lizzie: "a little bird in need of [her] care." She admitted to living in a "limbo" for a very long time.
Inevitably, the relationship turned sour. You will need to read it to find out what went horribly wrong. If you haven't read any of Leuschel's previous stories it is worth having a look or for those more versed in her work on toxic relationships and manipulative people this one can be added to the growing list! "The Memories We Bury" follows an earlier and worrying trend. It seems that past memories can cast long shadows over the present, shaping our lives. Damaged for life? I'll leave you to decide.
"I enjoyed being part of building a person from scratch." Rather worrying!
March 1, 2020
This is one of those kinds of books that will really get under your skin. It'll make you really think about how people can manipulate each other in ways you didn't even think possible...
Lizzie is a young new mother, perhaps a little naive, who has no-one to turn to when she needs support. Morag is a much older woman that doesn't appear to have anyone either. So when the two women meet, they form a bond of friendship. But what happens when that bond starts to delicately fracture?
The Memories We Bury looks at how friendships start and how buried memories can simmer and cause heartbreak when you least expect it. It's a wonderfully deep and insightful story that will really get you thinking.
Lizzie is a young new mother, perhaps a little naive, who has no-one to turn to when she needs support. Morag is a much older woman that doesn't appear to have anyone either. So when the two women meet, they form a bond of friendship. But what happens when that bond starts to delicately fracture?
The Memories We Bury looks at how friendships start and how buried memories can simmer and cause heartbreak when you least expect it. It's a wonderfully deep and insightful story that will really get you thinking.
August 27, 2020
In The Memories We Bury, Lizzie Thomson has recently moved into her new home in Edinburgh with her husband Markus. Shortly after, Lizzie becomes pregnant unexpectedly with their first child, Jamie. She befriends their neighbour, Morag, a knowledgeable widow who longs for grandchildren. When Morag finds out that Lizzie is pregnant, she is thrilled for her. Markus becomes increasingly distant, forcing Lizzie to rely more and more on Morag, who takes on a grandmotherly role in Jamie’s life.
Each chapter throughout the book switches between Lizzie and Morag’s point of view. The timeline also switches, beginning with 2016, then flashing back to 2013-2014 and the history of what’s happened. Both characters were fascinating — they are both so different.
Lizzie is quiet and introverted, a music teacher. Her relationship with her husband Markus is strained — he felt it was too soon for them to have children and he’s focused on his career. It’s easy to see why Lizzie feels isolated, and begins to rely on her neighbour. I enjoyed reading her sections; I could feel her loneliness and suffocation coming off the page.
Morag has always been well-groomed and organised — the image of the ideal housewife. As a retired pediatric nurse, she is also knowledgeable, which Lizzie is incredibly grateful for. A widow, she is also lonely and isolated. She’s desperate for a grandchild and is overjoyed to help with Jamie’s care.
By reading the story from each point of view (often each day from their individual viewpoints), we learn more about their motivations and history. It became difficult to figure out who was telling the truth and who to believe as the story progressed. I went back and re-read the first few chapters after finishing the book, seeing them with fresh eyes.
While this is character-driven, the story had me hooked. It starts off quite slow and innocent, then slowly begins to ramp up. I felt for Lizzie and was so anxious for Jamie! I didn’t want to put this one down as I kept thinking about the characters and what was going to happen next. The last half of the book is really tense!
The Memories We Bury is a fantastic, thrilling read, that’s well-written with brilliantly crafted characters. I could believe that this was a true story and felt totally immersed in their world. The whole book is so tense and I was gripped to the very end! I think this book would particularly appeal to young mothers who may be able to relate to Lizzie — but as a non-mother, it was a fantastic read. I look forward to reading more from this author in future!
Each chapter throughout the book switches between Lizzie and Morag’s point of view. The timeline also switches, beginning with 2016, then flashing back to 2013-2014 and the history of what’s happened. Both characters were fascinating — they are both so different.
Lizzie is quiet and introverted, a music teacher. Her relationship with her husband Markus is strained — he felt it was too soon for them to have children and he’s focused on his career. It’s easy to see why Lizzie feels isolated, and begins to rely on her neighbour. I enjoyed reading her sections; I could feel her loneliness and suffocation coming off the page.
Morag has always been well-groomed and organised — the image of the ideal housewife. As a retired pediatric nurse, she is also knowledgeable, which Lizzie is incredibly grateful for. A widow, she is also lonely and isolated. She’s desperate for a grandchild and is overjoyed to help with Jamie’s care.
By reading the story from each point of view (often each day from their individual viewpoints), we learn more about their motivations and history. It became difficult to figure out who was telling the truth and who to believe as the story progressed. I went back and re-read the first few chapters after finishing the book, seeing them with fresh eyes.
While this is character-driven, the story had me hooked. It starts off quite slow and innocent, then slowly begins to ramp up. I felt for Lizzie and was so anxious for Jamie! I didn’t want to put this one down as I kept thinking about the characters and what was going to happen next. The last half of the book is really tense!
The Memories We Bury is a fantastic, thrilling read, that’s well-written with brilliantly crafted characters. I could believe that this was a true story and felt totally immersed in their world. The whole book is so tense and I was gripped to the very end! I think this book would particularly appeal to young mothers who may be able to relate to Lizzie — but as a non-mother, it was a fantastic read. I look forward to reading more from this author in future!
December 26, 2021
How I read this: Free ebook copy received from author
The book starts off with two points of view, the same story, told by two people. One is Lizzie, a young wife and mother, with a rather absent husband, and a past full of emotional abuse by her own mother. Now an adult orphan, Lizzie struggles to find her place in life, especially with her new husband unhappy about her getting pregnant so soon after the start of their marriage.
The other point of view belongs to Morag, a neighbor of Lizzie's, who is almost manically obsessed with children and babies, although she's already raised her own. She's of grandmother-age, but constantly complaining that her own two children will not give her what is "due" - that is, grandchildren. She talks as if that is absolutely her right and their duty, almost as if they exist only to finally deliver little children on her doorstep again. Morag is lovely and helpful on the surface, and seems to mean well - but there is just that little something that is so off about her, it almost makes your skin crawl.
Lizzie struggles as a new mother, and of course Morag fills the void. But like I said, there's just always a little something that's off about Morag, and you can't help thinking she's hiding a few secrets. I couldn't figure out Morag's character for a long time. It's like, there's nothing wrong that she does. So maybe she's a little clingy and judgemental, but she's a lonely, rather abandoned senior lady who's lived her life to raise children. She feels alone and pointless, useless without anyone to pamper and raise. So it's no wonder she is doting and basically wants to adopt another daughter with a grandchild incoming. But at the same time, there is something ever so slightly off about her. Almost as if she's manipulating Lizzie, but for what? You can't figure it out. With H.A. Leuschel's writing, the truth is always creeping at the outskirts, and you can almost sense it, but you know you won't really find out until the author decides it's time.
This ended up being a good story about manipulative behaviors, and also about how complicated human relationships are, how flawed they can be on both sides. It's not an easy read and it's tense all the way through, it may also prove triggering to people who have been victims of gaslighting and emotional manipulation. But the book will definitely make you think.
I thank the author for giving me a free copy of the ebook in exchange to my honest review. This has not affected my opinion.
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The book starts off with two points of view, the same story, told by two people. One is Lizzie, a young wife and mother, with a rather absent husband, and a past full of emotional abuse by her own mother. Now an adult orphan, Lizzie struggles to find her place in life, especially with her new husband unhappy about her getting pregnant so soon after the start of their marriage.
The other point of view belongs to Morag, a neighbor of Lizzie's, who is almost manically obsessed with children and babies, although she's already raised her own. She's of grandmother-age, but constantly complaining that her own two children will not give her what is "due" - that is, grandchildren. She talks as if that is absolutely her right and their duty, almost as if they exist only to finally deliver little children on her doorstep again. Morag is lovely and helpful on the surface, and seems to mean well - but there is just that little something that is so off about her, it almost makes your skin crawl.
Lizzie struggles as a new mother, and of course Morag fills the void. But like I said, there's just always a little something that's off about Morag, and you can't help thinking she's hiding a few secrets. I couldn't figure out Morag's character for a long time. It's like, there's nothing wrong that she does. So maybe she's a little clingy and judgemental, but she's a lonely, rather abandoned senior lady who's lived her life to raise children. She feels alone and pointless, useless without anyone to pamper and raise. So it's no wonder she is doting and basically wants to adopt another daughter with a grandchild incoming. But at the same time, there is something ever so slightly off about her. Almost as if she's manipulating Lizzie, but for what? You can't figure it out. With H.A. Leuschel's writing, the truth is always creeping at the outskirts, and you can almost sense it, but you know you won't really find out until the author decides it's time.
This ended up being a good story about manipulative behaviors, and also about how complicated human relationships are, how flawed they can be on both sides. It's not an easy read and it's tense all the way through, it may also prove triggering to people who have been victims of gaslighting and emotional manipulation. But the book will definitely make you think.
I thank the author for giving me a free copy of the ebook in exchange to my honest review. This has not affected my opinion.
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June 15, 2020
Lizzie Thomson, a young music teacher whose troubled childhood caused her deep insecurities in life, is now married to handsome, captivating and self-assured Markus. In spite of the differences between them everything seems going well until they discover Lizzie is expecting. They then, decide to move into a nice new home and start afresh.
Being a first-time mom Lizzie lacks the knowledge and skills she'll need in the near future, though, to her relief she meets her next door neighbor Morag, an elderly experienced nurse and mother living by herself and eager at the prospect of having a family and particularly a grandchild she'd always dreamt of.
Not much longer it took Morag to become an indispensable and dear friend who's always there to help in every situation. But soon, as the story develops the plot turns creepy when Morag starts meticulously planning every step and every decision regarding the household and especially Jamie's upbringing (Lizzie's little one).
Is Morag really willing to assist a primipara mother such as Lizzie or does she harbor a more sinister wish to fulfill the emptiness in her own frustrated life?
I enjoyed reading about Morag, such a complex character; you never know what she is going to do next. She sees life in a very particular perspective difficult to understand for the average viewer. Why having a child is so important? Sometimes she plays the lovely lady who could be the most adorable granny, and next she becomes a frightening witch capable of the most despicable deeds.
The book reflects quite ordinary situations in which the strongest abuses the weakest, and to the same extent it happens in real life you don't know for sure who's who, moreover the story pictures Morag as someone not fully conscious of the lines she should not cross, therefore it makes it difficult to judge her as the villain. It also makes me think of how easy it is to accept too many favors that over a period of time you will be dragged into debt with someone you took for granted you shared a free friendship with. I like the way the author depicts all these emotional blackmailing and erratic behaviors individuals usually take too long to identify, and even more complicated to get rid of them in the right time.
Taken from Pages in the Attic blog.
Being a first-time mom Lizzie lacks the knowledge and skills she'll need in the near future, though, to her relief she meets her next door neighbor Morag, an elderly experienced nurse and mother living by herself and eager at the prospect of having a family and particularly a grandchild she'd always dreamt of.
Not much longer it took Morag to become an indispensable and dear friend who's always there to help in every situation. But soon, as the story develops the plot turns creepy when Morag starts meticulously planning every step and every decision regarding the household and especially Jamie's upbringing (Lizzie's little one).
Is Morag really willing to assist a primipara mother such as Lizzie or does she harbor a more sinister wish to fulfill the emptiness in her own frustrated life?
I enjoyed reading about Morag, such a complex character; you never know what she is going to do next. She sees life in a very particular perspective difficult to understand for the average viewer. Why having a child is so important? Sometimes she plays the lovely lady who could be the most adorable granny, and next she becomes a frightening witch capable of the most despicable deeds.
The book reflects quite ordinary situations in which the strongest abuses the weakest, and to the same extent it happens in real life you don't know for sure who's who, moreover the story pictures Morag as someone not fully conscious of the lines she should not cross, therefore it makes it difficult to judge her as the villain. It also makes me think of how easy it is to accept too many favors that over a period of time you will be dragged into debt with someone you took for granted you shared a free friendship with. I like the way the author depicts all these emotional blackmailing and erratic behaviors individuals usually take too long to identify, and even more complicated to get rid of them in the right time.
Taken from Pages in the Attic blog.
July 1, 2020
This novel kept me up until 3:00 am. And as soon as I’m done writing this, I’ll be ordering H.A. Leuschel’s collection of short stories, 'Manipulated Lives.' Do I even need to say anything else?? But OH MY GOSH. This was absolutely fantastic! I’m going to be very, very careful with what I have to say because the novel unfolds in this masterful way with this slow, mounting tension and I don’t want to even come close to spoiling anything for anyone. Ok? Ok.
Reading 'The Memories We Bury' made me deeply uncomfortable. And, as I write that, I get that can sound like a bad thing. But I mean it in the best possible way! With chapters alternating between Lizzie and Morag’s perspectives, the reader spends the entire novel inside their heads and the skill with which Leuschel crafts their webs of relationships, perspectives, and psychological struggles was so unnerving. What made it unnerving was how accurate it felt. I wasn’t a third of the way into the novel before I checked to see if Leuschel had a degree (or several) in psychology. This wasn’t your generic psychological suspense/thriller novel with an unreliable narrator due to some trauma in their past and/or substance abuse issues and blah, blah, blah. This was written by someone who understands how the heart and mind work. She was so accurate in how she portrayed all these complex (which I can say, as it’s in the blurb and I’m not spoiling anything!) relationships and that’s why the book was so uncomfortable. This was real. I kept hearing my therapist’s voice in my head as I read pointing out red flags!
Exceptional. Exquisite. Gripping. Haunting. Pick the adjective, whatever you want, as long as it’s positive/glowing it works. I’ve spent a lot of time telling family and friends about this novel since I finished it and I won’t be stopping anytime soon. It was one of those books where, when I’d put it down, the characters’ mood affected my own. You know? When you’re so engrossed in a novel you’re in a good place if the characters are and, if they aren’t, you’re agitated right along with them until you can pick it up again – that was my experience reading 'The Memories We Bury.' Before I was halfway through the novel I was caring about Lizzie like she was a dear friend of mine. And, as I’ve learned in therapy, since I’m an empath/helper by nature I just wanted to hug her and do anything I could to help! But instead I just had to be tense and read!
This was brilliant. I absolutely loved it! And you can bet I’ll be rereading 'The Memories We Bury' to see what it’s like when I know the ending. But obviously I’m going to check-out 'Manipulated Lives' first.
Reading 'The Memories We Bury' made me deeply uncomfortable. And, as I write that, I get that can sound like a bad thing. But I mean it in the best possible way! With chapters alternating between Lizzie and Morag’s perspectives, the reader spends the entire novel inside their heads and the skill with which Leuschel crafts their webs of relationships, perspectives, and psychological struggles was so unnerving. What made it unnerving was how accurate it felt. I wasn’t a third of the way into the novel before I checked to see if Leuschel had a degree (or several) in psychology. This wasn’t your generic psychological suspense/thriller novel with an unreliable narrator due to some trauma in their past and/or substance abuse issues and blah, blah, blah. This was written by someone who understands how the heart and mind work. She was so accurate in how she portrayed all these complex (which I can say, as it’s in the blurb and I’m not spoiling anything!) relationships and that’s why the book was so uncomfortable. This was real. I kept hearing my therapist’s voice in my head as I read pointing out red flags!
Exceptional. Exquisite. Gripping. Haunting. Pick the adjective, whatever you want, as long as it’s positive/glowing it works. I’ve spent a lot of time telling family and friends about this novel since I finished it and I won’t be stopping anytime soon. It was one of those books where, when I’d put it down, the characters’ mood affected my own. You know? When you’re so engrossed in a novel you’re in a good place if the characters are and, if they aren’t, you’re agitated right along with them until you can pick it up again – that was my experience reading 'The Memories We Bury.' Before I was halfway through the novel I was caring about Lizzie like she was a dear friend of mine. And, as I’ve learned in therapy, since I’m an empath/helper by nature I just wanted to hug her and do anything I could to help! But instead I just had to be tense and read!
This was brilliant. I absolutely loved it! And you can bet I’ll be rereading 'The Memories We Bury' to see what it’s like when I know the ending. But obviously I’m going to check-out 'Manipulated Lives' first.
July 1, 2020
The Memories We Bury is a Contemporary/ Psychological Suspense novel by H.A. Leuschel.
Although the plot of the book was not hard to figure from the very beginning, the author does put a lot of effort to create a good build up as well as the perfect characters.
Lizzie is the newlywed and now mother of a beautiful baby who wants more help from her husband to raise the child while her husband puts the least amount of effort possible.
And Moraag is the helpful old neighbor who wants to help out the best she can to make sure that not only is the baby happy, but Lizzie as well.
It's definitely a page turner because even though it's a psychological fiction novel, the flow of the story is put forward with such as ease and the writing is so smooth you don't realise when the twisted stuff starts until it's too late, by then you're already hooked.
But, not only is this book about mind manipulation, it's also about the effects of parenting, in this case bad vs. good parenting as what may seem acceptable to a parent, may have sure consequences for the child when they grow up.
🦄🦄🦄
Rated 9/10
Melina L.
Although the plot of the book was not hard to figure from the very beginning, the author does put a lot of effort to create a good build up as well as the perfect characters.
Lizzie is the newlywed and now mother of a beautiful baby who wants more help from her husband to raise the child while her husband puts the least amount of effort possible.
And Moraag is the helpful old neighbor who wants to help out the best she can to make sure that not only is the baby happy, but Lizzie as well.
It's definitely a page turner because even though it's a psychological fiction novel, the flow of the story is put forward with such as ease and the writing is so smooth you don't realise when the twisted stuff starts until it's too late, by then you're already hooked.
But, not only is this book about mind manipulation, it's also about the effects of parenting, in this case bad vs. good parenting as what may seem acceptable to a parent, may have sure consequences for the child when they grow up.
🦄🦄🦄
Rated 9/10
Melina L.
March 24, 2020
I read the author's novella, My Sweet Friend, some time ago, and struggled to categorise it. The best I could come up with was 'relationship drama', which goes some way to describing her latest book. Except, this one – in my opinion – has a much darker edge and many more layers to examine.
Timid Lizzie struggles to cope with her new life in suburban Edinburgh. Husband Markus devotes most of his time to work and play, and her announcement that she is pregnant does not elicit the response she wanted or expected. So, when kindly older neighbour Morag steps in as a 'surrogate' mum, the relief is palpable. But, is Morag's devotion to Lizzie and baby Jamie purely selfless, or does she have a hidden agenda …?
'Almost every afternoon, she would invite herself in and I couldn't bring myself to tell her it wasn't a good moment or that I was busy, because I wasn't. She'd somehow hooked herself onto our lives like a trailer behind a car.'
Trust is a fragile bird perched on a branch that is so dry it will break at the first unexpected breeze.
My opinion of Morag swung back and forth, the author doing a sterling job of keeping the reader guessing until the very end. An intriguing and gripping book.
Timid Lizzie struggles to cope with her new life in suburban Edinburgh. Husband Markus devotes most of his time to work and play, and her announcement that she is pregnant does not elicit the response she wanted or expected. So, when kindly older neighbour Morag steps in as a 'surrogate' mum, the relief is palpable. But, is Morag's devotion to Lizzie and baby Jamie purely selfless, or does she have a hidden agenda …?
'Almost every afternoon, she would invite herself in and I couldn't bring myself to tell her it wasn't a good moment or that I was busy, because I wasn't. She'd somehow hooked herself onto our lives like a trailer behind a car.'
Trust is a fragile bird perched on a branch that is so dry it will break at the first unexpected breeze.
My opinion of Morag swung back and forth, the author doing a sterling job of keeping the reader guessing until the very end. An intriguing and gripping book.
May 9, 2020
I knew I was going to enjoy this book as soon as I read the blurb. Enjoy was quite an understatement though. I really couldn't put it down! The three main characters are Markus, Lizzie and Morag. Markus and Lizzie mive next door to Morag, a woman whose family have grown up and moved away, so she is rather a lonely lady. Markus and Lizzie are a young married couple who, after moving in end up with Lizzie falling pregnant and having a little boy. For Morag, a motherly woman it is a dream come true! Lizzie is a product of a cold, harsh upbringing and Markus is not acting as he did before she was pregnant, so she is bewildered, lost and feeling totally inept, then he starts lying and withholding stuff from her. Morag steps in and befriends her,gives her what she is missing.
The story alternates chapter by chapter with Morags story and then Lizzie's, so we find out the backgrounds of them both and I empathised with both characters to a point. It became rather unsettling to see how easy it is to manipulate people and make a friendship become toxic.
This is a perceptive story of the insecurities that can come when motherhood appears and they don't have the support needed at this time. I could not wait to reach the end and find out exactly what memories were buried and hidden in this deliciously dark read!
With thanks to Rachel's Random Resources for asking me to be a part of the blog tour.
The story alternates chapter by chapter with Morags story and then Lizzie's, so we find out the backgrounds of them both and I empathised with both characters to a point. It became rather unsettling to see how easy it is to manipulate people and make a friendship become toxic.
This is a perceptive story of the insecurities that can come when motherhood appears and they don't have the support needed at this time. I could not wait to reach the end and find out exactly what memories were buried and hidden in this deliciously dark read!
With thanks to Rachel's Random Resources for asking me to be a part of the blog tour.
April 20, 2020
This book introduces you to Lizzie, freshly married, moving in next door to Morag, a retired nurse.
With "The Memories We Bury", H. A. Leuschel has created an intense and thought-provoking story that kept me glued to my Kindle. Helene Leuschel introduces her characters as the story proceeds; I suddenly realised that I knew them quite well - or at least I thought I knew them. The main characters are complex - as well as believable. The story has a good flow; it certainly will not leave you unaffected. Not everyone will have the 'Been there, done that.' feeling, and they still will have goosebumps on their arms.
This is a book for you if you like compelling stories, psychology, and food for thought.
Highly recommended.
With "The Memories We Bury", H. A. Leuschel has created an intense and thought-provoking story that kept me glued to my Kindle. Helene Leuschel introduces her characters as the story proceeds; I suddenly realised that I knew them quite well - or at least I thought I knew them. The main characters are complex - as well as believable. The story has a good flow; it certainly will not leave you unaffected. Not everyone will have the 'Been there, done that.' feeling, and they still will have goosebumps on their arms.
This is a book for you if you like compelling stories, psychology, and food for thought.
Highly recommended.
August 31, 2020
Firstly I really like this cover. It caught my eye straightaway.
The story is told through two points of view - Lizzie and Morag. Lizzie is married to Markus and living next door to Morag who’s in her sixties. As Lizzie struggles as a new mum her neighbor Morag is keen to help them. I really don’t want to say much more about the story.
I absolutely loved it. Thought the storyline was brilliant although maybe on the creepy kinda side lol
Definitely one of those stories that makes you think! I’m looking forward to reading more from this author in the future.
The story is told through two points of view - Lizzie and Morag. Lizzie is married to Markus and living next door to Morag who’s in her sixties. As Lizzie struggles as a new mum her neighbor Morag is keen to help them. I really don’t want to say much more about the story.
I absolutely loved it. Thought the storyline was brilliant although maybe on the creepy kinda side lol
Definitely one of those stories that makes you think! I’m looking forward to reading more from this author in the future.
August 24, 2020
This book should definitely win an award or two! I can’t quite believe the journey I’ve just had, but it’s been such an emotional reading experience. I connected to Lizzie and Morag’s characters so well, felt every emotion under the sun and was left in awe due to the author’s incredible story-telling skills. If you’re not ashamed of having a little cry, (because believe me, you will) and you’re looking for something that will hit you with powerful paragraphs, dialogue and all-round emotion, this is definitely one to add to your list. I feel like giving everyone in my family the biggest hug right now! An absolutely unforgettable book and one that I’ll be buying in paperback for my bookshelf!
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See the full review on my blog here: https://aquintillionwords.com/2020/08...
September 2, 2020
A very clever psychological drama from a new perspective. I enjoyed how this unfolded, as in the beginning the way the plot was woven made it look possible that Lizzie was unwell and transferring her previous life onto a new subject.
The main characters of Lizzie and Morag are both credible to start with and it explores how manipulation can be very slowly executed. I know from experience that this is the way very clever abusers work, and this is executed throughout as a believable story.
The final twist is a master stroke from the author and it was an extremely clever novel. If you enjoy domestic noir, this will float your boat.
The main characters of Lizzie and Morag are both credible to start with and it explores how manipulation can be very slowly executed. I know from experience that this is the way very clever abusers work, and this is executed throughout as a believable story.
The final twist is a master stroke from the author and it was an extremely clever novel. If you enjoy domestic noir, this will float your boat.
May 9, 2020
Pierwsza książka Leuschel, zbiór opowiadań, mnie zaciekawiła, ale daleka byłam od zachwytu, dlatego dość sceptycznie zabrałam się za lekturę tej powieści. Obawiałam się, że nie podołam językowi, że będę czytać wiele tygodni, brnąc przez kolejne zawiłości językowe i niezbyt wartką akcję. Tymczasem ta powieść mnie zachwyciła. To naprawdę świetny kawałek prozy psychologicznej.
Lizzie, to młoda mężatka, nauczycielka muzyki i niebawem świeżo upieczona mama. Jej ślub z Markusem był wprawdzie planowany, ale tak szybka ciąża już niekoniecznie. Lizzie cieszy się na dziecko, lekkoduch Markus niespecjalnie. Jego życie obraza się wokół pracy, imprez, beztroski, ma ochotę prezentować młodą, piękną żonę, a nie zamienić się w statecznego ojca. Lizzie natomiast to dość nieśmiała osoba, która nosi w sobie piętno niezbyt szczęśliwego dzieciństwa. Wychowana przez surową i beznamiętną matkę nie zaznała zbyt wiele miłości z jej strony. Matka traktowała ją czule tylko podczas chorób oraz gdy odkryto talent dziewczynki. Gdy jednak okazało się, że Lizzie wprawdzie jest uzdolniona, ale nie na tyle, by wygrywać konkursy i zostać gwiazdą, zainteresowanie matki wyparowało.
Lizzie i Marcus wprowadzają się do jego reprezentacyjnego domu, gdzie ogromnym wsparciem dla młodej matki okazuje się być sąsiadka - Morag. Emerytowana pielęgniarka i matka służy Lizzie radą i wsparciem, które są tym bardziej cenne, że Markus faktycznie nie spisuje się jako ojciec. Począwszy od porodu, na który nie zdąży, na opiece nad noworodkiem skończywszy.
Ciąg dalszy: https://przeczytalamksiazke.blogspot....
Lizzie, to młoda mężatka, nauczycielka muzyki i niebawem świeżo upieczona mama. Jej ślub z Markusem był wprawdzie planowany, ale tak szybka ciąża już niekoniecznie. Lizzie cieszy się na dziecko, lekkoduch Markus niespecjalnie. Jego życie obraza się wokół pracy, imprez, beztroski, ma ochotę prezentować młodą, piękną żonę, a nie zamienić się w statecznego ojca. Lizzie natomiast to dość nieśmiała osoba, która nosi w sobie piętno niezbyt szczęśliwego dzieciństwa. Wychowana przez surową i beznamiętną matkę nie zaznała zbyt wiele miłości z jej strony. Matka traktowała ją czule tylko podczas chorób oraz gdy odkryto talent dziewczynki. Gdy jednak okazało się, że Lizzie wprawdzie jest uzdolniona, ale nie na tyle, by wygrywać konkursy i zostać gwiazdą, zainteresowanie matki wyparowało.
Lizzie i Marcus wprowadzają się do jego reprezentacyjnego domu, gdzie ogromnym wsparciem dla młodej matki okazuje się być sąsiadka - Morag. Emerytowana pielęgniarka i matka służy Lizzie radą i wsparciem, które są tym bardziej cenne, że Markus faktycznie nie spisuje się jako ojciec. Począwszy od porodu, na który nie zdąży, na opiece nad noworodkiem skończywszy.
Ciąg dalszy: https://przeczytalamksiazke.blogspot....
September 3, 2023
Alluring. Addictive. Unforgettable.
Alternating between the POVs of its two main characters, "The Memories We Bury" weaves an intricate story of trust and betrayal, of a past we cannot run away from, a story that balances on the thin line bordering the healthy from the ill mind.
We meet Lizzie, a young, unexperienced mother who struggles with a distant, absent husband. She has a young baby and, luckily, she also has Morag, a retired nurse who lives next door. Morag will support, help, nurture and love Lizzie more than her own mother ever did.
Through chapters that alternate between the two we learn about their past. Lizzie, brought up by an overpowering, controlling mother, and Morag who lost her dear husband and seems abandoned by her own children.
But still waters run deep.
We have been lulled by the rhythm of the alternating POVs, by the rich tapestry of their back stories. This is what Leuschel does so well in her books.
Something is amiss. It starts as a nagging, a feeling. There is a monster in the story, but who?
Will he harm Lizzie? Kind Morag, the Good Samarithan, wee Jamie??
Things start turning from bad to worse, yet you can't pinpoint the culprit. Is it forever absent Markus, the husband who thrives when he is the center of attention, an absent father who keeps secrets from his young wife? Or Morag - she is a nurse, after all. Yet she loves Jamie. Or perhaps is it all in Lizzie's mind?
I read "The Memories We Bury" past my bedtime. I postponed chores to read one more chapter. I didn't dissapoint.
All that's left now is to wait Leuschel's next masterpiece.
A must read, highly recommend if you love books that delve into the human psychology, books that look at abusive relationships, abusive mothers or husbands, at easily influenced personalities. Or if you simply enjoyed any of Leuschel's previous books.
Alternating between the POVs of its two main characters, "The Memories We Bury" weaves an intricate story of trust and betrayal, of a past we cannot run away from, a story that balances on the thin line bordering the healthy from the ill mind.
We meet Lizzie, a young, unexperienced mother who struggles with a distant, absent husband. She has a young baby and, luckily, she also has Morag, a retired nurse who lives next door. Morag will support, help, nurture and love Lizzie more than her own mother ever did.
Through chapters that alternate between the two we learn about their past. Lizzie, brought up by an overpowering, controlling mother, and Morag who lost her dear husband and seems abandoned by her own children.
But still waters run deep.
We have been lulled by the rhythm of the alternating POVs, by the rich tapestry of their back stories. This is what Leuschel does so well in her books.
Something is amiss. It starts as a nagging, a feeling. There is a monster in the story, but who?
Will he harm Lizzie? Kind Morag, the Good Samarithan, wee Jamie??
Things start turning from bad to worse, yet you can't pinpoint the culprit. Is it forever absent Markus, the husband who thrives when he is the center of attention, an absent father who keeps secrets from his young wife? Or Morag - she is a nurse, after all. Yet she loves Jamie. Or perhaps is it all in Lizzie's mind?
I read "The Memories We Bury" past my bedtime. I postponed chores to read one more chapter. I didn't dissapoint.
All that's left now is to wait Leuschel's next masterpiece.
A must read, highly recommend if you love books that delve into the human psychology, books that look at abusive relationships, abusive mothers or husbands, at easily influenced personalities. Or if you simply enjoyed any of Leuschel's previous books.
August 26, 2020
WOW! I didn’t know where this book was going, who to trust, who was the unstable one a really psychologically hitting read!
So we have Lizzie, who is in her late twenties, she’s a new mum to a young baby and has had a whirlwind romance! However she is insecure and has to manage the daily struggles of mainly managing to parent on her own as her husband Markus is completely selfish and only concerned by himself and his own life! She is so desperate to be loved and has had a tough upbringing!
You will definitely feel for Lizzie and quickly sympathise with her! With the life she has had and the life she is living with the little support she has got!
Markus is the awful husband who is just completely shocking! BUT so many women must find themselves with a man like Markus, where life for them after a baby doesn’t change! He refuses to help Lizzie around the house and refuses to do things like change nappies etc and this is a huge pressure on Lizzie! He made me sooo angry and frustrated throughout this book!
Then we have Morag, she’s a retired nurse who’s children have all grown up and left home! She is lovely and caring and more than happy to help and support Lizzie! However she does begin to over step the mark and this is where you begin to not know who to trust!
Lizzie and Morag are neighbours and you would think between to the two they would form the perfect friendship BUT things and people aren’t always what they seem! Does one of them have an ulterior motive?
Like I said above this book so so twisted and confusing (in a good way) I really didn’t know which of them to trust, and kept changing my mind as to which one was unstable! I couldn’t tell who was being sincere and actually real!
Over the story it gradually comes to light both the characters differing pasts and backgrounds and what experiences and memories have made them who they are today and what has made them act the way that they do!
The truth that eventually comes out is shocking and sickening, as it’s something that could really happen in real life! This whole concept in the book is quite scary because it is so realistic! Now I’m one of those that doesn’t trust anyone, I always think there is an ulterior motive and that people aren’t being real! BUT there are also people like Lizzie who are desperate for love and are willing to trust anyone with no regards to who they actually are as a person!
Overall this book has really well written characters, a really realistic scenario, it has a good pace that builds up gradually and is an amazing psychological read! It can be uncomfortable and disturbing to read, and incredibly hard hitting! It’s also complex and it will definitely leave you feeling uneasy! A totally captivating read that I’m so happy to give 4 ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️! I’ve never read anything like this before and it was AMAZING!
So we have Lizzie, who is in her late twenties, she’s a new mum to a young baby and has had a whirlwind romance! However she is insecure and has to manage the daily struggles of mainly managing to parent on her own as her husband Markus is completely selfish and only concerned by himself and his own life! She is so desperate to be loved and has had a tough upbringing!
You will definitely feel for Lizzie and quickly sympathise with her! With the life she has had and the life she is living with the little support she has got!
Markus is the awful husband who is just completely shocking! BUT so many women must find themselves with a man like Markus, where life for them after a baby doesn’t change! He refuses to help Lizzie around the house and refuses to do things like change nappies etc and this is a huge pressure on Lizzie! He made me sooo angry and frustrated throughout this book!
Then we have Morag, she’s a retired nurse who’s children have all grown up and left home! She is lovely and caring and more than happy to help and support Lizzie! However she does begin to over step the mark and this is where you begin to not know who to trust!
Lizzie and Morag are neighbours and you would think between to the two they would form the perfect friendship BUT things and people aren’t always what they seem! Does one of them have an ulterior motive?
Like I said above this book so so twisted and confusing (in a good way) I really didn’t know which of them to trust, and kept changing my mind as to which one was unstable! I couldn’t tell who was being sincere and actually real!
Over the story it gradually comes to light both the characters differing pasts and backgrounds and what experiences and memories have made them who they are today and what has made them act the way that they do!
The truth that eventually comes out is shocking and sickening, as it’s something that could really happen in real life! This whole concept in the book is quite scary because it is so realistic! Now I’m one of those that doesn’t trust anyone, I always think there is an ulterior motive and that people aren’t being real! BUT there are also people like Lizzie who are desperate for love and are willing to trust anyone with no regards to who they actually are as a person!
Overall this book has really well written characters, a really realistic scenario, it has a good pace that builds up gradually and is an amazing psychological read! It can be uncomfortable and disturbing to read, and incredibly hard hitting! It’s also complex and it will definitely leave you feeling uneasy! A totally captivating read that I’m so happy to give 4 ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️! I’ve never read anything like this before and it was AMAZING!
June 29, 2020
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What a delightful, eerier, atmospheric story! It’s a simple, yet gripping psychological thriller about how someone you love and trust can manipulate your life.
The main highlight of the story is the two main characters, Lizzie and Morag. The author has written both of them in such a complex manner. However, my favorite character was Morag. Even though you know she how unpredictable she is, you still feel sorry for her at times. Moreover, the author keeps you second guessing as to whether she is trustworthy or not. At times, At times I believed Aileen’s side of the events, but at times, I also believed Morag’s version. Lizzie is also beautifully written. As an introvert and a bit of a pushover, I could relate to her. To be honest, it’s difficult standing up for what’s right when you have overbearing personalities controlling you. I loved how the author portrayed her.
However, the only criticism I have is I was expecting more twists and turns. I am not giving away spoilers, but I felt like the story-line resolved pretty early, and was expecting a shocking twist towards the end. I also felt like Markus was not clearly defined. He feels like a different character between beginning and end of the story, but no explanation provided on the change. Also, there are story-line with the mysterious letters and calls that Markus receives. Even though there is an explanation provided, it seemed weak and I still suspected him. Consequently, Markus and his story-line is pushed to the side and hardly seen in the second half. I wished we had resolution on his character as well.
But, apart from that, this book was perfect! Overall, I would encourage anyone to read “The Memories we Bury” if you are looking for a nice psychological thriller.
July 3, 2020
Wow, this was a twisted story indeed!
The Memories We Bury describes the growing friendship between a 64-year-old lady, Morag, and her new neighbor, Lizzie–who is newly-married and now pregnant.
Only, as the baby is born and Lizzie’s husband, Markus, is increasingly away from home due to the growing pressures at the workplace, Morag transforms into a controlling, manipulative woman.
A normally shy, introverted, and agreeable Lizzie finds herself fighting regain her independence but cannot fathom how Moran has such a strong hold on her. To make matters worse, she has managed to get Markus on her side. Even more strangely, Lizzie’s friends appear to be staying away from her.
In the thickening web of lies and deceit, Lizzie doubts herself and her ability to capably raise her newborn son. It was a fascinating, yet deeply uneasy read about how Lizzie attempts again and again to rein in her immature husband and throw off Moran’s yoke.
Until the very end, I was unsure which woman was manipulating the other. The story is told from Moran and Lizzie’s points of view alternately and we get to hear both woman’s accounts. Yet, it is difficult to say who is lying and who is innocent–such is the skill of the author!
In the final few chapters, Moran’s daughter, Aileen, makes an entrance and it appears that even she is a master manipulator. Moran’s sister, Lorna, is the only person who supports Moran’s story–but in the end, when Moran does something unforgivable even by her standards, Lorna cannot look the other way any more.
The novel is morbidly fascinating, reeling in the reader from the first word and refusing to let go. It is literally the last sentence that gives you closure and puts a (merciful!) stop to the back and forth in your head about who is playing all the mind games.
The author not only has an excellent grasp of taut storytelling, but she is also well-versed in the psychological games that go on between people. What I found frightening was how real the story felt–it could happen to you and me–and would we be able to defend ourselves in such a situation?
I could also appreciate the author’s ability to describe the exhaustion, sleep deprivation, and the dynamics between a young couple when a newborn enters the mix. Mental health in young mothers is not spoken about nearly enough!
I’d recommend this fantastic book to everyone because I think people will enjoy the mind games and the emotional ping-pong!
Thank you to the author and R&R book tours for my copy of the book!
The Memories We Bury describes the growing friendship between a 64-year-old lady, Morag, and her new neighbor, Lizzie–who is newly-married and now pregnant.
Only, as the baby is born and Lizzie’s husband, Markus, is increasingly away from home due to the growing pressures at the workplace, Morag transforms into a controlling, manipulative woman.
A normally shy, introverted, and agreeable Lizzie finds herself fighting regain her independence but cannot fathom how Moran has such a strong hold on her. To make matters worse, she has managed to get Markus on her side. Even more strangely, Lizzie’s friends appear to be staying away from her.
In the thickening web of lies and deceit, Lizzie doubts herself and her ability to capably raise her newborn son. It was a fascinating, yet deeply uneasy read about how Lizzie attempts again and again to rein in her immature husband and throw off Moran’s yoke.
Until the very end, I was unsure which woman was manipulating the other. The story is told from Moran and Lizzie’s points of view alternately and we get to hear both woman’s accounts. Yet, it is difficult to say who is lying and who is innocent–such is the skill of the author!
In the final few chapters, Moran’s daughter, Aileen, makes an entrance and it appears that even she is a master manipulator. Moran’s sister, Lorna, is the only person who supports Moran’s story–but in the end, when Moran does something unforgivable even by her standards, Lorna cannot look the other way any more.
The novel is morbidly fascinating, reeling in the reader from the first word and refusing to let go. It is literally the last sentence that gives you closure and puts a (merciful!) stop to the back and forth in your head about who is playing all the mind games.
The author not only has an excellent grasp of taut storytelling, but she is also well-versed in the psychological games that go on between people. What I found frightening was how real the story felt–it could happen to you and me–and would we be able to defend ourselves in such a situation?
I could also appreciate the author’s ability to describe the exhaustion, sleep deprivation, and the dynamics between a young couple when a newborn enters the mix. Mental health in young mothers is not spoken about nearly enough!
I’d recommend this fantastic book to everyone because I think people will enjoy the mind games and the emotional ping-pong!
Thank you to the author and R&R book tours for my copy of the book!
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