DNF at 122 pages (hence why I’m not leaving a star rating)
I received this book for free from the publisher, in exchange for my honest review.
And hoo-boy, do I have thoughts.
This is a debut novel from an author who is likely fairly young (judging by the photo on the promo sheet I received anyway) – and I tried to keep that in mind while reading. Unfortunately, this novel reads very young. Younger even than I feel most YA does. This book was offered to me after publicist saw I’d read Undead Girl Gang and loved it – so I was hopeful this would be another YA I could really get behind. Some might say my expectations going in were too high, but a lot of my issues stem from the lack of editing, character development and the fact that the “magic” in this book doesn’t follow its own (loosely) declared rules. This felt more like a first draft of someone who hoped to create a paranormal thriller and tie it up with a YA romance bow. The result was…messy.
Let’s break this into the 3 categories I had the most issues with:
The love interest – Cameron is the cliché Cali boy Casey finds herself crushing on. Golden blonde hair, golden eyes, golden tan and so perfect and golden she calls him Golden Boy from the moment she lays eyes on him. But, lest we think he’s too perfect, he’s also suicidal and so pushy that he seems to guilt Casey into agreeing to first be his friend, and then “more.”
I think we’re supposed to feel bad for Cameron. He experienced some trauma at a young age and because of the guilt he feels, he cuts himself and by the time Casey meets him, he’s seriously contemplating suicide. But this was all handled so clumsily and callously that it felt more like a box being checked than a serious issue being addressed. The interactions between the two of them surrounding his cutting habits are painful to read – Casey has a habit of repeatedly telling him to just stop it, basically because she says so. There was at least one instance where Cameron cut himself after Casey refused to hang out with him, so that just feeds back in to him being pushy. I could go on…
I guess it’s also supposed to be romantic that he’s so into Casey from the start that he constantly hounds her to open up to him and be his friend and then instantly says he feels there could be more between them. Casey tells him on multiple occasions that she’s not ready to open up to him and that she doesn’t make friends easily and the boy just won’t quit. He even says something like, he can see his presence isn’t appreciated but he wants her to give him a try anyway. HELLO. Bugger off. Later on she makes the point that just because she doesn’t want to tell him her whole life story, doesn’t mean she doesn’t want to be his friend. He was a little creepy. He follows that by later asking her to kiss him with “no strings attached” because they’re “just friends.” Ok dude. The creeper vibes mixed with his cries for help were confusing.
The paranormal– So Casey has been able to see the moments leading up to people’s deaths since she was a child. It started with her father. As I first understood it, she can see them from a third person omniscient view as they’re dying. Then she experiences their thoughts right before death. Their final thoughts and regrets, usually. But sometimes her visions sort of give her the perspective of the person dying? But not always because in one instance she saw the killer coming up on the person who was about to die. So, already, I’m a little lost. Then there’s dear old Golden Boy – because he’s the romantic love interest, she gets visions of him when he cuts, even when he’s not cutting deeply enough to kill himself. This doesn’t happen with anyone else.
It seems like she only sees deaths within a certain radius (I get that she’d go insane from seeing every death in the world), but the limits aren’t really clear. I also got the idea that she has to have known or at least seen the person once before, in order to watch them die. This almost explains her reluctance to befriend Cameron, but by even just looking at him, she’s capable of seeing his death, so not becoming his friend doesn’t help. Later she touches him (and the heat of his skin chilled her to the bone…) and suddenly gets an onslaught of visions of him dying in a bunch of different ways. But Casey describes the event: “they weren’t even real visions, but they were real to me.” So I don’t know what that means.
Her twin sister also has powers – actual powers that allow her to do something (I’ll refrain from spoiling, I guess). The powers of both sisters, when revealed to their friend group, don’t phase anyone, even for a second. I’m pretty open to magic, but if one of my friends told me they could see people dying, I’d call bullshit. Cameron repeatedly tells Casey she’s crazy, but I think that’s supposed to be endearing and cute and not so much his reaction to her being able to see people’s deaths.
EYES – Oh. My. God. Never before have I encountered a YA book that describes eyes more than this book – and I didn’t even finish this one! I know YA characters love eyes and deeply care about the eye color of their romantic partners as if it’s an essential part of their personality. But all Casey cares about is eyes! I wondered if this would pay off in some way later, and I suspect there’s likely a flimsy connection, but really I think it’s just that teens are supposed to love eyes. After the prologue, on the first page, we learn Casey’s eyes are silvery-blue and her sisters are blue-green. (P.S. they also have “creamy peach” skin and long black hair with a “silky texture”.) From there out we get descriptions of almost everyone’s eyes, even a waiter at a diner. Casey paints eyes from memory. She even thinks she can identify the murderer by his “snake-blue” eyes. That’s a new color for me by the way – I know YA books like to get creative with how they describe ordinary colored eyes to make them sound more romantic and sexy (sapphire eyes is popular), but I gotta give this one points for “snake-blue.” Of course, there are varying shades of blue snakes in existence, so I’m still not clear what she meant.
This review was way longer than intended for one I didn’t want to feature on my blog. I could easily have done a long ranting ramble, but I was trying to hold back a little, given the book was offered to me to review and I accepted, knowing I don’t typically love YA. I wanted to give it a chance, I really did. I think the idea is solid, but the writing needs several more rounds of editing and perhaps some sensitivity reading.