A few passages from Screen Tests:
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In a recent interview, I was asked to name a book I thought should be remembered. And I chose the Québécois writer Catherine Mavrikakis’s A Cannibal and Melancholy Mourning. The narrator hotly mourns all of these friends who have dies of AIDS, all named Hervé. The narrator says she loves works that are tender and cruel, and that is what this is for me, a jeremiad, a beautiful complaint. The book is inspired by Hervé Guibert’s autoportrait, To the Friend Who Did Not Save My Life, fictionalizing his friends Michel Foucault’s death from AIDS, which also documents Guibert’s own diagnosis, like a French companion to Close to the Knives.
The interviewer asked me to talk about New Narrative, and I told him that it was an avant-garde queer mostly American literary scene circling around community, and especially, memorializing friends and lovers who died of AIDS, refusing their disappearance. I rattled off names of New Narrative writers: Bruce Boone, Dodie Bellamy, Kevin Killian, Kathy Acker, Gail Scott. The interviewers asked me if I thought there would ever be another movement where writers could be angry in force again, if there would be another crisis that would allow for a political literature.
I have thought about this question for a while now, and I think it connects to more than just writing – it’s about art making, it’s about a way of life that is opposed to a mainstream, homogenized success.
And I said to his that there is always something to be angry about, always something to rage against.
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If I could only write throughout my entire life with the electricity of the amateur.
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There needs to be a word, I’ve realized, for the parasitism of middlebrow art and literature that steals from interesting and radical art but in the process strips it of its ferality, its political urgency, its queerness, its threat. (Sarah Schulman uses the term “gentrified,” also connecting it to Acker.)
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Writer’s block. How boring. I am supposed to be working on an essay, this essay in fact, but something stalls me. I cannot enter into it. I am unsure what is the use of all this first person anymore.