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512 pages, Paperback
First published September 21, 2001
I am not a terrorist. I am a person who feels a moral obligation to do all that is humanly possible to prevent the destruction of the earth.
During the late 1970s and early 1980s there was in Canada a large anarchist community that was particularly active in the prison abolition, feminist, Native, environmental, and Third World solidarity movements. While still working within these movements, some anarchists began to adopt direct action tactics that went beyond the legal boundaries defined by the state. They took up direct action not because they couldn’t control their rage, but as part of a long-term strategy to build a revolutionary movement that would be beyond the control of corporations and the state. An even smaller group within this movement decided to start a guerilla campaign – going underground to avoid possible arrest and imprisonment. I was part of a guerilla group that we called Direct Action.
We ardently believed that we were helping people and the environment by spending our days trying to change it radically. We accepted welfare as the least we were owed for our efforts and suffered not pangs of conscience in supplementing our meager incomes by looting and pillaging Vancouver’s various capitalist enterprises. As modern-day Robin Hoods, we plundered the large food and department stores for food and clothing, freeing us up for what we saw as more important missions such as organizing benefits, rallies, and support groups for the various victims of our society.
Reflecting our middle-class backgrounds, Doug, Brent and I used books and libraries as resources for learning criminal skills – as opposed to the real-life resources of other criminals.
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We began to lay down our plans with great excitement, analyzing every aspect of the future robbery as if it were a topic for a doctorial thesis.
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The environmental destruction I saw all around me was compelling me to commit my life toward doing whatever I could to stop it.
”I know,” agreed Brent. “We were born at the wrong time and place in history for what we want to do.” We had talked about all of this many times before – and especially how militant movements had to start somewhere. “I’m sure even in the Third World, the first liberation movements didn’t have many people in support,” Brent said. “It takes a long time for political movements to develop.” None of us were under any illusion that we were part of some huge revolutionary movement. Instead we believed that we were simply trying to inject militancy into a movement that already existed, and we hoped we would help it grow.
A newsreader announced that there had been a bombing at the Litton plant. The next picture showed a fleet of ambulances arriving at the plant, their emergency lights turning, sending a bright red light across what seemed like a war torn landscape. A reporter appeared on the screen, standing in front of a huge crater with smoke billowing out of it. Behind the crater stood the shell of a building with a huge gaping hole bombed out of it. Thick steel support cables were dangling out of huge slabs of concrete that had been violently torn apart. But worst of all – especially from our point of view – was the sight of stretchers with bodies covered in white sheets being carried to waiting ambulances.
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Julie was crying and Brent stared at the TV in profound disbelief. How could our plans have gone so horribly wrong? “we’ll have to flee to the United States,” concluded Brent in a hushed tone of voice. “No,” I assured him. “I’m going to kill myself. I can’t face this. These people. We didn’t mean to kill anyone, and I certainly wouldn’t be able to stand up in a court now and feel politically righteous about this action.”
I am called a terrorist – one who tries the impose their will through force and intimidation – by the court and press. But I am not a terrorist. I am a person who feels a moral obligation to do all that is humanly possible to prevent the destruction of the earth. Businesses such as a Litton, B.C. Hydro and Red Hot Video are the real terrorists. They are guilty of crimes against humanity and the earth, yet they are free to carry on their illegal activities while those who resist and those who are their victims remain in prison. How do we, who have no armies, weapons, power or money, stop these criminals before they destroy the earth?
I believe if there is any hope for the future, it lies in our struggle.