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Before I Let You Go

4.15  ·  Rating details ·  13,324 ratings  ·  1,646 reviews
The 2:00 a.m. call is the first time Lexie Vidler has heard her sister’s voice in years. Annie is a drug addict, a thief, a liar—and in trouble, again. Lexie has always bailed Annie out, given her money, a place to sleep, sent her to every kind of rehab. But this time, she’s not just strung out—she’s pregnant and in premature labor. If she goes to the hospital, she’ll lose ...more
Paperback, 384 pages
Published April 3rd 2018 by Graydon House
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Mar 09, 2018 rated it it was amazing
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After falling in love with Kelly Rimmer’s previous novel “ A Mother’s Confession ”, I was thrilled to have the opportunity to read this upcoming novel.

Lexie Vidler is a doctor who is used to getting calls in the middle of the night on her cell phone. Although she hasn’t spoken to her sister, Annie in more than two years, Lexie isn’t surprised to hear Annie’s voice when her landline rings at 2:00am. She tries to prepare her
Lindsay - Traveling Sisters Book Reviews
5 stars! This was a touching and emotional novel that affected me deeply. I have not stopped thinking about these characters since I finished reading.

This is a story about addiction. It involves family secrets that test the strength of the bond of sisters. This novel will challenge you to examine your thoughts and feelings toward addiction and the effects it has on the addict as well as their families. My mind was swimming with my thoughts and reactions as the story progressed. I questioned myse
Susanne  Strong
Mar 24, 2018 rated it really liked it
4 Emotional Stars.

Lexie Vidler’s relationship with her sister Annie has always been complicated. Their childhood wasn’t like most families and Annie always relied on her sister as a mother figure. When Lexie gets a call at 2 a.m. after not hearing from heard sister for years, she knows something is wrong. Something bad. But then something is always wrong with Annie. Annie is a drug addict. Has been for years. This time however, it’s not just drugs that Annie has a problem with. Annie is strung o
Jennifer ~ TarHeelReader
5 big stars to Before I Let You Go, an honest, emotional, compassionate story of addiction 🌟 🌟 🌟 🌟 🌟

When Lexie’s estranged sister, Annie, calls her one day for help, it’s serious. Annie has been using drugs again, and she’s pregnant and showing signs of early labor. On top of that, she’s afraid she’ll lose her baby and possibly be arrested due to endangerment laws.

The reader quickly learns there’s more to Annie’s past and why she abuses drugs, a past that is quite painful and told through her
Diane S ☔
Mar 16, 2018 rated it liked it
Shelves: 2018-read
3.5 A subject that is important and one has not been explored enough in fiction. A pregnant woman, addicted to heroin,who will lose her child and have to serve prison time. A law, which I never knew, that is enforced in some states. At first I had a hard time not being judgemental, having a baby that has to go through withdrawal, just such a horrible thing. Once I read Annie's story though I felt equally sorry for her and what she has gone through. As my grandmother used to tell us, everyone has ...more
Oct 25, 2018 rated it it was amazing
This was a heartbreaking and powerful story about the impact of addiction not only on the addict, but the addict’s family...

A beautiful story about an ugly subject... I feel as though I have shared a lot of personal garbage this week, but my ex is an addict... not heroine but, that’s irrelevant, addiction is addiction, its impact is great no matter what the addiction is... The reason I mention this is because it is really difficult for me to sympathize with an addict, especially when children ar
Jun 20, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: adult-reads, 2018
"There is no off switch to the love between sisters; no way to pause it, no way to destroy it."

This story was both a heartbreaking and heartwarming tale of the love between two sisters. Annie is a drug addict facing the biggest problem of her life. She is strung out, pregnant and in premature labor. Not knowing what else to do she calls her big sister, Lexie, for help. Lexie has always been more of a mother than a sister to Annie. She has always stepped in to help her little sister througho
Mary Beth
Mar 21, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Lexie gets a phone call at 2 am from her sister, Annie. She hasn't heard from her in years. She finds out that Annie is pregnant, but she won't go to the hospital, because she is afraid that she can't pass a drug test.
Annie is a drug addict. She has failed over and over again to get clean and sober. If she goes to the hospital, she knows that she will lose custody of her baby. She might even have to go to prison.

Lexie has always been there for her sister. They both share a strong bond of a ter
Mar 30, 2018 rated it really liked it
4.5 stars!

BEFORE I LET YOU GO by KELLY RIMMER is a touching, raw, heartbreaking and an absolutely wonderful novel that had me totally emotionally engaged and interested throughout the entire book. I was totally immersed in this deeply moving and beautifully written story here making it hard to put down.

KELLY RIMMER delivers a compassionate, thought-provoking and well-written story here that touches on so many emotional issues and the sensitive subject matter of addiction. The story was told in
Apr 29, 2018 rated it really liked it
Shelves: mystery
Two sisters: one a physician the other a drug addict. One whose unborn baby's life is at risk. The consequences of being an addict and having your parental rights stripped. Then the struggle of doing what's right despite the love you have which has become a codependency. The sacrifices made.

This was a surprisingly engaging story told from both sister's POV.

It is also a foray into the depths of addiction and the struggle to come clean. The good days; the bad. The hopelessness and despair along wi
Theresa Alan
Apr 01, 2018 rated it it was amazing
I really love this novel, and here are a couple reasons why: One, Rimmer is sympathetic to both addicts and the family members dealing with addicted love ones. Two, Rimmer is a hugely talented writer.

The story is about two sisters who have been estranged for two years because one of them has battled drug addiction for years. Lexie is the together sister—a doctor who is engaged to a wonderful man. Annie is the sister who has battled drug addiction. Lexie is used to getting late-night calls of req
Miriam Smith
Oct 19, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
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Every once In a while you need to embrace a story that brings you back down to reality and allows you to express pent up emotions. "Before I Let You Go" by USA bestselling author Kelly Rimmer, is just that book! I guarantee by the time you've finished reading it you'll have used up a box of tissues and given yourself an awful lot to ponder over.
Although I don't have a sister, I could still understand and sympathise with Lexie's torment at her sister Annie's predicament and sympathised at how he
Elyse  Walters
Jun 11, 2018 rated it it was amazing
$1.99 Kindle special. It was good... worth the price 📚💕

This book explores addiction...
from many sides: the addicted, the fixer, core issues,
probable cause & secrets withheld, the struggle to ‘get sober’, pregnancy drug addicted and the complex consequences: ‘the health of the baby’, legal ramifications, rehab, and emotional toll on not only immediate family members - but their partners too.

Intimate storytelling.....
The characters are wonderfully developed. As the reader - its normal to have op
Brenda - Traveling Sisters Book Reviews
Before I Let You Go grabbed my heart from the first page and didn’t let go of it. Kelly Rimmer skillfully writes with compassion and honesty as she explores the bond between two sisters from their traumatic childhood and to the crisis they now face.

Kelly Rimmers does an excellent job compassionately creating our main characters here with Annie and Lexie as they deal with Annie’s drug addiction and an unjust law and the trauma of their past. She realistically captures Annie’s addiction and Lexie
Before I Let You Go is such an emotional and heart breaking read... this definitely tugged on my heart strings!

Kelly Rimmer ever so gracefully pours her beautiful words across the pages of this novel about loss, addiction, strength, and love.

Lexie Vidler and her sister Annie have had quite the heart-breaking past with Annie's addiction to heroin. Lexie hasn't spoken to her sister in 2 years and one night gets a phone call at 2 am. Lexie thought she has been through it all with Annie, but her wo
Apr 01, 2018 rated it really liked it
Shelves: netgalley
Despite the title and cover, Before I Let You Go is not another psychological thriller — so many thrillers have similar titles.

No, it’s a heartfelt story about sisters, addiction, grief and abuse. Lexie and Annie lost their father as children, after which their mother moved them to a very insular and strict religious community. Lexie left first and then Annie followed her. Flash forward several years and Lexie is a doctor and Annie is pregnant and addicted to heroin. The story is told primarily
Jan 28, 2018 rated it really liked it
I was immediately drawn to the story and characters in this book. Even though it touches on some very sensitive and troubling themes mainly drug abuse, it was well executed to show two sides of the coin. One of drug addict and also the family affected. I found this a honest and realistic portrayal and the two sisters at the core of this story really touched a nerve, the bond and then the destruction of that bond was heartbreaking, I was impressed how the author managed to really capture the topi ...more
Holly  B
Mar 16, 2018 rated it liked it
Shelves: read-in-2018
3.5 Stars

Two sisters face some life changing decisions.

Lexie is the older, successful sister and Annie is broke and addicted to drugs. The paths they have chosen couldn’t be more different. Lexie hasn’t been able to save her sister from addiction, but things are different now. Annie is pregnant, and she is asking Lexie for help.

Prepare to have some tissues ready. I was teary eyed at several passages and could feel the emotions that both sisters were experiencing. We get the backstory, some jour
The day Lexie and Annie's father died was the catalyst to change - nothing was the same in the aftermath. Their mother was unable to cope, and Lexie, being the older of the two sisters, took over. She prepared meals, got them both ready for school, did the laundry - she grew up quickly.

Twelve months later Robert appeared in their lives; their mother married him and Lexie and Annie had a step-father they hated. But the bond between the two girls continued to grow with Lexie always there for Annie
Sep 11, 2019 rated it it was amazing
A Mother with One True Love - Heroin . . .

A Sister Fighting against the Odds. . .

A baby with no choice at all.
Mar 18, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
4.5 heartbreaking stars

This sad yet utterly poignant story illuminates for the reader, all the effects an addiction can do to both the person addicted and the family that surrounds that person.

Lexie and Annie Vidler are sisters growing up in a loving household until tragedy strikes and they are propelled into a nightmare. After the loss of their father, the mother spirals into deep depression until she meets a man Robert who is one of the leaders of a cult like religion which ensnares the mothe
Jun 24, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: netgalley
This book should firstly come with a warning that it has an emotional punch that even Rocky would be proud of.

It starts with a moral dilemma, how far would you go to help a sibling? Is blood thicker than water?

Lexie is contacted by her sister Annie as she needs help, she is pregnant and hooked on drugs, desperate for help but afraid to go to the hospital as social services will take her unborn baby away.

I started this book disliking Annie and finding her weak, but I had forgotten you shouldn’
Veronica ⭐️
Mar 23, 2018 rated it really liked it
4.5 Stars

Two sisters, two very different life outcomes. Lexie is a doctor engaged to Sam who is also a doctor. Annie is a drug addict. Lexie is not surprised when she gets a call for help, from Annie, in the middle of the night. It’s not the first time it has happened. But now Annie is pregnant and that changes everything.
”There is no off switch to the love between sisters” - Lexie Vidler

Who isn’t intrigued by dysfunctional family stories! I could clearly see from the Facebook discussion for thi
Sisters Lexie and Annie were very close to one another growing up. After the death of their father the girl's suddenly had to fend for themselves as their mother was finding it hard enough just trying to take care of herself. Lexie quickly took care of running the household, arranging meals, trying to keep the house tidy and making sure the girl's got to school each day.

Their mother remarried, but the girls couldn't warm to their stepfather, Robert at all so much so that they in fact hated him.
Aug 26, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Lexie and Annie are sisters who shared a tough upbringing in a closed fundamentalist sect after their father died and their mother remarried an elder in the sect. Plucked out of a normal, happy childhood they were made to wear long modest skirts and headscarves they were not allowed outside of the community, forbidden any media or popular books and harshly beaten by their stepfather for any small misdeamour. Lexie bowed down to this regime, gritted her teeth and ran away when she turned 16 and w ...more
Amanda - Mrs B's Book Reviews
May 26, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: 2018-books, aww2018
Kelly Rimmer is an author who is unafraid to tackle a very topical and relevant issue in our current world climate, drug addiction. In her new novel, Before I Let You Go, Rimmer places a microscope on drug addiction, the way it is perceived by others, how it is treated in the health profession, what laws surround it and how family members choose to deal with it. It is an edgy and illuminating novel that uses the strong bond between two sisters to unfurl an e
Jennifer Kyle
Dec 13, 2018 rated it really liked it
Shelves: cry-baby-books
4.5 Stars

"She is not a junkie," I choke. "She is my sister."

Bring on the tears...this was a good read!
Apr 12, 2019 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
A good read indeed!!

I was hesitant to start this book, I kept putting it off but I kinda of regret it now. Because this was such a raw, emotional book, I loved it. A story of 2 sisters and their struggles, their bond, and the hardships they shared. Oh and can give Sam a round of applause? He was simply sublime.
Oct 03, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: library-2
This was SO well-written, emotional and heart-breaking. The story of two sisters, Anna, who struggles with addiction, and Lexi, who struggles with how to be emotionally honest with those around her. Anna calls in the night, pregnant and medically in trouble. The two sisters are drawn back together in yet another attempt to help Anna’s sobriety stick, this time with a third life in the mix. Told in dual perspectives and dual timelines with Lexi narrating in the present, and Anna telling the heart ...more
I love dysfunctional family relationships as the basis of novels, and sisters always make for interesting dynamics. But Lexie and Annie take this to another level altogether! On one side there is Lexie, who is a successful doctor and engaged to a handsome surgeon. Then there is Annie, a pregnant drug addict living in a run-down trailer and spending every cent she can find on her next fix. How can these two women be from the same background? And what brought them here? Rimmer’s novel Before I Let ...more
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Kelly Rimmer is the New York Times, Wall Street Journal and USA Today bestselling author of ten novels, including The Secret Daughter and The Things We Cannot Say. She’s sold more than one million books, and her novels have been translated into more than 20 languages. Kelly lives in the Central West of New South Wales with her family and fantastically naughty dogs, Sully and Basil.

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