This was the first Sing-lit book I've laid my eyes on and I'd recommend this to any local, tourist, or anyone who is keen to know more about Singapore's heritage. There's more to Keong Siak than meets the eye. In this beautifully written memoir, Charmaine has opened my eyes to a vibrant, resilient Singaporean generation that I wasn't familiar with previously. With the turn of every page, I was teleported to this time and space which gave me a cinematic reading experience akin to watching a vintage Chinese film. Nostalgia-laced sentences filled every page like precious memories contained in a time capsule for safekeeping, forever frozen in time.
17A is a personal story weaved into the social fabric that transformed into the larger Singapore society today. Just like how the author needed to make peace with the place and the people of the past, I too, need to reconcile with my version of Singapore after I came back from my study overseas in 2019. I wasn’t present then, but I am now.
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As a lady myself, this book has also challenged how I perceived gender roles and sexual performance. The stories of the Pei Pa Zai (female entertainers) and Dai Gu Liong (prostitutes) made me uncomfortable when I read them from the point of view of a lustful male. I was largely uncomfortable with the fact that some of the patrons in the story were married men with families, and thus, would be betraying and cheating on their wives in patronising the brothel—a fact not explicitly mentioned in the book. I begun to conjure up nameless, faceless characters that were no other than these men's wives, and tortured myself by imagining myself in their shoes. It was unbearable.
Hence prostitution is a vice for me. No doubt these women were strong women and many of them did not choose to enter the sex trade by choice. It was not their fault, but my upbringing and environment was still somewhat conservative, and I found the existence of a sex trade where sexual immorality was rampant repulsive. Women being objectified to satisfy men’s selfish, carnal urges, and never-truly-going-to-be-satisfied desires at the expense of their own soul. It doesn't help that the story also illustrated that women is the gender to be looked at, with men sexually harassing the author and Je Je at Keong Siak. Prostitutes being called derogatory terms, made to be enjoyed and used by men.
My explanation/thoughts could be better elaborated with this quote:
"Men act and women appear. Men look at women. Women watch themselves being looked at. This determines not only most relations between men and women but also the relation of women to themselves. The surveyor of woman in herself is male: the surveyed is female." —John Berger, Ways of Seeing
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This book also made me think about the importance of early childhood education in parents so that children can grow up in a safe space, ensuring their well-being. The concept of sex as taboo, the Asian concept of shame and ‘saving face’ are all factors that contributed to Charmaine’s struggles as she grapples with confusing questions in her childhood. For example, a ‘hush-hush’ attitude from her mother about her own family background led her to feel shameful and inferior to others. Many victims of sexual abuse in the story also stayed silent—all because of the same reason of ‘saving face’ in the Asian culture. The lack of proper communication between Charmaine and her mother also unfortunately led her to conclude that sex is something dirty and shameful, when the truth is that it is not.
Due to the neglect by her mother (or maybe her lack of proper education), Charmaine picked up harmful learned behaviours such as emotional blackmail when she was very young and internalised her feelings, which escalated to bitterness and resentment. This led me to think about how privileged we are as a generation to be educated on mental health, well-being and proper parenting.
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Overall, this year was the year I started reading sing lit and I must say the experience so far was an immersive one. Reading these books changed me. I feel a sense of belonging to Singapore now. I finally felt like I truly cared about Singapore and wanted to see her at her best, instead of just criticising her and dreaming of migrating elsewhere. This story, like many others, made me appreciate Singapore much more.