Okay. This is my very first review so please bear with me.
I gave Miss Jenny Han's trilogy THREE stars because I have been taken, torn, tortured, devastated, and ripped apart into tiny little pieces you probably couldn't put me back together again. Yes, those books have that much power over me despite the fact that it's almost shitty in a Twilight Saga way. Almost.
The first book was close to perfection. Miss Han tugged at my heart strings with the nostalgia of teenage years and firsts: first date, first boyfriend, first kiss, first love. I was so hooked that I cannot sleep without reading it all. I laughed, almost cried, then laughed with tears in my eyes. Forgive the fact that Belly has that selfish boys-above-all Bella Swan-like tendencies and Conrad is twisted with that hide-your-feelings-to-protect-her-but-toy-with-her-own (is there a word for that? Pray tell) because I understand their teenage characters. I myself was a teenager a year ago and I know how it feels like. We girls love bad boys. Conrad was a bad boy. He's dark, mysterious, he's older than Belly so she likes him. And he's protective, sometimes, caring in his own personal way, sometimes. Girls like Belly doesn't go for the bad boy because he's just hot. They go for the bad boy because they can't have him & they like chasing him around. They feed on the fantasy of having him but sooner or later, they get over it. Forgive her, she's just a child. Plus, they have something real they're going through. Belly's in a phase, Conrad has family & daddy issues. Not to mention sweet Susannah's cancer. Forgiven. Forgotten.
The second book, however, is so-so. I did not connect to it well enough that I had to skip Belly's whining on and on and on about Conrad treating her like shit. Well, she is shitty. What kind of childhood friend doesn't call up when the mother of her friends just died? Where's the support from her? She thinks Jere & Conrad might not want to hear from her but she's just thinking of herself. She claims to love Sussanah. She'd rather have Sussanah as her mother than Laurel. Yep. She's a shitty bitch.
Then comes Jeremiah to the rescue! Cue superhero music! All I can say is, poor, poor Jeremiah. He loves Belly, Belly loves Conrad, Conrad loves his brother that he gave Belly to Jeremiah which makes Jere a rebound. This is becoming a pathetic teenage drama.
The only thing that made it interesting is the daddy & mommy issues that developed throughout the book. I hated Belly for the way she treats & thinks about her Mom. So your mom doesn't cry, your mom has the emotional capacity of a rock, so sue her for trying to be strong and tough. I understand that you're a teenager. You are going through rapid changes and the love of your life is screwing it up but shut your pie hole because you mother is dealing with more serious shit compared to what you consider important. She's your mother. She raised you in the best way she knows, she's dealing with you the best ways she can. Personally, I'd rather see my mom being tough than see her blubbering in tears all the time. Suck it up and respect her.
Now the last book. *sigh* Let me just take a moment to remember why I gave the trilogy three stars instead of five (when I loved the first) or four (when I liked the second) Oh, there's the memory, yes, yes, it's all about that white ocassion where everyone is happy and two hearts are to be united as one: the WEDDING.
When I started reading, I was like, "Awwww, Jeremiah's so cute! I love it. Maybe the nice guy has a chance after all. Yay for the nice guys!" And then came the cheating part. Oops. Nice slip there, Miss Han, very sneaky. And then all of a sudden they're engaged. Engaged. Breath, Ness, it's okay. Jeremiah just proposed to Belly to make up to his faults as a man and Belly accepted it though she still thinks about Conrad. Just when I thought they just got engaged and they're to get married later, like, when they graduate, I'm reading that the wedding is on that very summer (Belly's eighteen, Jere's nineteen, mind) and I thought, "THIS IS GETTING RIDICULOUS!"
First of all, you don't get married at eighteen. That's way too young. Like Barney Stinson said, "DON'T THINK ABOUT GETTING MARRIED UNTIL YOU'RE THIRTY" and there's a reason for that. Reading Belly & Taylor talk about the wedding, I could only roll my eyes, shake my head in pity. These people have no idea what they're talking about. They haven't experienced life and they don't listen to their parents which is practically jumping off the cliff into an oblivion of suffering. Fortunately,
Miss Han didn't let that happen. Instead, she put the suffering at present time with Belly's confused feelings for Conrad and Conrad suffering himself.
The good thing in this book is that we see Conrad's point of view, we understand why he did what he did, and most of all, the development of his character which I suppose is the only character that developed throughout the trilogy. I have rooted for Jere back in the second book because he's the nice guy, the sweet one, the one who really wants Belly for all the right reasons. Then I'm back to Conrad on the third book seeing that he's turned into a mature, responsible human being. I'd want to marry that man.
The bad thing is the conflict itself. I've always begged for an answer to the question: WHY DO YOU EVEN CONTINUE ON PLANNING AND MAKING THE WEDDING IF YOU'RE NOT GOING THROUGH IT ON THE BIG DAY? It's such a waste of money and time! It's ridiculous and moronic! If you have doubts and fears and all those feelings of wanting another person, then stop right there, don't think about the wedding anymore. Just give the money to some charity or go travel to make some peace of mind.
Yes, I get it that a story should have conflict, it should have the element of confusion & discord only this is such a mainstream drama heightened by hormones & emotional problems.
Don't even get me started on the part where the boys fight over Belly because I have an issue about choosing lovelife/social life over family. It's just something anyone shouldn't do. Whatever the situation is, whoever that person is, be it your girlfriend or your bestfriend, you DON'T choose them over your family. Your family is always there for you, they're the people who raised you, who put up with your shit. Don't throw them away because of someone who might break your heart in the end. The fight scene between Jere & Conrad only goes to show that Jere's character is more flawed than Conrad's and Miss Han is pointing out that Conrad is more worthy than his little bro. I get it.
In the end, I didn't cry. I didn't tear up. I felt anger. A little bit of happiness but mostly anger, disappointment. In the last chapter, I'm like, "What just happened?" I thought I read a cheesy Filipino pocketbook where the protagonists get to go through a lot of crap & still has get to live happily ever after. If the ending was written simply without them getting married and all that corny beach stuff (I seriously wanted to puke on those last paragraphs) I would have put down the book a happy girl. Because that's how I like my endings. Simple. Happy. With a something like "a smile coming from the man I love after not seeing him for years & I just knew, he still held my heart & I still have his". How hard can that be? But that's just me.
See how torn I am? In between understanding the perks of being a teenager to understanding the needed elements of a good book and my emotions towards how the story was written to the flaws of the characters, I am blissfully, madly torn. All in all, this is a good book only with too much drama I felt like I'm watching a Filipino movie and I'm not a big fan of those movies. I loathe them though I'm a Filipino myself. I immensely enjoyed this especially the first one. If I were to read this again, I'd probably read the first book only to feel fourteen again and reminisce about Firsts. But like I said, that's just me.
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