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310 pages, Kindle Edition
First published March 28, 2016

"I want her forever. I don’t want her for a moment, or for a short time, or for an experience. I want her always. I want her early morning and her late night. I want her midday and I want her bedtime. I just want her.”
Jake:
Katie Higgins was the first girl I ever loved. We spent one summer together at Lake Fisher when we were sixteen and then I never saw her again. My life is shit, my job is gone, and my dad had a stroke, so I find myself back at Lake Fisher once again. And so does Katie. Her last name isn't Higgins anymore, because Katie is married with three kids and one more on the way, but when she shows up at Lake Fisher with her kids, danger trails her all the way there. I could do a lot of things. I could leave and go home. I could stay and deal with it. But what I want most of all is just to take care of Katie. If I concentrate on her, maybe I won't have to face my own problems. Yeah, that's it. Fix Katie.
Katie:
I haven't seen Jake in eighteen years, but the moment I lay eyes on him, I feel safer than I have in a very long time. Memories swamp me every time I look out over the clear, cool water. A first kiss. A first boyfriend. A first love. That old spark is still there. I just can't act on it, and neither can Jake. Our story started eighteen years ago, and then we both made lives with other people. Jake is willing to tell me about his, but I can't share mine with him. Ever. We can be friends and spend another summer together, right? Sure, we can.
“Why don’t you take Katie up to our house and get her something dry to wear?” Pop said… “But you stay out of her room while she’s changing. I’m not ready to be a grandpa.”
Katie laughed out loud.
But then Pop pointed at her. “If you get my boy pregnant, I’ll string you up by your toenails.”
Sh giggled again. She held a hand to me, and I slipped mine inside hers.
And that was the first time I ever held hands with Katie Higgins.
"I didn't want kids. But then I met yours..." His voice trails off.
"And what did you think?" I hold my breath.
"They were a part of you, so I had no choice but to love them at first sight."
When her lips touch mine, I know this is where I’m supposed to be.
“Are you jumping in with me because you’re afraid I’ll drown, Jake?” Her voice shakes.
I look her in the eyes. “Nope. Just because I want to be with you.”
“To me, you feel like summertime. You feel like warm weather and sunny skies. You feel like the occasional storm, but they always pass, and they keep things interesting.”
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“Well, if I had a rack like that and nobody talked about them, I’d be sad. Just trying to keep up the morale here, Katie. Doing my job as a citizen of this great country.”
“If you start singing the ‘Star Spangled Banner’ at my boobs, I’ll deck you.”~ Jake and Katie
“I didn’t want kids. But then I met yours…” His voice trails off. “And what did you think?” I hold my breath. “They were a part of you, so I had no choice but to love them at first sight.”
“That day when you fell in the lake, the first day we ever met… You didn’t pull me in with you… I jumped.”~ Katie to Jake
“Katie Stone,” I say, remembering to use her married last name, “do you remember when you jumped into the lake with me that first night we met?”
She smiles. “Vividly.”
“Well, this is me jumping in with you.” ~ Jake to Katie![]()
“I took it upon myself to get you a date… You can thank me later” ~ Jake’s dad to Jake
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“Pop is going to make a hell of a grandpa some day. What he lacks in patience, he makes up for in assholery, which can be endearing at times.”![]()
“I look over to the steps, where I see my dog lying with his head on Trixie’s lap. She has his paw in her hand and she’s painting his toenails a soft pink color. “I could have sworn that dog had a penis,” I say out loud.
Trixie looks down between the dog’s legs. “He does have a penis,” she says quietly.”
“If you shake it more than three times, you’re playing with it!” Pop yells at me from the living room.”
When her lips touch mine, I know this is where I’m supposed to be.
“Are you jumping in with me because you’re afraid I’ll drown, Jake?” Her voice shakes.
I look her in the eyes. “Nope. Just because I want to be with you.”
“I didn't want kids. But then I met yours...” His voice trails off.
“And what did you think?” I hold my breath.
“They were a part of you, so I had no choice but to love them at first sight.”
“I fell in love with you, Katie, when I was sixteen years old. I wasn’t ready then, though, because we both had a lot to learn. We had to grow and change so we could be ready for one another when the time came, and I have to tell you, Katie, I am so ready for you.”

