(Last Chapter)
Then, as I watched Shell go into the station, a wave of sadness hit me. I was alone now, and in a panic. I was actually beginning to shake with fear. I was afraid of staying here, I was afraid of going back to Lhasa. As tears brimmed in my eyes, I held them back, telling myself fiercely: ‘Don’t you dare cry, Champa, you’ve failed but you’re not going to cry, whatever happens you’re not going to cry.’
Still shaking, I got the bag out of the suitcase and unwrapped Shell’s Tara statuette. I stared hard at it and the shaking gradually stopped. I focused my breathing. With every breath I was alive. I breathed, I lived, I breathed, I lived. I began to calm down. The Tara was serene, so serene.
I took a deep breath. I looked at the Tara again. I pulled myself together.
I realized how good the air felt after the rainstorm.
I had to admit the world really hadn’t treated me badly.
Like, I’d got to know Shell, hadn’t I?
Like, I’d met Nyima, that was something else good, I’d got to know Nyima.
And A-Li. I’d learnt a lot from him.
And then there were the animal protection volunteers. Yep, they loved dogs because they understood them. They were wrong about me because they didn’t understand me. If they’d only understood me, they would have come to love me. Absolutely no doubt.
I screwed up my eyes, lifted the little bag up and reverentially pressed the Tara statuette on to the crown of my head.
I had a new dream now. I was fed up with having dreams but this one came into my head anyway.
One day, at some point far in the future, I might go on the road again. All over the land, I’d explore every corner . . . I’d meet Han Chinese, Tibetans, Uyghurs, all the peoples of China, and I’d really have a good time. I’d chill out, I’d get to make friends with all of them, and I’d keep learning. That was the life I liked. And maybe one day I’d even get my own passport and I’d travel the world, chilling out, learning new things and making new friends. That’s right, just so long as the universe endured and life persisted, that would be my dream.