"In deep sadness there is no place for sentimentality. It is as final as the mountains: a fact, there it is. When you realize it, you cannot complain" (Burroughs 84).
William S. Burroughs' "Queer" was a heartrending reading experience. It is for those who love stories of heartbreak, of desire, of the need to connect. Surreal and poetic, lush and blunt- it is a novel for those who are brave enough to face heartache over and over again.
It's the love story between protagonist William Lee and Eugene Allerton. Lee is a bundle of neuroses. A man looking for love, looking for intellectual and spiritual connections. But a man whose addiction to heroin caused him to leave America during the 1950s, and become exiled in Mexico City. There he meets the enigmatic and aloof Allerton, who seems to be detached in his feelings, and of his sexuality.
Both Lee and Allerton seem to embody the feeling of self loathing in their homosexuality, although Lee is the one who declares his self-hatred much more openly, "I shall never forget the unspeakable horror that froze the lymph in glands--when the baneful word seared my reeling brain, homosexual. I thought of the painted, simpering female impersonators I had seen in a Baltimore night club" (35). The desire to hide oneself under the guise of stereotypical, male masculinity is understandable- of course, who wouldn't want to fit in? Who would want to be rejected?
This sentence still rings true today, in which there are still LGBTQ members who fight society's desire to conform to heteronormativity, yet, would simply want to find love.
Lee and Allerton end up going down to the rain forests of Puyo, Ecuador to experience the yage- a plant that allows telepathy between two people who experience it's scent, and of its power. Lee especially wants this, he wants to connect with the man he's been in love with for some time, and without the fear of rejection.
He wants to know what Allerton's feeling, thinking, and loving any given moment. They meet Dr. and Mrs. Cotter who introduce them to the plant in the jungle, "Lee felt a physical pain, as though a part of himself tentatively stretched out toward the other had been severed" (50).
Burroughs writes a haunting tale of desire and love that cuts like glass, "Lee could feel his body pull towards Allerton...straining with a blind worm hunger to enter the other's body, to breathe with his lungs, see with his eyes, learn the feel of his viscera and genitals" (33).
He writes about loneliness and the hunger of desire with a rawness that is exquisite and vulnerable, a narrative with its heart on its sleeve that any risk becomes secondary- the need to connect is too powerful, something that must be sought out, with a disregard for any rules or limits.
This book rivals my reading experiences of Andre Aciman's "Call Me By Your Name", "The Heart is a Lonely Hunter" by Carson McCullers, and "Giovanni's Room" by James Baldwin as gay sensory reading experiences that burns and aches with emotion while being read.
It's no coincidence that filmmaker Luca Guadagnino who directed the immortal film adaptation of Aciman's "Call Me By Your Name" directed Burroughs' novel in 2024 starring Daniel Craig as Lee and Drew Starkey as Allerton. He is a master of capturing the erotic desire that gay men often feel in spaces that are forbidden. I read this book because I saw the film adaptation first.
While the film had a lot of moments that borders into self indulgence, Daniel Craig gives a powerful, imperious and heartbreakingly human performance as Lee. His gestures of sadness flickering with both mischief and desire capture the Lee Burroughs has written. Drew Starkey compliments his performance as the aloof, yet tenderhearted Allerton, who seems to love Lee a lot more than he realizes.
With lush, gorgeous production designs that capture both the beautiful and the sleazy- it's a surreal film that captures the essence of the novel, yet, its very own uneven thing.