Now You See Her

by Jacquelyn Mitchard

Hope has it all: brains, beauty, and acceptance at Starwood, a prestigious arts prep school. A mere sophomore, she has won the lead in Romeo and Juliet, beating out seniors for the role—seniors who have been in movies and on Broadway! And with handsome Logan as her Romeo onstage and off, her life couldn't be more perfect.

So why would this talented teen throw everything away? Why would she fake her own abduction? Hope wants to explain what really happened, and gradually the truth comes out: Maybe her life wasn't that perfect after all.

In her first novel for young adults, national bestselling author Jacquelyn Mitchard takes us into a world where appearance is everything, and nothing is exactly as it seems.

Genres: Young Adult, Fiction, Mental Illness, Mystery, Teen, Drama, Realistic Fiction

208 pages, Hardcover

First published February 27, 2007

About the author

Jacquelyn Mitchard’s first novel, The Deep End of the Ocean, was named by USA Today as one of the ten most influential books of the past 25 years – second only to the Harry Potter series by J.K. Rowling (but second by a long shot, it must be said.)

The Deep End of the Ocean was chosen as the first novel in the book club made famous by the TV host Oprah Winfrey, and transformed into a feature film produced by and starring Michelle Pfeiffer.

Most of Mitchard’s novels have been greater or lesser bestsellers – and include The Most Wanted, A Theory of Relativity, Twelve Times Blessed, The Breakdown Lane, The Good Son, and Cage of Stars. Critics have praised them for their authentic humanity and command of story. Readers identify because they see reflected, in her characters – however extreme their circumstances – emotions they already understand.

Mitchard also has written four novels for young adults.

The first, Now You See Her, from HarperTeen, is the story of a pampered, driven young actress who fakes her own abduction.

All We Know of Heaven told the story of lifetime best friends Bridget and Maureen, who are just sixteen when a fatal crash on an icy road and a poignant case of mistaken identity divide their small Minnesota town forever.

The Midnight Twins was the first in a trilogy of teen mysteries about identical twin sisters born on New Year’s Eve – one a minute before and a minute after midnight – Meredith and Mallory Brynn learn on the night they turn thirteen that their psychic abilities will force them to intervene in dire events, although one twin can see only the future and one can see only the past. The Midnight Twins is in development as a TV series by Kaleidoscope Entertainment.

Mitchard's newest novel for adult, A Very Inconvenient Scandal, out in November 2023 from Mira/HarperCollins, is the story of an acclaimed young underwater photographer whose famed marine biologist father shatters their family by marrying her best friend., a woman 35 years his junior.

At the local coffee shop, Mitchard is best-known as the mother of Rob, Dan, Marty, Francie, Mia, Will and Atticus , as the grandma of Hank and Diana and the wife of handsome Chris Brent.

Her favorite color is periwinkle blue; her favorite holiday is Halloween; her favorite flower is freesia; her favorite word is "smite," and her second favorite is "Massachusetts"; her lucky number is 119 (anyone who can guess where that comes from wins free first editions of her novels for life). She lives in her favorite place on earth, Cape Cod, summering in a villa on the Amalfi Coast. (Guess which part of that sentence is fiction.)

Her essays have appeared in publications including the New York Times, Chicago Tribune Magazine and Reader's Digest, and are widely anthologized and used in school curricula. She has taught in MFA programs in Vermont, Ohio, and Massachusetts, and is part of the faculty at the Summer Writers Institute at Yale University. She is a member of the Tall Poppies Writers and has been a fellow at the MacDowell Colony, Yaddo, and the Ragdale Foundation.

Her pet peeves are known authors and editors who cannot and will not learn the difference between “lie” and “lay” and family signs pluralized with apostrophes.

She would love to appear on just ONE episode of any incarnation of ‘Law and Order,’ as has everyone else in America. She still is willing to play the role of a murder victim – except one found by earth-moving equipment in a landfill – though she would do that in a pinch.

Mitchard would like to have a swimming pool, because, although she lives near the ocean, she is afraid of the dark water and hates sand. She would love to have a clawfoot tub, or any tub.

She believes that stories are the ways that human beings make sense of life and that our stories will save us.

Reviews

[PinkAmy loves books, cats and naps · Rating 2 out of 5]

1.5 STARS

Bernadette, whose stage name is Hope, stages her own kidnapping and winds up kicked out of her performance arts boarding school. Now she’s in a new school and forced to keep a journal to reconstruct what went so terribly wrong.

Hope’s voice indicated the unreliability of her narration fairly. Causing me to knew realize from the get go she was in a psych hospital, not a school. Maybe because I’m a psychologist, or maybe Jacquelyn Mitchard left too many clues, but I definitely knew mental illness had to be a factor. Hope’s attitude, thought processes and her treatment of others made her immediately unlikable, yet she had a spark of sad neediness that prevented me from hating her.

The wrap up for the story and mental health component let me down the most due to inauthenticity, occupational hazard. Mitchard mischaracterized Borderline Personality as crossing a line between sanity and insanity. Hope/Bernadette should have been diagnosed with a delusional disorder (not schizophrenia, her thinking was too organized). Hope/Bernadette also had the luxury of over a year in the treatment program, which can run a thousand dollars a day or more. I doubt her lawyer father and stay at home mom could afford that level of care in the USA, which is unfortunate because it’s sometimes needed and can be life saving.

I can’t think of a reason to recommend NOW YOU SEE HER.

[Dani · Rating 5 out of 5]

original review: dang i totally did not see that coming

updated: (i liked this book so i think it deserved a better review) OK SO I KNOW THIIS NOVEL LOOKS LIKE ITS GONNA BE SOME TRASHY CHICK FLICK ABT SOME GIRL (WITH A NAME LIKE HOPE) WHO'S POPULAR OR WHATEVER BUT ITS ACTUALLY PRETTY NICE AND I DID NOT EXPECT THE THING THAT HAPPENED TO BE ONE OF THE THEMES OF THE BOOK?
It seems like a lot of people are giving this bad reviews but I guess you should just give it a try?

Idk I can't really talk about it without revealing the story so I just want to say that I recommend this b ook!

[Karin · Rating 4 out of 5]

NOW YOU SEE HER by Jacquelyn Mitchard is a frightening look inside the head of a very confused girl. The book is, essentially, the journal of Hope - a girl in trouble.

The event that led to her downfall unfolds throughout the course of the story. It involves a boy, “The Plan”, “The Idea”, and Romeo and Juliet.

Jacquelyn Mitchard, author of MIDNIGHT TWINS, has written another thought-provoking book. She has created a character that is a little hard to like while at the same time weaving a story the reader doesn’t want to put down. Hope’s stream of consciousness style gives authenticity to this story that really makes it feel like a young girl’s journal.

If you like books that make you question what is really going on and not being able to predict exactly how it is going to end, you need to read NOW YOU SEE HER.

[noody samy · Rating 3 out of 5]

Ok when I was reading the novel I couldn’t stop thinking how cheesy it is!!!!! Like what is wrong with this girl, is she really stupid or something!!!!!!!!
But then I was reading the last chapter and I shocked 😮 like really really chocked with every word I read

[Alicia · Rating 3 out of 5]

This book had me hooked from the start of Bernadette/Hope's ill-fated rise to stardom. Plot twists and turns kept me turning pages.

Then the last chapter was awkward and felt tacked on and un-edited. Lame.

[Maya · Rating 2 out of 5]

Irritating character, too many exclamation points...an interesting story idea, but it just didn't work for me.

[Vicki · Rating 3 out of 5]

This book is about a girl with a talent for acting. For as long as she remembered she was acting. she had all the attention. she fakes her own abduction. she gets moved to a "private boarding school," i thought this book was really scary towards the end. i believed that she had actually done all those things. when in fact it was just her thinking.
this book has a lot to do with life. sometimes when you get too much attention you start to think of yourself as the most important person in the world. and the fantasies she has arent really that much different from everyday fantasies. it's just a lot more extreme.
i think the main character really isnt that bad of a person. i think the fact that she was acting at such a young age made her like that. i think the other thing was she knew that her parents cared about her. i mean A LOT about her. another reason is because she just blocked everything esle out. she blocked out anything she didnt want to hear.

[Annie · Rating 2 out of 5]

Unraveling the story from Hope/Bernadette's perspective was interesting, but that was about all I enjoyed about this one. Maybe it's because I don't really like drama queens unless they have redeeming characteristics. Learning about Hope's mental illness did help with understanding why she was so unbalanced in the way she approached the world, but that clarification did not happen soon enough to help me understand her behavior. Having pity for a character doesn't lead to liking them and that was about the strongest emotion that I got from reading this book.

[Melissa (Always Behind) · Rating 3 out of 5]

Decent YA novel with an interesting twist. Another great offering from Mitchard.

[Norah Dmytrasz · Rating 3 out of 5]

actual rating is 3.5
the book was interesting and definitely had a good plot especially towards the end, however the beginning was really rough...and I hated the main character which made it hard to want to pick up again. She gets better at the end though and you'd definitely understand why she was the way she was. Overall a good book, long chapters as well...and I honestly saw a couple grammar mistakes but that's probably just a me thing! if someone asked me if I would recommend I would say yeah! if someone wanted to read it I don't see a reason to not recommend it to them!!

[Jennifer Wardrip · Rating 4 out of 5]

Reviewed by Amber Gibson for TeensReadToo.com

NOW YOU SEE HER is an amazingly realistic look into the life of a self-centered girl who has been showered with attention from her parents all of her life. Bernadette, or Hope, her stage name, dreams of being a famous actress--and she is willing to do anything to get to the top. Her mother has always pushed her so hard, and now her mother's dreams for Hope are her own. Hope knows she's the best and explains that her lack of friends is simply because everyone is jealous of her talent. At fourteen, she is accepted into Starwood Academy, a prestigious acting school in Michigan. Hope is sure that this is where her career will take off, and she doesn't mind in the least that she is a bit of an outcast. After all, she has Logan. Logan Rose. The most amazing boy she has ever met. Hope finds herself lost in her infatuation with Logan. Everything in her life revolves around their budding romance.

The two of them formulate a plan, a plan to elope when Logan graduates. Their plan requires one thing, money, which they plan to extract from Hope's parents by faking her abduction. Faking a kidnapping is risky business, but Hope is willing to do anything for Logan, anything for their future together. Hope dreams of the day when the two of them will be winning Academy Awards together, the perfect couple.

Hope's story is told through her own eyes, and I felt every emotion with her. I felt the pride in her triumphs as well as the pain of feeling lost and confused, like you are the only one who knows the truth. But it is only at the end, when the real truth is finally revealed, that you realize that Hope Shay is not all that she appears to be.

[Becca · Rating 5 out of 5]

I absoluely love this book. Unlike most teen books, this was totally unpredictable. I could not see this ending coming at all. From the beginning, I knew that Hope was in a mental hosptial. But I had no clue that she imagined her romance with Logan, or the Plan and the Idea, or her lead in "Romeo and Juliet," or her correspondance with Em, or Miss Taylor. This story was so elaborate and detailed that it seemed like there was no possible way that she was making all this up. This was one of the most unique books I've read in a long time.

[Jasmine Salinas · Rating 2 out of 5]

I feel like the story was confusing at times and kind of dragged on. When the author finally let you know why everything was happening it wasn't until the very end and then everything made sense but I just felt like that took too long. The main character got annoying half way through the book and i just wanted to tell her she was dumb. lol also the consistent use of the word like (i assumed was used to seem teenager-ish???) was very annoying. It made me swear to not use it as often as i do hahah I wouldn't recommend reading this

[Michelle · Rating 1 out of 5]

I actually abandoned this book, but wanted to add it to the list to warn fellow friends and myself that it is not worth it. It is very obvious that the author is trying really hard to sound like a teenager and really that just makes the book feel all the more contrived and patronizing. At the third misuse of like I was ready to throw the book across the room. I guess I will never know the surprise ending that it was building up to. The author should stick with books for adults.

[Ava · Rating 1 out of 5]

Now You See Her by Jacquelyn Mitchard was one of the few books that I personally did not enjoy reading. The chaotic plot was not only slow to start, but once started was rushed and complicated to follow. The main character of this story was 15 year old Bernadette, however when she started to become a serious child actress she went by the name “Hope Shay”, Hope was a determined girl but was simply driven by the pride she hoped to bring her parents who were responsible for her early childhood career. However, being in the spotlight soon became more of an inconvenience than a privilege, seeing as Hope’s mother was living this dream for her telling her to stay skinny for her part, take every opportunity thrown at her, and attend Starwood Academy. Starwood was a school where teens interested in the arts attended to continue schooling, this is where Hope, a sophomore, met Logan, a senior at Starwood and her so thought lover, as they both scored the roles of Romeo and Juliet in the school’s production. Although Logan made it clear in the beginning that he wanted to get away with her, he soon fell short of his promise and fell for another girl. Previous to that Logan had made a plan and convinced Hope to fake an abduction in which Logan would come to Hope’s rescue and save her in order to receive publicity, and money from Hope’s parents as her release money. Yet, after 4 nights in the woods tied up in order to act the part of being kidnapped, Logan never showed. Instead, Hope made herself visible enough to be found and soon faced the charges for a fake abduction as well as questioning from the police where the truth came out. She in fact suffered mentally which caused her to believe that Logan was in love with her when in reality he thought of her as a friend and nothing more, she had imagined all the moments she thought they shared, as well as their plan to run away together which only explained why he never came. In the end she spends time in a mental hospital and regains a better mentality. She decides Hope Shay was a girl she once knew but Bernadette is her true self she decides she will start over with.
To start, even summarizing this book is quite complicated due to the chaotic nature of the plot. I think the story had serious potential but I wasn’t quite fond of the turn it took when Hope’s mental health was obviously impacting her in ways where she would “ put ice on my arm until it was so numb it felt like a doll arm, and then I dug a little wiggly trench along the top of my forearm almost to the elbow, and I let it bleed all over the sheets and the pillowcase.” (Mitchard, 160) The themes prevalent in the book were definitely the impacts of mental health, living up to expectations, and one sided love. Hope experiences the trauma mental health can cause by creating scenarios and influencing her decisions irrationally and negatively, she also fights the battle of attempting to live up to her parent’s expectations, as well as try to love and make it work with a man who simply does not love her back. I think trying to include all of these themes, topics, and events made the book hard to follow and made reading it feel rushed. Although in contrast to that the beginning of the book had a slow start seeing as Hope was still explaining the pressure her parents put her under for almost the first quarter of the book. “ And she always made me sing in front of her company. My dad called her Mama Rose, which was the name of the pushy stage mother in an old musical my mother loved.” (Mitchard, 57) Therefore, the book was hard to get hooked on and when the plot felt as though an idea was spiraling it was hard to stick with the idea that it would somehow tie itself together in the end. In conclusion Now You See Her by Jacquelyn Mitchard is a work that I personally would not recommend and would most likely not read again.

[Julia · Rating 3 out of 5]

What I didn’t Like: Hope was not a likable character, I guess that was a bit of the point of the novel, but she was very selfish and she could not see her own selfishness which could get frustrating.

What I liked: For me this book invoked a lot of sympathy. *spoiler* at the end you realize Hope faked her abduction due to her borderline personality disorder which eventually caused her to spiral. I felt Hope’s pain as very real and I understood her thought process so at the end it was hard for me to dismiss it all as crazy because I thought it was all very real. It helped me understand how real mental illness can be. *end of spoiler*. I also thought the author nailed expressing her feelings like a teenage girl. Hope felt very real to me. Additionally, the way the plot unfolded was super entertaining to me.

[Karly Barnett · Rating 2 out of 5]

Three girls from a small school went to their principal and told her something that would change their and a lot of people in the community's lives. They told her that the music teacher, Mr. Mattero, had inappropriately touched them in the band room when they had offered to organize the costumes from the play. The girls' parents were notified immediately and they got picked up from school. Mr. Mattero was called to the office and the police were called. The investigation begins and the girls stick to their story. After the girls see what they have done and who they have hurt, they confessed. The girls had made up the whole thing just to get transferred out of his class.

[Alison Hertz · Rating 4 out of 5]

When I started reading this, I wondered what I was "supposed" to feel for the mc because I really didn't like her. I met the author, Jackie Mitchard, at the Southern Breeze writer's conference in GA after I had only read the first 30 pages or so and she told me that I was getting much more information than I realized I was getting in those first pages. This made me read the rest of the story in analysis mode, like a detective, and that added a new depth to reading the story. Did she abduct herself or didn't she? Try to figure it out before the reveal. Thank you, Ms Mitchard.

[Connie T.]

This has been on my shelf for a long time so I decided I should finally read it. I only made it to page 40 and decided to give up, something I rarely do. This is written in the first person sort of as a journal. The narrator is whiney and the writing rambles. I just couldn't get into it. No stars because I didn't read enough of it to give it a fair rating.

[Lexi · Rating 3 out of 5]

It’s not often that I read a book where the main character is so unlikable, but also pitiful. I was a bit surprised (and disappointed) by the ending as I felt it was a tad flat. I expected Hope to be “playing” the psych system as well. Regardless, I found this to be an easy read that was enjoyable enough.

[Cass · Rating 4 out of 5]

I didn’t think much was happening in this book until the end of it. The end left me shocked. But, I’m also super gullible and never see anything coming ever. So, yeah.

[Celeste Paglialunga · Rating 3 out of 5]

Very slow to get into. The ending is definitely not what I was expecting, but it was a good book to expand my horizons.

[RoxAnne · Rating 2 out of 5]

Writing is ok, but definitely not my kind of book! Should have known when reviews mentioned teens. Did not finish this, too much vapid teen angst and self-centeredness (is that a word?).

[Jessica · Rating 2 out of 5]

It was hard to root for the narrator.

[Janelle Hammonds · Rating 2 out of 5]

The writing while I consider it to be accurate for the type of character was annoying to read, the only redeeming factor that made me glad I made it through the entire story was the plot twist, even though there were hints throughout the story that something wasn’t quite right.

[Carly O'Neill · Rating 3 out of 5]

Now you see her is about a teenage girl Bernadette Romano (also know by her actress name Hope Shay) who's a upcoming actress. She was raised for the stage-- she and her parents did absolutely everything for her to become a star. She was sent off to Starwood academy to further her acting training and career. At Starwood, Hope was cast the role of Juliet in their performance of Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet. Logan Rose, a "perfect" movie star was cast as Romeo. Hope and Logan fall in love almost as quickly as Romeo and Juliet do. They are madly in love but they have to sneak around so no one will know they are together. TheY come up with "The idea" where they're going to live together in an apartment in NYC and live a perfect happy life as actors. But hope knows her mother will never let her be with an "older man" such as Logan. So Logan comes up with "The plan." In The plan, hope will pretend to be kidnapped and then Logan will pretend to find her and he will be her hero. They hope that once Logan is hopes hero, hopes parents will let them be together. So hope does what she is told, she tapes up her hands, puts a gag in her mouth, and hides in the woods where Logan told her he would find her. But Logan doesn't come. For four days Hope is in the woods struggling to stay alive until eventually a lady taking her dog for a walk finds her. When she gets questioned by the detectives, she tells the police everything. Everything about Logan and The idea and The plan. But then they question Logan about it, he denies everything and tells them Hope was obsessed with him, following him around everywhere like a puppy. In the end of the book Hope is in a mental hospital convinced that she just imagined everything about Logan.
When I read Now you see her I hated it at first. I thought it was the stupidest most boring book ever. But then as I got more into it, it got more exciting and I couldn't put it down. Then at the end I was really disappointed. I think the ending should have summed up the book more. I'm still confused if everything between Hope and Logan actually happened or not. I think the beginning and end of a book should be the strongest parts but in Now you see her the beginning and end were the weakest parts.

[Steph | bookedinsaigon · Rating 4 out of 5]

Hope Shay—real name Bernadette Romano—is a talented fifteen-year-old actor whose desire to perform is ambiguously mixed up with her mother’s hardcore stage mother actions. We meet Hope when she’s at a strict prep-like school called Miss Taylor’s for supposedly faking her own kidnapping. Hope has got it good: the lead role in her prestigious arts school’s production of Romeo and Juliet, a blossoming acting career, the right clothes. So why would someone like her do what she did?

In her journal, Hope writes about always being prettier/skinnier/more talented than everyone else, and thus being the object of everyone’s envy. At Starwood, she has no friends except for her “boyfriend” Logan Rose, the good-looking senior with a score of commercials and TV roles—even a part in a movie!—to his name. Hope believes that they are madly in love, and Logan even talks of them running off to New York or LA together.

Then Logan hatches The Idea, which involves them faking Hope’s kidnapping, demanding a $20,000 ransom from her parents, and Logan dramatically rescuing her, thereby putting him in such good graces with her parents that they will allow the two teenagers to go wherever they’d like, school be damned. Strangely, however, as opening night and the initiation of The Idea nears, Logan seems to draw away from Hope, hanging out with another girl instead. Borderline desperate, Hope is convinced that the only way she can prove her love for him is to carry out with the faked abduction.

However, things do not go as planned, as Hope goes from being famous for her acting ability to being famous for being the harbinger of the hoaxed abduction…and learns a few startling things about herself and her life as a result.

NOW YOU SEE HER is sort of strange, but strangely satisfying. Hope comes off as a slightly whiny, narcissistic teenager, but through her journal entries and her revelations we come to empathize with her. This book is a telling of an adventure such as only a drama queen can tell it…and it is really good.

[Carolina Silveri · Rating 4 out of 5]

When I first started this novel I didn't have very high expectations, but after reading the first chapter I decided it was worth finishing. There was a lot of suspense built up in the first couple chapters. Hope, the main character is in a treatment center and you want to know why she ended up there. This book was a fast and easy read for me. I read it in two days, and over all I think it was a fast moving, attention holding book. Hope wasn't the most like able character. I think the author purposely made her that way, and it worked and made the book good. Hope is very self centered, lacking in compassion, and has grown up believing everything and everyone revolve around her and her talent, which is acting. All her life she has been the center of attention the best at acting. Acting is really all she has and all the sudden, she is no longer the best. While reading I could understand Hope and why she was acting the way she was acting. I think this book was written so the reader would feel sorry for Hope. This book was a little bit dark. Bernadette was in a treatment center with other girls who were addicted to self harming and had and still were, trying to commit suicide. Bernadette had never done any of these things but is was hinted that if she was Hope never really changed until the ending of the book. The ending was one thing I did not like about this book. It was very sudden and unexpected but not in a good way. It didn't flow with the rest of the book. The story built up for what I though was going to be a very good emotional ending. In a way this book made me reflect on myself. I wouldn't say I'm very self centered but it almost like a reminder that the world doesn't revolve a round you and it's okay to not be the best at everything.

[Eleanor]

I hated this book. It was a girl named Bernadette Romano who is a very talented young actress. As she gets more and more famous, her mom changes her name to Hope Shay. Hope gets excepted to Starwood, a private school for those who are exceptionally good at acting. When the school play is announced, Romeo and Juliet, Hope auditions for the part of Juliet and gets it which means she beat out a lot of really talented seniors. As Logan, who plays Romeo, works more and more with Hope, he starts to become her offscreen Romeo. The Logan begins to drift away and Hope devises a plan to get him back.
Hope kidnaps herself. She walks out into the woods and sits by a river, duct tapes her wrists together and waits until someone finds her. Eventually a man comes across her. When the police talks to Hope she describes the man who kidnapped her, but after many hours of investigation the police figure that Hope herself did it. Hope gets sent to a school with girls that need help. It turns out that Hope has a border line personality which means that she is on the edge of being sane or insane. So mant things that she thought were true, really weren't, such as the lead role as Juliet and Logan being in love with her.
The reason I hated this book was because it had a terrible plot and I don't think that it made much sense. I read it in about 4 hours and wasn't really satified with the ending. : )Awful book, sorry!

[Kate Kerby · Rating 3 out of 5]

This book is about a girl named Bernadette Romano, aka Hope Shay. She has grown up in the acting world ever. Ever since she was little, she has been doing plays and small commercials. She pretty much thinks that she is the best actress there is. She thinks that she’s so good that she can fake her own kidnapping. Her plan was to pretend to get kidnapped so that she could get some fame. But, she gets fame and attention beyond what she ever thought. And not all the attention she gets is good or positive. The idea was for her and her lover, Logan, to let her get kidnapped and held for $20,000 ransom. Then Logan would find Hope, making him a hero. But things start to get a little weird when Hope turns crazy & the lies get bigger & crazier. Basically, Hope is a confused in the head girl and she goes crazy.
I think that teenagers (mostly girls) would be interested in this book because it’s kind of creepy really. Like it basically explains a crazy in love teenage girl that I’m sure everyone knows one of. But it’s a good drama and it’s pretty interesting if you’re good at staying focused reading books, which im not.
I would rate it a 3 out of 5 stars. It’s a decent book, one of the best 20 I’ve read probably. But sometimes it would just ramble on and on about one thing and I would get uninterested very fast. And sometimes it freaked me out. I’d be reading it in my bed at night and it would give me the chills.