The language and sentimentality of this memoir was a pleasure to fall into, but the whole time I had to almost ask myself what the point was. Of course, maybe if you have read a lot of Aciman’s work then this will hold more meaning for you, but for me I struggled to see why he memorialized this transitional year in his life, and what he hoped to share about himself from this memoir. I think I will be hard-pressed to be much wowed by any teenager’s final year of high school, which is what his year in Rome amounted to, and while he did end with a chapter that really tried to dig out some meaning I wasn’t particularly moved.
The writing was ethereal in its style, and yet at the same time trying to appeal to the senses. He would contain entire conversations with multiple speakers in a single paragraph, compressing time and memory in ways that were effective in terms of bringing those places to life. But they were ultimately the experiences of a scared, intelligent, emotional, undecisive teenager. Once in a while Aciman would conclude a paragraph with some sort of pithy sentiment or lesson, but these often felt as airy and ethereal as the prose. It felt like he was including them because a memoir is supposed to have such things, but it took effort to pluck them through the dreamy veil of his experiences. This made the final chapter, which is all him as an adult trying to sort through his time in Rome, including returning to the street he lived on with his family in tow, feel less organic than the rest of his chapters. It felt like it had to do too much, too much meaning to make in such a short time, and yet I do suppose that was his experience, as well. So maybe it is fitting.
There are some beautiful insights in the final chapter, which certainly offer a peek into his relationship with literature and writing, which I found moving. “What my favorite authors were asking of me was that I read them intimately—not read my own pulse onto their work, but read their pulse as though it were my own, the height of arrogance. By trusting my deepest, most personal insights, I was in fact tapping into, or divining, an author’s vision.” I suppose that the hope is that the reader find their pulse throughout the memoir, their pulse in his evocative stories of familial unrest, of nervous, fumbling encounters, of the pleasure of bookstores, and so on. While I was impressed by the language and prose I felt there was always some distance that kept me from really feeling a full immersion, from finding him through finding myself in his anecdotes and memories.
So that is all to say, sentimental and skillful writing, which I cannot deny, but not writing that spoke to me.