真夜中の俺を見て

My Noons and Midnights Are for You #1

by Luria

明るく天真爛漫な人気Vtuber「まひる」の中の人は、実はドがつくほどの根暗で自己肯定感マイナスの真夜。

マネージャーの荻野はたくさん褒めてくれるけれど、どうせ見ているのはまひるで本当の“俺”ではない――

そう分かっているから、荻野の「好き」という言葉を真に受けてどろどろに愛されたいと願ってしまうことなんて、絶対に言えない…！

――しかし、真夜の中に潜む「いじめられたい願望」を見透かすように、荻野は「代わりにいじめてあげよっか？」と期待に震える身体の奥を暴いてきて…！？

「中イキできて偉いね、マヨくん」

【Sっ気世話焼きマネージャー×無意識Mな根暗Vtuber】の心身開発ラブデイズ

Genres: Manga, Yaoi, Boys Love, LGBT, Romance, Fiction, Graphic Novels

224 pages, Paperback

First published February 7, 2024

Reviews

[rory (jess' version) · Rating 4 out of 5]

so good! i need me some more vtuber mangas!

[K · Rating 1 out of 5]

I have really got to start being more careful about my Tokyopop purchases. They have some good stuff, but they also bulk-license such trash titles at a muc higher rate than any of the other BL publishers seem to.

This is basically a subpar version of Let Me See the Real You, Senpai! , about a moody, depressed vtuber who's nothing like his bright, cheerful, popular public persona. While the love interest in this one is the guy's manager rather than a fellow vtuber, the character designs are honestly so similar it can hardly be a coincidence. I just checked the dates on the series, and as far as I can tell, this one came out a year after.

That's not terrible on its own - a lot of manga plays off the same tropes - but it's like Luria took all those story beats and said: how can we make that beautiful, interesting, surprisingly sweet love story into something toxic and chemistry-less?

We start off with a pretty minimal introduction: Mayo is, like I said, very popular and has been doing the vtuber thing for four years. He's had his current manager, Ogino, for three years, due to a company policy against managers dating the talent and shuffling everyone around so they only have same-sex managers.

Little do they know that Mayo is actually gay! So he falls in love with Ogino, who constantly praises him, but in a way that makes Mayo think he only cares about his vtuber self.

Until the day that Ogino realizes Mayo's attracted to him and takes advantage of that to have sex with him, despite Mayo's protests. Then proceeds to have unprotected sex with him that Mayo begs for...only after getting so drunk that he doesn't remember any of it after. Something Ogino explicitly says he knows will happen to Mayo after he drinks.

So yeah it's just straight up assault.

Then they have sex in a public bathroom after going to see Mayo's vtuber ad on a billboard. Very romantic. Up until this point, this is literally all that's happening, "plot"wise...except for Ogino also moving in with Mayo because of some suggestion to follow what kpop idol groups do, which is apparently housing them in one location with their manager so they have a support group.

Cool idea. Except...Mayo's not getting friends or support, he's just got his sexually aggressive manager sharing a bed with him.

All of the sexual stuff is framed in a pretty horrible way, with Ogino running an internal monologue about how he's doing this as Mayo's manager, to "help" him. Look, I'm not against imbalanced power dynamic relationships. But the way this one is set up and progresses just hits all the wrong notes and truly doesn't leave me liking - or knowing anything about - either character. Ogino hasn't been secretly attracted to or in love with Mayo or anything. He saw an opportunity and took it, and started getting possessive of Mayo in the process.

Mayo does start doing some collabs with two other guys Ogino manages, which finally (after four years??? of solo vtubing) allows him to start getting out of the house and socializing a little more. Ogino is appreciative of this as Mayo's manager, but also resentful of the fact that it's giving Mayo more self-confidence and causing him to lean on or need him as much.

"It felt very one-sided," Mayo muses after a jealousy-fueled sex marathon. "It was a bit scary...but it felt really good."

I just grimaced the whole way through, honestly.

The next drama is about overworked Ogino being switched away from Mayo's management, or so Mayo thinks from overhearing some workplace gossip. This finally leads into a little bit of backstory: a very minimal glimpse of Mayo being mildly brokenhearted by a single offhand comment during his school days, which wasn't even directed at him. And then Ogino's big reveal: that Mayo's vtuber streams were what inspired him to quit his job and come work at his company, to save Mayo from the kind of soul-killing overwork that had been draining him.

Too little too late, really. This is an interesting backstory that frankly does not fit at all with how Ogino was treating or interacting with Mayo for the bulk of the volume. (Although he also kind of manipulated his way into being Mayo's manager, so I guess it kind of does match his personality.)

Finally: "You're a real masochist," Ogino tells Mayo. Except...he's not?

All his internal musings were nothing like that. He wanted someone who would adore him, who would love him and cherish him as himself. He's full of self-hate and negative talk and self-harming tendencies not because he likes those things but because he's really depressed????

So Ogino deciding he needs to "bully" Mayo in bed was a weird, weird take on their relationship and truly shows how little he understands him. And then it turns out in the final pages that Mayo...wasn't even his real name either? It's just a nickname?

There was truly very little about this story that made it worthwhile. Again...read Yuho Okita's instead if you find this setup interesting. It's got a whole lot more plot and actual character development.

[alex :)]

boring -.-*

[Paula Rodríguez · Rating 3 out of 5]

Bastante interesante la pequeña parte que podemos ver sobre los vtubers. Se toca el tema de la depresión y la soledad en ese mundillo.
El estilo de dibujo me ha gustado, el tomo en general está bien, pero me ha faltado algo en la relación entre los protagonistas. Siento que es muy precipitado. El añadido de los personajes secundarios que también son vtubers está muy bien planteado.
Sé que hay un segundo tomo, lo tendré en cuenta aunque no creo que lo lea porque siento que se deja muy bien cerrado con este.

[Logan · Rating 2 out of 5]

With the description hinging so much on “Shall I bully you instead?”, I really expected the LI to, idk, bully the MC? I expected some sort of kink exploration there, and it offered nothing of the sort. And then while the mental health issues explored here were interesting (and important, what with vloggers and such being so huge rn), I ultimately found the MC pretty bland.

[⭐️ · Rating 5 out of 5]

This was absolutely cuuuute!!! Uncensored too! We get the whole d!ck and h0le and everything haha. The story is sweet, seems like a common trope in streamer mangas (happy sunshine avatar = sad, depressed emo boi) which i think is cute. His manager is hot, like so many hot scenes, i wish there were more bullying but the top is a super green flag

[Davina · Rating 3 out of 5]

Fun lil read. More porn than plot but no hate because it was good

[Carmen · Rating 4 out of 5]

I feel like this is Tamon’s B side if it were a BL, mature and VERY VERY spicy.

I enjoyed it and look forward to the promised second volume to actually flesh out their relationship.

I read a few of the negative reviews and honestly if can see how this story isn’t for everyone. I think it’s work reading some of those reviews if you are triggered by certain tropes and situations and determine if this is a book do you. When I read it I didn’t feel like it was a toxic relationship or that Mayo was being manipulated or forced into anything. I thought some of the setups like the excuse to live together was silly and the argument for it was loose but I also knew what was signing up for and it wasn’t reality so I just went with it. Are there greener flags? Yup. Would I think this is a healthy work relationship IRL? Nope. Did I enjoy the art, the smutty story and the mild angst? Absolutely.

[Natalie H · Rating 4 out of 5]

February 2026
Kindle edition

Picked for the cover then the blurb. Sweet story. Guy with a bit of an identity crisis and his manager. Add in some new friends along the way and its pretty much wrapped up. Did get a bit wishy washy with the lack of attention in the third act. The staff were out of order with what they said behind the guys' backs. Felt like a standalone.

[MIEL · Rating 4 out of 5]

bonne lecture pour se vider... l'esprit !

[vivi · Rating 5 out of 5]

i found this while at kinokuniya yesterday and picked it up from the staff recommendations, and maybe also grabbed it because i'm a sucker for this kind of art style. it also gave a free sticker, how could i not get it??? the cover is breathtaking, as is the art style, but could be very misleading to people if this isn't the kind of book they want to read.
it's actually so rare for me to give five stars and it is kind of embarrassing that this is my first five star of the year... lowkey feel like a fat fucking chud 33
the art style is absolutely gorgeous, lowkey more porn than plot but i'm looking past it because i love the trope the mc's are in. i read a fic on this trope not even a day ago, feels kinda uncanny. i'm looking forward to the second books release, i definitely will be reading! hopefully the smut doesn't start so fast in the second book, one of the few issues i had with the book but still a good read.

[farah!! · Rating 2 out of 5]

pretty art style, loved the cover art and i read it bc i'd never read a manager x vtuber relationship before ...

unfortunately i didn't quite like the uke's gloomy personality that much ...

[Lucsbooks · Rating 4 out of 5]

"My Noons and Midnights are for You" grabbed my full attention with its cover and synopsis. I thought it was so original to have an MC who's an online celebrity, and there were all kinds of chat rooms and video platforms elements all over the cover and end papers that I absolutely loved, to the point that I got sad when the black and white manga started. I wasn't sad for long, because Mayo was introduced and he became my favourite manga character ever.

The author did a wonderful job contrasting Mayo's fabricated and audience-tested, cheerful, uplifting online persona and how much he was struggling with his mental health in his personal life, with his personal space reflecting that. He was loved for who he pretended to be online and gave no one a chance to love his real self. Not until Ongino.

Both these characters have very demanding jobs, and I liked that even in the midst of a very romantic story, where Ongino would rather sleep on the floor than wake Mayo, there was a lot of realism about how putting that many hours into their work had an effect on their lives and relationship.

This was one of the spiciest and hottest mangas I have ever read, and it hurts my heart, because I absolutely loved these characters, their chemistry, their relationship, and how there was even an attempt to portray their intimate scenes with a bit more realism than manga usually gives us, but it wouldn't be a Japanese manga without some murky consent issues, so I have to take away a star simply because of that. Japan doesn't understand that the bottom saying no and being ignored doesn't uphold the family honour or make him any less gay.

That was the only stupid decision in this story because Ongiro was otherwise the best kind of unhinged and dedicated, and if it wasn't for him, nothing would have happened. This manga did a wonderful job of exploring both characters, particularly Mayo. He was a real reminder that you never know what is going on in someone's heart, and to be kind to everyone. Mayo had impeccable fashion sense and the funniest reactions, so even when he was at his lowest, his mind was a pleasure to be in.

This was one of the best manga I have ever read, with characters that felt real and catered to an adult audience with relatable issues and problems. I would love a sequel. Please!

Thank you to Edelweiss, TokyoPop and Love Love for this DRC.

[Darling Aracely · Rating 2 out of 5]

Ni fu ni fa

[bel · Rating 2 out of 5]

baited by the beautiful art in the cover. the drawings were very cute and all but i kinda didn't care for them

[Ester · Rating 4 out of 5]

Mayo es un joven de veinticuatro años solitario, retraído, con pensamientos intrusivos e insomnio que encarna a Mahiru como vtuber, siendo uno de los más famosos de su agencia y de todo Japón. A diferencia de Mahiru, el cual es luminoso, resplandeciente, optimista, risueño y ser de luz, Mayo es oscuro, tímido, malo socializando y un desastre para cuidar de sí mismo. Por ello, su mánager Ogino debe ocuparse de las tareas más mundanas como llevarle la comida, limpiarle el piso, recordarle que se bañe... Porque Mayo se siente solo, muy solo. Y no solo eso; siente que se está alejando demasiado de Mahiru, sin importar que él fuera su creador. ¿Quién lo ve a él? Nadie, mientras que a Mahiru lo ama y lo idolatra todo el mudo. Mayo quiere que alguien lo ame tanto que se vuelva loc y dé hasta asco. Solo quiere que alguien lo mire a él y solo a él.

Sabiendo que se viene abajo a la mínima, que se exige demasiado, y que siempre tiene pensamientos autodestructivos, Ogino no solo anima a Mayo porque sea su trabajo, sino que sus palabras están llenas de sinceridad, ya que piensa exactamente lo que dice de su representado. Por ello, un día, mientras le seca el pelo y le roza sin querer en el nuevo pendiente que Mayo se ha hecho y ve su reacción masoquista hacia el dolor, Ogino decide calmar al chico de una forma insólita y que un mánager no debería hacer. Pero Ogino conoce demasiado bien a Mayo y sabe que hay una parte de él que lo desea, y también desea que alguien lo empotre fuertemente y que le muestre con hechos que existe y que es un objeto merecedor de admiración, deseo y pasión.

Después de esa noche en la que Mayo disfruta de las manos de su mánager, es incapaz de sacárselo de la cabeza y de desear que Ogino vuelva a su casa. No solamente no deja de darle vueltas a lo que sucedió, sino que su cuerpo clama que lo vuelvan a tocar de aquella forma. Que lo destrocen. ¿Qué será de esta nueva relación de amor y deseo cuando Ogino se vaya a vivir con Mayo y que este último no solo se entregue más allá del cuerpo, sino que comience a querer ser mejor para que Ogino no deba esforzarse tanto?

Siendo una obra sumamente erótica donde se tratan temas tan actuales como la salud mental y el fuerte impacto de las redes sociales en las vidas de las personas (inclusive en lo laboral), Luria nos presenta Nos vemos a medianoche, una obra donde nos retrata a un chico antisocial en la realidad, pero que se dedica profesionalmente a las redes sociales y a interactuar con otras personas desconocidas en base a las palabras, que no sabe cuidar de sí mismo y que la soledad y la individualidad han hecho tanta mella en él que solo quiere que lo amen por quien es y no por quien parece ser.


Podéis leer la reseña completa en mi blog:

https://unabibliotecaentremundos.blog...

[Julie · Rating 4 out of 5]

Okay I feel like I'm a little blinded by the beautiful art and the smut. I have a lot of gripes, but I still really enjoyed this.

The sexual stuff happened too quickly and it would've fit better after they started living together. The living together thing also seemed wrong like the company suggested it, but Ogino is in charge of two other talents so it would've made more sense if they ALL lived together. They should've of just made it the Ogino is like I'm going to stay with you because you're not properly taking care of yourself instead or something like that. I also wish they would've established their relationship as manager and talent a little better in the beginning. We didn't really get to know their relationship that well before they started to get intimate and display feelings. We get to see it explained at the end, but I would've wanted more in the beginning. I also wish they had played up the "bullying" aspect a little more in the beginning like okay Mayo is a masochist, but I wish there was more established before Ogiro was like you want to be bullied?

I mostly said negative things, but I genuinely had a good time with this. I'm looking forward to reading the sequel. I just wish this could've been cleaned up so it could've been ~perfect~

[Khael · Rating 5 out of 5]

despite it being only a solo (I think?) manga I actually loved it so much, yes there were too many sex scenes in my personal opinion, and the one in the first chapter caught me off guard because I didn't expect it to start that early, but I can excuse it this one time. People in the reviews say that they didn't like Mayo's "gloomy" personally and although I can somewhat understand that, I also relate to Mayo a lot in a way, with the overthinking of basically everything going on in your life, past and present, it can be easy for some people, but for others it isn't and I'm one of them. And also, he's trapped in his apartment 24/7 for his vtubering streaming without going out much, he also very clearly has depression, and although it's "healing" in the later chapters it's still occurring. And for another example, he in his school years he crushed on another boy, while then soon finding out that he's homophobic.

I've written more about this review but I accidentally deleted it by pressing 'paste' instead of 'copy' on it... I wrote so much 😭

[Yaiza · Rating 3 out of 5]

3⭐. No me ha gustado nada de nada, la trama es horriblemente superficial, siento que el manager tiene una obsesión mas bien creepy hacia el vtuber, mientras que este ultimo simplemente tiene una gran dependencia emocional ya que necesita sí o sí sentirse querido.

El dibujo es bastante básico, no siento que destaque demasiado (y eso que en la portada lucia mejor).

Su relación no me ha gustado, ni como se forja ni nada, siento que no están enamorados, sino que más bien se retroalimentan, uno alimenta la obsesión del otro mientras que la otra persona tiene lo que busca, que es sentirse querido/deseado.

No tengo problemas con las relaciones toxicas pero es que esto es otra cosa porque es insano y repito, en ningún momento me hacen creer que se quieran de verdad que es lo que busco como mínimo siempre que leo bl.

No me agrada que sea el tipo de manga que tiene muchas escenas subiditas pero una trama completamente vacía (al menos para mí es así).

[bình （´-`）.｡oO · Rating 4 out of 5]

₊✧‧₊˚ ★★★½ ᡣ𐭩 •｡ꪆৎ ˚⋅

I enjoyed this better than “Let Me See the Real You, Senpai” because I felt significantly less second hand embarrassment and the character interactions felt less… cliché? Though, I am also biased because I relate to Mayo’s mental health and attachment issues heavily; moreover his design is appealing to me (I’m gooning to his ass 😭😭✌️✌️SON IM NUTTING.) This manga definitely stuck out to me, but it wasn’t life changing. I thought it was a cute and simple read overall, and I’m looking forward to reading the next volumes.

edit: i also agree that the sexual relationship happened way too fast, but my expections for yaoi are literally in the trenches so i forgot to mention,,, sorrryyyyy,,,, btw i LIVE yuuho okita, plz read their other works

[Arianna · Rating 2 out of 5]

I wanted to like this one so much because the cover and artwork are stunning and it’s been a hot minute since I’ve read a solid BL but this was sadly a miss. The relationship dynamic gave me the ick more than anything and I personally Didn’t love the third act confession reveal where the manager was a super fan that had a shrine of him and has just been manipulating and biding his time to f*ck Mayo….

[Felix The Pirate Cat · Rating 3 out of 5]

Interessant, aber mir kommt ehrlich gesagt die emotionale Seite etwas zu kurz. Mayo wirkt sehr sensibel und das scheint hier zwar aufgegriffen, aber nicht verarbeitet zu werden. Ogino wird dadurch an manchen Stellen wie ein... Psychopath. Naja, nicht ganz so krass, aber schon so in die Richtung. Zumindest ein Wolf im Schafspelz...

[Ampa Gil I Brotons · Rating 2 out of 5]

I had a really hard time getting into this book, and I didn’t feel much chemistry between the characters at all.
The relationship felt very unbalanced to me, like one of them was clearly taking advantage of the other.
There is a reflective part about life and work that was… fine, I guess, but overall I don’t think I’ll be picking up the next book in the series.

[Kykuuichi · Rating 5 out of 5]

The plot is pretty surface level but its not meant to be a long extensive series, more so a short story. LOVE the art and I LOVE the characters and the vtubers. I expected this to be a one volume story but apparently there's another! Can't wait to read Vol 2 when it comes out

[Karen Reyes · Rating 5 out of 5]

10/10 Quiero saber más de ellos, son muy lindos juntos 🥰🥰🥰

[Martu (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ · Rating 5 out of 5]

4.5

[Yume · Rating 5 out of 5]

Perfecto🥹

[MAGGS · Rating 5 out of 5]

SON SÚPER CUTE, LLORÉ Y EL SPICE ESTÁ A OTRO NIVEL.

[Anya Sprinkles · Rating 3 out of 5]

jail!! but he actually begged for it so... 🤷‍♀️

[Abigail · Rating 4 out of 5]

loved the art and the characters. the smut happens kinda fast but it was still a good read