I don't know why I feel like I have to be Arnon Grunberg's promoter on this site. And today of all days. It's been a dark, evil weekend in which I was excavating dark and evil feelings (for a creative project) and then... and then... I get a phone call from a coworker today. But today's Sunday. And you know what that means. Either they need you to come in early tomorrow or somebody's died. I didn't answer -- hoping for the former, but sucker-punched by the latter when I received a text message that a twenty-six-year-old coworker never woke up this morning. Of course, I can speculate -- underlying heart condition? drugs? carbon monoxide? -- but so what? Is that supposed to be a mitigating factor? Anyway I've wanted to vomit since then and not do much else. Not read. Not watch TV. And by the way, in case you haven't noticed, it's still February outside -- and the sky's the kind of steely gray overcast that makes absolutely everything look filthy. It's as if today were filmed for the mind's eye by Fassbinder's cinematographer. (And don't expect me to look up his name.)
What does this all have to do with Arnon Grunberg's first novel Blue Mondays? Nothing, I suppose. But maybe I can awkwardly contort a connection. Firstly (and this is only circumstantial), I'll never think about this book without thinking of death. Young death. Unexpected death. There were only about a dozen pages left and then *bing* the text came through. Secondly, I think this book is about the opposite of death, in a way. No not just life -- but the kind of youthful, idiotic, and ecstatic life that can't conceive of its own death.
Grunberg wrote Blue Mondays when he was twenty-two years old -- which is more than sufficient reason for me to hate him for all time. Do you know the kind of stuff I was writing when I was that age? I seem to recall a maudlin attempt at a novel that was nothing but A Separate Peace staged at a mental institution. Deplorable stuff. And there was the infamous -- and infamously humiliating -- gothsploitation story about the talking decapitated head. It was sort of like a cross between Poe and Señor Wences, I think, but even my memories are probably making it out as less horrendous than it was. So Arnon Grunberg writes his first novel Blue Mondays on a dare (!), the inside flap informs me. As in he wasn't really interested in writing a novel but he was somehow cajoled into doing it. Then it was published. Then it became a best seller in his native Netherlands. Then I read it sixteen years after it was published and decided that, yes, it is in fact very good.
The novel is about a character named Arnon Grunberg and his 'coming of age' -- which we all know is literary code for 'learning how to fuck and then doing it a lot.' It's not a instance of braggadocio in Grunberg's case, however, because all but one of his partners are hookers. And often strange and unattractive ones at that. So love is obviously not in the cards for young Grunberg, who (like his characters in the brilliant The Jewish Messiah) isn't quite in touch with his emotions. But we'll give him a pass. He is/was still young.
Arnon Grunberg (the author now) is the same age I am, roundabout. He's published a handful of novels, one of which a bunch of people on a booknerd site in America have read, while I've done nothing much at all except wait around. For what? One has to make a living so one works in an office and should be grateful for that much in this economy. At least I can read about what the Grunbergs of the world have accomplished. But then *beep* there's a text message. How much time do you have to wait? It makes you want to puke -- not dry-heave, but ralph until you're dried out like a strip of jerky -- if you spend too much time thinking about it. But don't. But do. What I mean is do both at the same time -- start doing something and puke, if need be, because it's the puking after all that makes you do something.
That's what this novel is about, in a weird way. (Or at least that's what it's about when refracted through my current mood.) It's about being alive thoroughly, dangerously, preposterously. Maybe a little too much alive; the young aren't known for their wisdom, after all, but it's a good motivational speech at least.
And yet. I don't think I can recommend this to you. I can recommend it to some indefinite, hypothetical 'you' but not to you specifically -- because (let's face facts) Arnon Grunberg isn't for everybody. This novel, for example, is filled with unfathomable non sequiturs. Trying to connect all the meanings is a task unto itself -- one that not many readers will probably feel is worth the time -- but I guess that's part of being young: refusing to make sense all the time. I'll gladly dabble in that world. From time to time.