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113 pages, Hardcover
First published April 30, 2013
As You Crave SoulBidart has a gift for casually caressing the dark fears within our mortal hearts, the fears of dying without ever becoming whole, the fears of a future in which we cannot participate in body, and the horror of watching our flesh wither and die. His style is reflective of life itself, each line spaced out—much like Wittgenstein’s most noted work—spending pages on a poem to allow each moment to be appreciated both in it’s singular beauty, but as a piece of the full evolution of the poem, much like how our individual memories are held dear as singular moments but it is the collective beauty of them all that form a life. Bidart uses full range of italics, all capital letters, bullet points, and other poetic punctuation to adorn his poetry. There is even a section of notes to help elucidate his poetry and give full credit to the many allusions found within. I was initially taken aback by this notes section, but upon further reflection it seems to be a friendly invite into his works and allows for several asides where he can frame the poems in personal or spiritual context that allows for greater enjoyment without feeling like he is holding the readers hand or annoyingly pointing out his own genius.
but find flesh
till flesh
almost seems sufficient
when the as-yet-unwritten
poem within you
demands existence
all you can offer it are words. Words
are flesh. Words
are flesh
craving to become idea, idea
dreaming it has found, this time, a body
obdurate as stone.
To carve the body of the world
and out of flesh make flesh
obdurate as stone.
Looking down into the casket-crib
of your love, embittered by
soul you crave to become stone.
You mourn not
what is not, but what never could have been.
What could not ever find a body
Because what you wanted, he
wanted but did not want.
Ordinary divided unsimple heart.
What you dream is that, by eating
the flesh of words, what you make
makes mind and body
one. When, after a reading, you are asked
to describe your aesthetics,
you reply, An aesthetics of embodiment
The true language of ecstasy
Is the forbidden’
’Lie to yourself about this and you willBidart ties together the past and present to illuminate a lifetime spent through flesh, using both his personal history as well as film to exemplify his ideas. It is the confessional poetry that really shines in the collection, which he bravely puts forth in poems such as ‘Queer’ which documents his coming out in a unkind world where even his parents would look down upon him. ‘If I had managed to come out to my/mother, she would have blamed not/me, but herself.’ There are passionate memories of young love:
forever lie about everything.
Everybody already knows everything
so you can
lie to them. That’s what they want.
But lie to yourself, what you will
lose is yourself. Then you
Turn into them.
When I met him, I knew I hadThis passage really rocks my heart with it’s emotional might; begging and pleading with a god or existence to allow such a moment not be a mere fleeting blip of passing power but an eternal line carving it’s valor as a glowing arc across all of existence and eternity, despite knowing that one may be damned for it. This sort of potency is what words were made for.
Weaned myself from God, not
hunger for the absolute. O unquenched
mouth, tounging what is and must
remain inapprehensible –
saying You are not finite. You are not finite
‘The subject of this poemIn order to grasp beauty, we must live our a mortal life, a life that will be taken away and, as it is ripped from beneath us, shown in all it’s glory. It is poetry that most grasps my heart than any other art form, poetry that moves me more than anything, poetry that reminds me that any sorrow, strife or solitude I suffer is a worthwhile sacrifice for the beauty of words and escaping existence. Frank Bidart has compiled a wonderful collection here, one that didn’t really strike me at first, yet I was unable to put down for days. Each rereading exposed a new perfect sentence, and made me realize his thoughts and musings had been lurking around my brain, making me question my own life and my own mortality even while the book was tightly shut at home. Brave and forthright in his confessional poetry about his life and loves, and cutting as well as wise in his statements of death and our hunger for an Absolute, Bidart delivers an outstanding array of poems that are sure to stick deep in the heart. While they may be bleak at first glace, there is an uplifting power to them that pulls across all the ages of humanity to show us that though we are finite, our ideas can be infinite.
is how much the spaces that you now move in
cost….
They cost your life’
Experience has taught me, when I am shaving of a morning, to keep watch over my thoughts, if a line of poetry strays into my memory, my skin bristles and the razor ceases to act.For me it’s a recursive excitability. The dog is manic and chasing its tale.
That history is a series of failed revelationsThe bitter earth returns in “O Ruin O Haunted”
you’re sure you hear folded, hidden
within the all-but-explicit
bitter
taste-like-dirt inside Dinah Washington’s
voice singing This bitter earth
LoveI don’t identify with this voice so much as sense my dark self reflected. Bidart’s poems are vital, apotropaic meditations on love, the choices that cost your life.
is the manna
that falling
makes you
see
the desert
surrounding you
is a desert.
Makes you think dirt is not where you were born.
Then, seeing the word ART, I woke.
When what we understand about
what we are
changes, whole
parts of us fall mute.
“[. . .] you despised the world for replacing / God with another addiction, love. / Despised yourself. Was there no third thing?” —“For an Unwritten Opera,” page 108
i’ve seen fractions of bidart’s poetry floating around, specifically from his HALF-LIGHT collection, but this is the first time i’ve truly read a whole work by him. in METAPHYSICAL DOG, these poems straddle your mind and take you for a ride through this interesting medium of platonic idealism and the concreteness (and failures and ecstasies and, and, and—) of the physical body. there are lines that are absolutely gutting, and there were moments where i was reading aloud to get the full effect, to feel the meaning on my tongue. it’s fascinating how his brain works because the words he strings together are just . . . different.
that being said, there’s a blurb by stephen burt on the back of the book in which he says, “Bidart writes through passion, but also through subtraction.” and, after completing the METAPHYSICAL DOG, this is what’s holding me back from truly feeling it, deep in my bones, you know? like there is something about the metaphysical aspect, the “subtraction” that left me outside it. it’s not that i typically expect to fully understand poetry—poetry, in my opinion, does not need to be understood, only felt—but with this, i just felt like i was poking the borders of understanding and feeling. hence, my rating.
anyway, i will be reading the HALF-LIGHT collection at some point in my life. we’ll see if life experience helps hehehe