“The problem is sometimes even hope runs out, has to run out, that has to be admitted, too.”
An ailing patient ruminates on mortality and morality while she's hospitalized. That would be my attempt to condense this short book into a short sentence. Of course, with Christa Wolf it's never as simple as that. For one, there's the shift in first, second, and third person narratives as the protagonist drifts in and out of consciousness. I thought that this was quite inventive, and I don't recall ever encountering the style before, especially when used to show different states of being and illness. Even more impressive is how this isn't as disorienting to read as one would expect given the different shifts in points of view.
In this state the protagonist not only confronts the suffering of her illness but the ghosts of her past, and death, and moving through feverish dreams and lucidity, the narrator traces the crucial events in her life, and in German history, that have led to her present moment. Like the typical Wolf book, this is one that looks into truths, regardless of the pain that results from the unflinching probing as our narrator says: “To abandon your defenses and follow the trail of pain, I tell her, would be worth the trouble.
Subtly and slowly we begin to realize that the protagonist is in a crumbling society, former East Germany to be exact. It’s a tough book, and one filled with lots of references (very glad for the notes available in this copy) but Wolf is yet to disappoint me for the effort and trust I place in her work even at its most challenging. A short but very good read.
Some other quotes I liked from the book:
' "Self", what a tottering, blurred concept.'
“Late that evening, she asks Kora Bachmann whether she knew that the pain one felt over a loss was the measure of the hope that one had had beforehand.”
“Art as a means of taming the wild impulses of mankind, it’s something to think about.”
“But here’s one thing you can’t argue with: since times long past, literature has been full of tedious descriptions of those efforts made by people lusting for death.”
“All I mean, I say, is that thinking can be so painful that you exchange it on the sly for other pains. A kind of horse-trading with yourself, as it were. Silence.”