Love, Loyalty, Honor and Self-respect
I listened to this story over a period of more than three weeks while driving to various appointments. There were times I couldn't leave the car, though I had arrived at my destination because the compelling story would be at yet another junction where it was impossible to stop listening.
This story is profound because it is so real and it makes me ponder whether this was based at least in some part to someone's tale. Though the events happened more than a decade before I was a teenager, I faced some similar situations. Unlike Tangy Mae, in another era and another part of the country, and challenged by the societal limits because of her skin color, I was no less engaged than had she been my schoolmate or friend. I found I closely identified with her childhood trauma's of being used by our mothers to "entertain men" against our will. We both suffered at the hands of souless woman, who was supposed to nurture us and protect us but instead, we experienced extreme violence and wickedness that was so creative the taint of the devil was all over it.
Tangy Mae, a sweet and beautiful young girl is held up as a thing of derision. Berated for her dark complexion, her mother tells her that she is unlovable and thus unworthy of attention. Her desire for education is also maligned because her mother never completed her education and sees no real use for it. Her mother was raised by nice enough parents but ran toward a life that seemed easy and perhaps even fun. At the beginning she is a maid to a white family, but more often than not, she works as a sex worker too. Her ten children are a by-product of this lifestyle. She is a very attractive woman, who knows how to tease and manipulate men. Her light skin is part of her appeal or at least she seems to think so. Some of her children are also light while others are dark depending on who seeks her company. While Tangy Mae is her least favorite, Sam one of her older son's is her most favorite and she will go to great lengths to protect him.
When the African American men begin to consider acts of civil disobedience in their tiny town of Paykersfield, GA (I can't believe the publisher's blurb is wrong!), things get tense and Sam's close friend, Junior is found hanging from a tree. Sam is arrested and taken to jail for the murder and Tangy's mother, Rozelle does a number of things to get his release. Meanwhile, some of her siblings leave home causing her mother great anger and she takes it out on Tangy Mae for the most part.
The violence was extreme and at times, I literally cried out in horror as I listened. I even cried at one point as she recounts one act of violence, my own memories of a similar event becoming once again real. Though the community is very aware of the sufferings of Tangy Mae and her siblings, there is no intervention, just as none occurred in my childhood. Just as is for millions of others all over the world. There is no greater shame in society than its mistreatment of children.
Just as the story seems like nothing worse can happen to Tangy Mae, it does. Other acts by her mother are increasingly horrifying not just toward Tangy but the other children, too. Tangy Mae soon begins to dream of a life that is far away from the one she barely exists in. Her much older boyfriend leaves for college but soon disappears from the stage altogether. Though some of her siblings had embraced their adulthood with out being under the same roof (well most of it, the house was barely a shack) with their mother. They are still under her spell. She is such a master of manipulation that for most they are completely unable to sever their ties to her. Tangy Mae had hopes for her oldest sister, Mushy, but when she returns to help, she ends up not maintaining her independence.
Though the ending is a pleasant conclusion to a deeply troubling story, it still was a powerful read. One that will continue to prod me with its sadness. There is a pervasive sense of isolation from abuse that embraces the reader throughout. Also, we wonder at the lies to cover for the parent, who has so little compassion or self-control but only wants to be the center of attention, the martyr and the saint for raising these troublesome children, a real burden to their mother. I know I can't be the only one, who wanted five minutes alone with the Rozelle...
I was so disappointed to realize after I had started this story that the author, Ms. Phillips had died shortly after completing this saga, her debut novel. It is a loss to those, who desire to have greater insight into the southern experience.
She wrote such terrific dialogue and her insights were spot-on. Her storytelling was on par with William Kent Krueger, author of "This Tender Land" and other respected authors, who deliver such authentic voices. She truly made this story sound as though a teenager was sharing her story. I know this will remain an unforgettable experience for me. I hope it will be for you if you should decide to go on this adventure during Jim Crow era in remote Georgia.
If possible, listen to the audio version. Hearing the story was a very powerful experience and the various voices the narrator uses are very distinctive (another bonus).