This is the reflection essay I wrote about "Chasing Francis" for my Christian Beliefs course at MidAmerica Nazarene University under Dr. Jacob Lett:
“In Italy, I found a mentor named Saint Francis of Assisi who taught me that the church of the future needs to listen to the church of the past” (191).
Reading the novel "Chasing Francis" by Ian Morgan Cron has been one of the most challenging and spiritually-transformative experiences of my life. A bit dramatic? I don’t think so. The book is centered around the story of Chase Falson, a man whose spiritual pilgrimage takes him from a conservative, evangelical church in New England where he pastors, to the hills of Assisi, Italy chasing after the life of one man: Saint Francis. On his journey, he encounters a Christianity so different that it entirely reshaped his own. I found Chase’s story very similar to mine, so much so, in fact, that his journey soon became my own. Chase, after coming to know Christ in college through a friend named Phil, had been drawn into the evangelical world where he eventually became the pastor of Putnam Hill Community Church. Yet, twenty years into his ministry, he “had begun to suspect that there was something beyond the island of evangelicalism [he]’d been living on” (21), and he “began yearning for something Phil never told [him] about” (28). This feeling, I have come to know well.
I grew up in Omaha, Nebraska, attending a large evangelical church my entire life. I was involved in every aspect of the youth ministry, from the Awana program to the High School Ministry, where I came to lead, teach, and serve. That world of Christianity was all I had ever known. I had even become a sort of “Bible Man,” where people could “just push the button and [I’d] give the answer” (16). As Chase describes, following Jesus had become so tidy; “every question had a logical answer. Every mystery had a rational explanation” (16). By the time I graduated, I had led Bible studies, preached sermons, and ultimately “I thought I had God pretty well figured out. Everything I believe[d] was boxed, filed, and housed on a shelf” (16). Yet, as I accelerated past my peers in maturity and understanding, I began to feel that I had reached the end of the road. I suspected there was more pavement . . . it was just . . . hidden by the haze surrounding me. I felt there was more to Christianity, but I didn’t know where it was or, for that matter, if it even existed. Consequently, as Chase headed to Italy, beginning a pilgrimage into a new world, so did I. I had, with him, become someone “wandering the earth in exile . . . in search of a spiritual homeland” (42).
The first and most important notion that dawned upon me was that “no one tradition [had] a corner on the faith market” (54-55). This was a shocking shift in thinking for me. I realized that by sharing the wisdom each Christian tradition brought to the table, it would “create more well-rounded Christians” (55)—a more well-rounded me. I had naïvely thought that the Christianity I had grown up with was the most-valid expression of faith in Jesus Christ. It was compelling (and convicting) for me to read that Chase’s Uncle, Kenny, a Franciscan friar, found that “there [were] countless mysteries that [he has] to stand before reverently and humbly while saying, ‘I don’t know’” (54); could I do the same? A faith that wasn’t black and white scared me. Chase and I, with minds that were beginning to let their guard down, traveled on in the footsteps of Francis.
The next realization I came to was about my own faith tradition. “I grew up in a faith that was highly individualistic” (154). In my church, we had been told our whole lives that it was all about our “personal evangelism, personal relationships with Christ, personal devotions, etc.” (154). So, when Chase began to encounter people who thought differently than that, I was directly confronted. He befriended a Franciscan nun, Irene, who expressed to him, “I’ve always found the phrase ‘personal relationship with Jesus’ a little puzzling. I don’t mean to be rude, but it sounds so self-interested” (132). Remember now, this “personal relationship” is all I’ve ever known. Was she calling me selfish? She went on to say, “I’ve always had an intimate relationship with Jesus, but my faith is more rooted in the communal than personal” (132). Having no context for what this meant, I soaked in the way that the characters in the story lived out their communal faith. It showed in the way they “actually lived” Jesus’s call to love, peace, and reconciliation found in the Sermon on the Mount, as opposed to “just admir[ing] it as a nice but unrealistic ideal” (197). Together, they ate, prayed, lived (132), fed the hungry (163), visited the homeless (166), and washed the sick (171). The faith lived out by each of the friends that Chase made in Italy was poured out for the love of others, with others. I began to see how my individualistic, personal faith in Jesus was, indeed, self-centered in many ways.
Another theme, which challenged my and Chase’s perceptions, was the value placed by his new friends on the liturgy of the church. Chase expressed my thoughts well when he said, “I was moved that people were offering up the same words, giving expression to the same truths, in different languages and time zones all around the globe that very day . . . Where or how it was said didn’t matter. Solidarity mattered” (88). What a beautiful picture! I realized what a tragedy it was that I had lived my life until that point looking at the liturgy as stale words uttered in old churches. It wasn’t just the liturgy that began to come alive as I read, but “the faces of saints captured in stained-glass, the frescoes that adorned the walls and ceilings” (88) as well. Along with Chase, “it dawned on me that the liturgy was connecting me to a long and ancient line of believers” (88), a line which was united with “one chorus” as “one communion of saints” (88). We were each “but one soul in the long procession of the faithful that wound its way down and along the hilly landscape of history” (88). The mere idea of this now gives me shivers. Never again will I look at an image of a saint with contempt, but, rather, will consider them a brother or sister who, along with me, is giving praise to the risen king. I think regretfully of how the church I grew up in did not emphasize a respect and love for the ancient community of believers.
While I have much yet to learn and many ways yet to grow as a believer, "Chasing Francis" has opened my eyes to a broader Christianity than I have ever known. I journeyed vicariously through Chase as he discovered a rich and ancient faith in Saint Francis. The people he met, I met. The people he loved, I came to love. The lessons he learned—as challenging as they often were—I learned as well. I praise God that He used the creative mind of Ian Morgan Cron to put together a novel such as this. It has further revealed to me the depth of the Christian faith, and I pray that God’s Spirit would not relent in transforming my heart and life to look more like that of those saints in the past who loved Him so deeply.