I normally would not have picked up this book . Even though I have been a lifelong knitter and crocheter, I make it a point to avoid books in which children die or are kidnapped or missing. As a mother, I cannot imagine … no, I cannot even force myself to contemplate… any of my children dead or missing. But life is funny… sometimes a book finds YOU and it turns out to be just what you needed to read at the time.This book, 'The Knitting Circle' by Ann Hood, turned out to be a book I needed to read.
In 'The Knitting Circle', Ann Hood introduces Mary Baxter. Mary, a mother, a wife and a writer of magazine articles, is being swallowed by her grief over the death of her only child… her young daughter Stella. Stella became ill with meningitis and died suddenly. It's no accident that Stella's name means 'star'… she was and continues to be the shining star in her parents' lives.. the center around which their family revolved. In many ways, the Baxter's story is the 'classic' story of grief and loss but I don't want to minimize its power. The story focuses on Mary and you get the sense that Mary is paralyzed … she is stuck and weighed down by her feelings. She isn't functioning in any way that people expect adults to function…she doesn't eat, she can't read or write… she can't even carry on with the simplest daily activities like grocery shopping. Everything she attempts to do reminds her of Stella and those thoughts are too painful. Mary grieves…. loudly, effusively and without apology. She has what feels like a hole in her heart and her life and her suffering is intolerable. Sadly for Mary, her grief separates her from those who care… her husband, co-workers, friends and even her mother, Mamie, with whom she has a difficult relationship.
Finally, Mamie tells Mary about the 'Sit and Knit'… a knitting shop operated by a motherly. compassionate woman named Big Alice. Mary resists accepting the invitation extended to her by Big Alice… after all, what could knitting possibly do to ease her enormous suffering? Eventually, Mary… exhausted by her own feelings and sick of her thoughts… decides to attend. At first, Mary sits and listens to the conversations taking place around her… warm, caring conversations between women who obviously know each other well… and of course, Mary learns to knit. First, she learns to cast on stitches and through the process of learning how to form the stitches with her needles, she realizes that this simple act of counting stitches in her begins to help her feel peaceful and calms the thoughts racing through her mind.
Mary met the other members of the knitting circle… who each have their own stories of loss, grief and regret.. but also stories of love and hope for their futures. Each member … Alice, Scarlet, Lulu, Beth, Harriet and Ellen… teach Mary a particular stitch and during the quiet , each instructor shares their own stories. Mary begins to realize that despite her reluctance, this group of strong, wonderful women have drawn her back into the world of the living again.
Perhaps this story sounds a bit sappy and a little oversimplified, but Ms. Hood's writing about Mary and her grief is so eloquent , I couldn't help but be moved. I did a bit of research about Ann Hood and I discovered that she had lost a young daughter… a fact that shows through in every word of this poignant story. Ms. Hood also found a calmness and peace in the simple act of knitting,so when Mary says…"It is my story, yet I do not have the words to tell it. Instead, I pick up my needles and I knit. Each letter is a stitch. A row spells out 'I love you'….. Like a prayer, or a wish, I send it out to you… ", it is so clear that Ms. Hood is speaking her heart through her character, Mary.
I don't usually share such personal information publicly but I want to add a bit of a personal note to my review. Recently, an old friend lost her son…. he was a boy the same age as my OWN son and I watched him grow from a child to a young man. His death left me shocked and dismayed and asking the question that can never be answered …. why? It was clear to me that Ann Hood wrote her grief and suffering into every word of her prose; and my reading her story brought a sense of comfort… and inspiration. Perhaps I will soon pick up my needles and make a wool scarf of many shades of purple for my daughter. I know she would love it.