Platoon Sergeant Col Wilson is everything you'd expect a drill sergeant who is working with new recruits to be: He's loud, butch, demanding obedience and makes you clean your rifle twice, even if the metal shines - because it builds character (he says).
At 35 years of age, he is also a frustrated divorced guy who got demoted after a case of drunk driving and is just doing his job, training the young recruits, trying not to reflect on his life and the reasons why he was unhappily married, hoping to be put back in his former rank if he just doesn't mess up again.
Before taking over the training of his latest platoon, all of them fresh faces who may or may not succeed to become Royal Marines, his superiors take him aside and make him aware that one of the new recruits is an openly gay man - and with the new regulations about equality of age, sexual orientation and religion making it possible for gay men to join, they want to make sure that this new guy doesn't get himself into trouble - which would shed a bad light on the Royal Marines. So Col is supposed to 'keep an eye' on him.
And that's just what he does.
Chris Thompson, 21 years old and highly motivated, turns out to be truly special. Both physically and intellectually at his peak, he is the best at everything he does - and he also doesn't shy away from defending his sexual orientation against his comrades, which soon gets him into serious trouble and even lands him in a hospital.
Col hates the heated stares he receives from the handsome recruit and does his best to put him in his place on every occasion, all the while ignoring how he secretly lusts after the young, strong body. But a drill sergeant and his recruit? Anything other than mere thoughts would be impossible - not to mention illegal, costing him his rank and career.
After the 32 weeks of basic training are over, Chris has successfully earned his sergeant's respect and Col is convinced that Chris is officer material and should proceed to higher ranks, even though it would then be him who'd have to address his recruit with 'Sir'.
During the 'passing out parade' celebration (when the former recruits are officially given soldier status), Col runs into Chris, who asks him to meet him later in a motel room he's booked.
Just like that, out of the blue.
Too flustered and shocked to say 'no' right away, he just stares at the boy. Chris disappears with a quiet 'Please, come.' and leaves Col shattered and once again battling with his own feelings.
Col torments himself over the offer, but he finally does meet Chris - and a wonderful military love story ensues that fascinated me immensely.
I admit, I first thought Col was just being mean. He kept bashing Chris in training for no other reason than because he had a problem with his own attraction to the younger guy. Only when Chris got seriously hurt by homophobic comrades, Col thawed up and visited him in the hospital, offering 'moral support' which he considered his duty as Chris' superior.
When the two actually become an item, Col finds himself in the awkward position of being the one staying behind when Chris goes on a mission to Afghanistan or some other dangerous place, always hoping that his lover would make it back in one piece. A role he usually attributed to 'soldiers' wives'.
I especially liked Col's struggle with the 14 years age difference. While that's not much in the world of gay men, Col sees himself as a 'cradle snatcher' who takes advantage of a subordinate. However, it's actually Chris' family (his uncle and aunt who took the boy in after his dad threw him out for being gay) who make Col see that he is actually the young man's *partner* and they tell him a few things that he didn't know about Chris - making him see the man behind the soldier with all his fears and insecurities that he successfully hides when being around Col - knowing what it took him to earn his sergeant's respect.
The realism of this romance completely swept me off my feet. Since this is the co-author of the Special Forces series, I was not surprised by the amount of graphic violence that we get to witness here, but what I didn't expect was this pure and honest love story between two men who stay loyal to each other despite all hardships - and manage the tightrope walk of pursuing an inherently homophobic military career while being a committed couple at the same time.
And they're not whining about how badly life treats them, because they want to be soldiers, they're good at what they do, and they're willing to adapt their relationship to their careers, which impressed me very much.
The book consists of two parts, the first being Chris' soldier training and the second part being Chris' officer training, the whole story spans over about 7 years.
This book is clearly a 5-star favorite and Col is one of the most likeable characters, with his insecurities about outing himself in the hostile military environment at such a late stage in his life.
I am so glad I read this! Don't miss out on this gem.