Thank you NetGalley for providing a free ARC in exchange for an honest review.
Unfortunately, the only reason I didn't abandon this book at the 10% mark was because I saw it as my duty to complete this novel and leave a review.
I cannot recommend this novel to either a literary fiction or crime fiction loving audience. There are honestly much much better novels discussing grief, the opioid epidemic and raising a disabled child. Neither of those topics were treated with care, depth, or originality. The plot was extremely predictable, characters were superficial, their desires were barely explored, dialogue was stifled and awkward and expositional to a fault. The police procedural part read like very little if any research into police work was done. The sports discussions bored me to death and entire chapters could be entirely skipped as they added no information and depth to the characters and their actions.
Take for example the crime and its resolution: Reagan witnesses a shooting, she is interviewed at the police station, shown some pictures, the detective in charge calls her in every once in a while, and only more than a month later does he actually ask her to help create a composite sketch. The crime resolution happens off screen and then Reagan gets praised for it. Why? To me it felt like she held the investigation back. And her main emotional conflict wasn't even the crime.
Conflict and suspense in general was subpar in this novel. Part of it was the author's decision to include unnecessary scenes, and tell a lot. There is a scene close to the end where one character is severely injured and abandoned on the front steps of their home. We then switch perspective, and wake up with the characters inside the home, talking more than necessary about who should open the door. Then the injured person falls into their arms when they open the door and the other person screams. And I just rolled my eyes and chuckled. There was no tension: we already knew who was at the door, what condition they were in, and why. There is no development for the people inside the home, as their journey is already set in stone and one of them is only proven right for the upteenth time. And the screaming was very soap-opera like.
The worst offense was that I really didn't care about any of the characters. You could have killed the MC and I would have just said: okay, and turned the page.
Except I wouldn't have turned the page. I wouldn't have continued reading the book had I not had an obligation. And it's not because of the sports or the topic. I'm now reading "Heroine" which is a Young Adult novel about addiction, with an MC who is a top athlete and obsessed with sports. I don't care about sports, even less about softball, I have never ever had the ambitions or desires of the "Heroine" MC. Yet, I care about her, I am devastated by her spiraling into addiction. Because, unlike this novel, that MS was explored in detail. I care about an athlete MC more than I cared about this novel's teacher MC (even though I was a science teacher myself). And to answer the book's question at the end: I don't care about Reagan's teaching style, we spent too little superficial time with her in the classroom and I was bored the entire time.
Quick other problems I had with the book: the discussions on teaching a young boy to do "man stuff"; jumping between scenes with improper time-lapse description; the way Lizzie's disability was a backdrop to the MC's character growth, while Lizzie is not allowed any growth at all; the author's comment that she is the aunt of a child with Dawn syndrome, whose birth resulted in the family first grieving (?) but then got over it. ................... I wish I was paraphrasing, but that's what the Acknowledgement says.
In the end: this book didn't develop the owl in the tree (what a Macguffin), didn't develop the crime plot, didn't develop the characters, didn't develop a plot, or further a conversation.
If you are interested in reading about grief, drug addiction and crime I can recommend: "All That's Left Unsaid"; "Heroine", "The More They Disappear"; "Long Bright River." Novels with similar themes, but much better explored. And if you want additional non-fiction reads about addiction, you can check out: "Chasing the Scream," "Beautiful Boy," or "Tweak." You'll get a much more realistic picture of how addiction and trafficking really looks like, on how grief hits and paralyzes.