Tim Challies journals through a year of sorrow, as he wrestles and reflects on the loss of a son, raw emotions, grief, God, and faith. On November 3, 2020, Nick Challies (son of blogger Tim and Aileen Challies) a twenty-year-old student at Southern Baptist Theological Seminary, fell unconscious and collapsed to the ground. He passed on as neither students nor a passing doctor nor paramedics were able to revive him. Beautifully written, thought-provoking, transparent and raw, this memoir is a moving and powerful witness of how Christ sustains and meets us in our deepest anguish, highly recommend it.
"While the steams of joy and sorrow run in parallel, they are not identical. The stream of hoy is more like a gentle brook, while the stream of sorrow is like a raging river. It is sorrow, not joy, that threatens to overwhelm me, pull me in, and drag me under. I've never had to remind myself to temper my joy with my sorrow, but I have often had to remind myself to search for light amid the darkness. And it's in this dichotomy that Charles Spurgeon has proven helpful, for he once preached a sermon on this proverb and pointed out that God has promised his people that joys will always attend their sorrows, for 'the deeper the waters, the higher our ark mounts towards heaven. The darker the night, the more we prize our lamp. We have learned to sing in the dark with the thorn at our breast.'
And so I pressed on, singing in the dark, with the lamp of the Lord illuminating the way. Despite the pain, despite the sorrow, despite the loss, my life goes on. It must go on. I know I won't ever get over it, but I do need to get on with it, for I haven't received an exemption clause that frees me from what God has called me to. I am still father, still a husband, still a pastor, still a friend, still a neighbor. While Nick may have been taken, I have been left. While his race may be complete, mine continues. This loss has scarred me, but it does not define me. Life must still be lived. Songs must still be sung."