I have a confession to make—when I first picked up “Counting the Cost,” I had a hard time getting into it. There were some typos, a lot of characters, a lot of details, a lot of back story, and I was getting lost. I set it down and came back to it last night. This time I was able to catch the kite’s tail of the story and stayed up until 3 am, finishing it in one sitting.
The year is 1935. Heck Benham works as a cowhand in New Mexico, talented with a rope, with the animals, and with leadership. He has his life all planned out—he wants to be a ranch foreman, and he knows that if he keeps on the path he’s chosen, soon he’ll attain that goal.
Ruth Reynolds comes from a different social strata. Used to porcelain tea cups, silk stockings, and plush furniture, she’s astonished to find that others live more simply than herself. When her husband brings her to New Mexico, she’s immediately smitten with Heck, but he keeps his distance. She’s a married woman and he has no right to feel the way he does.
But when Ruth’s husband attacks her, leaving her bruised and battered, Heck steps in. He carries her out of the house and off to a little shack on a piece of land far from her abusive husband. When word reaches them that Ruth’s husband has taken his own life, they are free to marry, but they’ve been living together without benefit of clergy for some time, and it will take a while to live that down.
What started out as dreamy-eyed infatuation turns into a sharp wake-up call as Ruth realizes that her days of tea parties and manicures are over if she’s living as Heck’s wife. Heck realizes that this beauty that so enchanted him has no spiritual sensitivity, and his ponderings about life and the universe are falling on deaf ears. Ruth pursues a career, unhappy with her life, and Heck can do nothing more than continue to try to hold his marriage together, making sacrifice after sacrifice, hoping that someday, Ruth will compromise with him as well.
The characters don’t make the best decisions throughout the book, but as I came to the end, I realized that they did the best they could for what they had been taught and the light and knowledge they’d been given. Heck knew that living with a married woman was wrong, but he had to choose between two evils. Should he let her stay where she was and get savaged further, or should he step in and save her life? Ruth was never taught the meaning of integrity or loyalty, but she learned this lesson, most painfully, toward the end of the story. I didn’t agree with many of their actions, but they learned and overcame, and by the time the book ended, I was satisfied that their experiences had led them to where they needed to be for their own growth.
I still feel that some of the background characters and some of the details could have been thinned out to keep the focus where it should be, on Ruth and Heck. Overall, however, the book was thought-provoking and well-constructed, and I felt as though I came to know Ruth and Heck and to appreciate their internal struggles.
(This book was published in 2009 by Inglestone Publishing.)