**Many thanks to NetGalley, Kathleen Quinlan at Random House-Ballantine, and Reema Patel for an ARC of this book!**
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Rakhi has had a tough upbringing, grittier than most, despite the fact that she lives in a slum in Mumbai, which some might argue is gritty enough. Her childhood left her abandoned, without family she could trust, and living on the street for some time, with nothing but determination and some fellow street friends for company. Ever the outsider, Rakhi is eventually given an opportunity by Gauri Ma'am, head lawyer at Justice For All (a human rights law firm) to work as an office assistant. Rakhi adapts to the environment, but her cynical attitude doesn't change much, and the arrival of a couple of flighty Dutch interns doesn't help to cheer her mood.
Meanwhile, Justice For All has adopted has-been Bollywood actress Rubina Mansoor as their poster child for a special project...but she insists on a place for her nephew from Canada, Alex, at the firm. Unlike the other interns that irk Rakhi, Alex warms to her and wants her to show him India as she sees it, and strictly on her terms. In exchange, he offers her money and a chance to pursue a future that seemed so far out of reach before. But will a dark secret from her past that has been holding her hostage to terrible memories keep her from dreaming the impossible dream?
I'm always open for a chance to learn about other cultures and become engrossed in a world very different from the one I've always known, and coming into this book, I'd hoped to gain a real sense of India. However, it was evident from the first chapter of this one that would be nearly impossible for me. For starters, Patel's narrative is full-to-bursting with Hindi words...which is fine....if you already know Hindi. Most other books I've read that use such large bursts of vocabulary either a) clue the reader in to the unknown words via context clues or b) provide some sort of glossary, footnotes, or the like to help an unfamiliar reader learn.
Not ONCE throughout this book can I think of a great example of Patel TEACHING me anything or immersing me in India's culture in a way that felt authentic, which was a bit frustrating. The word firangi, for instance, is used constantly and I looked it up out of frustration pretty early on and good thing I did or I STILL wouldn't be able to tell you what it means...and I've now finished the book. I completely understand that I can look up every word I don't know (and often do when reading a classic with jargon that's unfamiliar) but it isn't my favorite thing to do while reading and really takes me out of the reading experience.
That aside, my biggest issue with this book, aside from the slow-moving and not-that-interesting plot were the characters...namely, Rakhi herself. I absolutely could not connect with her, and actually actively disliked her for the whole of the book (until the Epilogue, where her character makes a random 180 degree turnaround into someone who is less abhorrent.) She acts more like a petulant and judgmental teenager than someone with a secret heart of gold that I felt compelled to root for, as harsh as that sounds. I wanted to like her, but I just couldn't find a single moment of this story where I could. I felt SORRY that bad things had happened to her, but that was about as far as it went.
I also found it ironic that Rakhi was so quick to judge everyone in her life, but then also was constantly annoyed by people judging her, and she didn't show an ounce of gratitude for anything she was given, or even the self-respect to be proud of what she accomplished on her own! Most of the other characters in this book are pretty selfish and untrustworthy too, even those you initially feel could be the ones Rakhi could count on...so I'm not sure why the author chose to go down that road, but it was incredibly depressing. I guess her point is everyone is terrible? I'm not sure I get it.
The author worked on this book for ten years (!) which is honestly a bit sad to me, as I don't think this is the story it could have been. I appreciate her inspiration for the tale, which she explores in her Author's Note, but this was not the powerful, emotional, or heartbreaking tale I was hoping it could be. Perhaps in this case, Such Big Dreams simply led to Such a Big Letdown.
3 stars