it turns out, all along hell was earth
is there a police protocol for grace
the spitshine of his teeth
my skin and my love are inseparable
I’ve been thinking about getting older, the way it seems like some /
years pass quick as a a snap, my life between two fingers.
the camera’s numb /
eye can’t capture memory, just pixels and pigments
we will see something impossible, and impossibly generous
I am all sky, mouth open like this whole world is a big bright drink
the way my sister’s eyes hold the starglow
this beauty is built on work
When you call waste, /
I call power.
except the rose was black and you killed it, black and you silenced it, black and it could not vote
Black oppression’s not happenstance; it’s law.
his heart, a fortress of muscle and money
Two boys, pink in their manhood
a brown man, skin tired of holding his bones
She is not kind. /
All of this is private, she says.
the sky darkens, & I remember the color of my skin
What a sin, /
it seems, to think my comfort is not temporary.
one black person’s fear :: siren
I have more than the right to die.
anything masters deemed dangerous: education, revolt, joy, or religious worship
God made sweet potato pie and aunties and mamas who know how to add just enough nutmeg.
fear and the way it slices us up thin and flimsy
nobody asked / to watch you eat / with your whole fat tongue
the trick of pleasure masquerading as love
I know I wasn’t loved by you / you ain’t gotta tell me / I know the shape of unlove
What does it mean to see my own body and think, now you’re finished. Now you’re real.
I had to impress his parents. I had to fit in the palm of his hand.
wish to God and to the editors of Cosmopolitan — just let me be pretty
did you let my body’s gift curdle in your crude retelling?
Bestiary of Bad Kisses
this would be the last time I let a boy kiss me, /
knowing I did not want him.
no revolution necessary, /
no brave needed, just loving me
I said, why are you doing this to me? What I meant: why did I do this to myself?
God blew my eyes open, as if shooing dust off the table
where coming back is beautiful and not regressive, where coming back means a natural return and not a backpedal
An mhm is softer, sweeter than yes— /
out of my mother’s mouth
the most glittering hint of mischief in her dimple
That’s the least I’m owed — a face, skin, hair so obviously, inherently, objectively beautiful it’s frozen in plastic and sold to kids all over America to hug and love and look at with the eyes of dreams.
[I find the earring that broke loose from my ear the night a white woman told me the world would always save her]
I’m always asked to consider how good a person is, what they meant versus what they said.
My country tis of thee, sweet land of white supremacy.
as American as the day is long and still called wrong
The work is always the thing that makes us whole again.
My grandmothers made America
I know when I leave /
this broken earth I’ll find them there, sweetening every hour.
These men who call themselves /
bootstrapping and self-made, somewhere there’s a Black woman and /
her unthanked hands who lifted them to where they are now.
Surely, heaven is a place where men can’t make anyplace /
a dangerous corner—
surely, there, a smile is a smile and not a taunt.
searching for sugar /
instead of skin
you’ll be surprised, my darling, at how well each hurt can fit