How to Fly (In Ten Thousand Easy Lessons) on 02-09 Jan 2021
If I am honest, I do not give poetry its due. Like my taste in music, I need some kind of entrée, a relationship, to get me to the table. I realize my folly, once I get in there and begin to savor. Happenstance is a factor as well; in this case I was nearing the completion of this author’s monumental Poisonwood Bible. On a lark, whilst erranding, I dropped into the last commercial bookseller standing in my area, Barnes and Nobles, and sought out the autographed hardbacks. Here I found a lovely book with the author’s tidy signature affixed. I thought I would sneak this in at end of year to bolster numbers for the year in Goodreads, but I had already achieved my goal and was slightly ashamed of gaming the system. Unprompted, I confessed this to my adult children over the holidays, as we passed the general topic of our year in reading.
Poetry for me requires a clean palate, separation from noise and distractions, so the black font on creamy page can find purchase. The body and brain pain must be on the cool side, at least tolerable, but not because benumbed. A hardwood floor is helpful, and a gas fire (no tending) flickering in the hearth. Certainly, no intoxicants on board to blur the eyes, nor strong stimulant to tempt to skittering – a little caffeine is fine for focus. This is how I come to Kingsolver, and she sings to me this morning. My wife just arrived from errands, this chilly January Saturday morning, with pomp and circumstance, so wrapping up for now – the body bleats for its own amusement and moils in metabolic machinations. Laying my little gem of a book aside for now.
Past midway, now, page 74. I think poetry might be my thing, for the right person of course. Kingsolver’s mystique has me in thrall. If only I had more of the quiet winter mornings by the fire to focus, without the cacophony of pixelated words from the miniature computer never far from my person. Words fail me, when I need them, I can barely remember my own name, yet my journey through this life is always close.
Poetry suits my task for small, concentrated portions of flavor and meaning. Always I would prefer small bites of carefully blended morsels, to the voluminous feeding that is so carelessly shoved in our faces, demanding continuous mastication. My senses are set that way, through experience and the magic of random genetic assorting that apparently formed in the summer of 1959. But perception, or sense, is key. I have it some areas, but not in the olfactory one. By chance I’m on a steroid to slake the ravaging allergic tendencies (immunoglobulins of a type that self associate and fire off a cascade of histamine and myriad molecules that then turn my nasal passages into swollen, unreceptive, dense masses of tissue). Last night, as I laid me down to sleep, the night light of the moon in winter bleeding through the blinds, I smelled the faint odor of old blankets for the first time in months (years?). It took me back to evenings in that little upstairs room of my grandparent’s house, of a time when my beloved grandmother would pull a quilt from deep storage to cover her grandchild. It was a revery, and if only I could slow down this rollicking life I might find that peace that passeth understanding.
This morning I completed it – poetry demands keen attention, I had to slow down. And now this program is completing my thoughts for me (how annoying and frightening). Simple to sacrifice sanctity to this convenience, even as I type now. Or trick this program by writing so obtusively and originally that its predictions are usually wrong (doing better now). But I digress....
Likely I have 10 or 20 minutes on this Saturday morning by the gas-lit fire, on an overcase January morning, before the door leading to the garage bursts open and my grandson hits the hardwood floor and begins his enthusiastic and nervous jumping (oh, here he comes now....). There goes quietude and focus on the pain running down my leg, and enter joy and chaos as his innocence is celebrated.
On distraction, it is still mostly the order of my days.... a world of deadlines and extreme focus and productivity in the creation of future vials of clear liquid, delivering life-saving drugs, and this year, a vaccine for this special virus which has upset the known world. My Saturdays are my solitude, when I distill my nightly diversions (reading in bed) into digestable summaries to tuck away in slender volumes before delivery to my basement study, the holders of my mysteries.
Kingsolver I read back to back, the Poisonwood, now this, and it turned out to be a fine decision. Many years betwixt these widely divergent missives – the one grand and sweeping and voluminous – and this one tight, spare and of pure essense. She reminds me that poetry is delightful, if we take the care to tune our ear, and so personal. I feel I know this lady, whom I’ll never meet of course, through her work. And it is a relationship worth having, her talent is refined but, mostly, her spirit is seeking and pure. We have some kinship, both spending time in the blue grass of Kentucky and both arising from severely traumatizing religious training (me thinks). I doubt either of us regret it, since emergence from the dark cellar early in life makes the whole world a wonder today. Freedom is always relished, the dark past never that far behind.
I’m not going to quote the 3 sections I marked with pencil, as is my cumbersome wont, but I will say that this slim volume of poetry enriched me and whetted my appetite for poetry (again), and not only the crude ravings of that sad misnthrope (Henry Chinaski) who can be read with pleasure in altered states. Kingsolver goes deep, gets microscopic and then, intergalactic, within a sentence or two. She connects we humans together, reminds us of what matters, and interlaced our dominion with the natural world of plants, animals and the weather than randomly swarms our globe. Now I place my beautifully autographed volume away, and return to the hot mess of chaos on our news, as our democracy absorbs the slings and arrows of human hubris and re-sorts itself in un-imaginable and un-original ways of nature. Must it be broken now that it has evolved to an unhealthy state? I hope not, I want to return to my yard and loved ones, and celebrate those lives. As the author just taught me.