After Felix is absolutely marvelous and I loved it. I couldn't put it down until 4AM, because I just had to finish it.
For about the first 40-ish percent, we get the "before" as if we get to understand and see what really went down between these two, because in the first two books in this series, this has been this tension and the knowledge that Max broke Felix's heart somehow.
Max and Felix met almost three years before the start of the "after Felix" section, and it was at a bookstore, of all places, and they fell into bed basically immediately. It was supposed to be "just sex" but of course in a romance between the MC's, it's never "just sex" 😉.
They go on for almost 5 months, and as we only get Felix's POV, it seems like only he is gaining real and deep feelings. There are moments, for sure, with Max that feels like he's definitely showing feelings, but a lot of the time he's distant, and actively works to keep his distance. There is a reason for that, and it is the reason why Max breaks Felix's heart.
But I feel like how everything went down is a matter of timing. I mean, Max certainly screwed up and he seems like the bad guy - and what he did is bad. But even as he was breaking Felix's heart, I didn't hate Max, I felt there was more to it and he didn't just act callously with him either, we got to see that he genuinely cares for Felix, he just needed time to get his head out of his ass.
And then, after it all goes down, Max waits too long to see the truth of things, and then try to get Felix back. He waits three weeks, and then he keeps missing Felix at where he lives, so it's actually 4 weeks. And Felix has seemingly moved on - Felix hasn't, not one bit. But he's hurt and he's angry and he's determined to keep from getting hurt again, so he kinda bulldozes over Max's attempts to tell him how he feels and to try to fix things.
Personally, I felt that that was a good thing. I mean, I hated that they had the chance to fix things so soon after and actually ended up wasting two and a half years not being together, being with other men, etc. Of course I hated that. But...I think it was for the better. Maybe they would have gotten together but Max wouldn't have explained things clearly or Felix wouldn't have truly believed him, and Max would have been in a less healthy place that he would have taken anything, and then they would have fucked it up all over again.
I think these two needed the time, to work through their shit. See, Max was a journalist who was partners with Ivo (from Henry and Ivo's book in the Mixed Messages series) in war zones and all that, and he has trauma from that, and tends to drink a lot. But after what happens with Felix, and finding out he is with someone, and that he apparently can't make him happen, he drowns himself in boos and random men.
For Felix, he has a boyfriend for a year before he just starts dating random men for weeks or maybe only a few months at a time in the year and a half after that. We find out that Max was drinking and sleeping with random men for a year, but then he stops, for a specific reason.
So in the present, that is two and a half years later after their break up, Max has a plan to get Felix back, as he's finally in a the right place to do so. And Felix likes to pretend now more than anything that he hates Max, but it's more that he's afraid to get hurt again more than actual ill feelings towards Max.
But where Felix might not have listened to what others have to say to him - and what Max has to say - before when everything was fresh and the hurt too much, he does now. I mean, Max takes his sweet ass time even letting on what he's trying to do, and takes forever to really talk to Felix, but Felix is more receptive to that than he would have been right after everything happened, I think.
Time heals all wounds, as they say.
In the present we get to these that the banter, the chemistry, the passion has never really left these two and their relationship. They had an instant connection and when Felix starts to lets down his walls, that connections shines through immediately just like before.
These feels like we get the best of both worlds. In the before, they have sex really fast, but in the after, it takes a longgg time for that happen, and it feels like a slow-burn to the reconciliation and it's glorious. I felt that passion all the more when they finally sleep together again.
I loved this book, so much. I loved Max and Felix together. Even when Max may seem like the bad guy, it's actually quite understandable, what he's going through, even though he handles it all poorly and acts badly with Felix. He definitely does deserve Zed cursing him out and more. But he's not a bad person and we can see he doesn't mean to hurt Felix or be cruel - he was just human and he fucked up.
At the heart of this, is a beautiful love story filled with banter, and underneath two pretty vulnerable men, one scared to let someone in and the other scared to let go, until they learn to do those things.
Wonderful wonderful third addition to this series. I absolutely loved it. I can't wait to see what's in store for more series/books from Ms. Morton. There is a character in this we meet briefly who I wonder if they'll be who the next series will focus on first...hmm.
Highly, highly recommend. Two massive thumbs up from me!