Ok, so this is a book I read knowing I maybe wouldn’t love it, but sometimes I get curious how something is done, if it can convince me. Also, my triggers for certain things aren’t really borne out of my morality of thinking certain things are right or wrong. Generally I hate things in romance books for one of two reasons: the heroine being treated badly or plot points I feel fundamentally aren’t romantic. This book while I didn’t hate it, I didn’t love it either. This type of book is what I think generates good discussion about what is and isn’t romantic, so when finished I didn’t want to rant about it as much as I wanted to seriously explain why I didn’t like it all that much. It had potential.
Most people aren’t going to like this book because it contains cheating, that was honestly not even the biggest issue with the book for me. In this case the hero and heroine cheat with each other, which like I said above I don’t hate something because of moral reasons (I can if its like abuse etc). I can be a hypocrite and enjoy a book where the two MCs cheat with each other LOL I totally get why some people can’t be down with it, but in a fiction book (typically second chance types) I can.
That being said, while I can enjoy cheating MCs, it has to be done in a way I can enjoy it, and this one was so so. As a second chance romance it was also so so, it did some things well and others not so well.
What I liked:
-liked that the heroine wasn’t celibate in separation and followed her career dreams
-it held my interest to the end
-liked the backstory of how they met and came to fall in love
-Liked both their inner thoughts mostly, it’s always so important to me that inner thoughts give you the information you want, especially in a second chance you want to know how they feel and felt during separation
-Love scenes were very well-written
-just from a writing standpoint I thought the book was well-written, I liked the authors style in spite of a lot of writing choices I didn’t like. That always sucks, finding an author where you love their writing style but know their writing choices don’t line up with what you find satisfying in a romance book
That brings me to the things I didn’t like, buckle up:
-The separation
It was too long for what the author wanted to accomplish with the story. Authors really need to think about this, I know they get in their heads and think OH TEN YEARS will be angsty but when you have to have the hero married most of that time it never works out well for what you are trying to get across as a romantic story of two meant to be people.
-The hero
He was selfish, smug and annoying for most of the book. One thing I cannot stand in second chance romance books, especially in ones where the hero is the one that did the wrong is when they come face to face with the heroine again and are smug. It just drives me nuts! Have them be humble, acknowledge the hurt they caused with sincerity. He immediately acts like everything is fine. I just didn’t feel there was enough time given to show us his genuine remorse for leaving her before he was pursuing her again all while he had a freaking wife. The book ends on a cliffhanger (that was so very predictable, I knew early on what it would be) but it also ends with him again sending her a message with a gift as she is staring at pictures of him with his wife, so again it just feels he is still being a selfish ass that is trying to hang onto her and keep his wife. Also, his reason for leaving her and never contacting her is weak as hell, typical he wanted his career more. He said he did come back but her brother scared him off, weak! He says he is only with the wife because he got swept up in her and her traditional family, but they hardly spend time together, so he doesn't totally love her, just is with her for her family and his image, weak!
-The romantic story was weak
Yes, they had some moments where it was romantic, mostly in the past chapters. I just hated the whole dynamic of how they were bought back together in the present. For one, the heroine while not celibate, had been in failed relationship after failed relationship, but the hero had a perfectly fine marriage, yeah it wasn’t filled with love and passion but it worked for him mostly till he saw the heroine again. That is a second chance romance NO NO, why would I care to read about two people finding each again like this? And it is always the hero who is fine to move on and date/get married, rarely the heroine. Of course she was miserable without him and he was fine. NOW because he has seen her again, he decides he wants her again and is willing to blow up her life to have it. He makes absolutely NO sacrifices in this story for her. She gets turned into the OW in the story and forced to leave the set of the movie he is starring in for the book SHE wrote. He took the role to be near her again, so again being selfish and disrupting her career. Her biggest breakthrough for her work and she has to leave it all because he decided he always loved her even though he has fallen in love at one point with his wife enough to marry her. Fuck that! On top of that, the cliffhanger will further make it so that she can’t celebrate her book being made into movie.
I totally get that most women who read romance like to have the heroine be in this morally superior position to enjoy the angst of it,the wronged party, but there is a line there to walk. Yes, it helps the story for us to feel bad for the heroine and how he left her, but there comes a point where it gets pathetic especially in a story like this where the hero lived just fine without her, and would have probably continued being fine if she hadn’t been inserted back in his life again by fate. Fate can be a romantic notion, but it’s only romantic when both sides were miserable without each other, in this case the hero wasn’t, so it comes across like him being rewarded with cake and getting to eat it too. He will of course get his first choice happy ending even though he had a myriad of other options where he could have been happy/fine, the heroine only had ONE option to be happy, and that pisses me off! The heroine in book after book I read in this trope can only be happy with the hero, while he can be happy with others.
The cheating they do is honestly the least of my worries in this book, I feel I understand the pull they had to each other. The heroine is sucked into him reliving their past romance, he manipulates her with all kinds of stuff like that, like he is the old guy she fell for, so I can get why she gave in. Also he says he and the wife are thinking of divorcing if not for her family. It is everything else that bothers me about their present day romance. I just wasn’t convinced he truly loved her as anything other than some vanity symbol from his past that makes him feel good, even their first sex scene was very unromantic and I didn’t think the actual sex was necessary in that scene. They should have stopped themselves there so the last sex scene felt more meaningful not only to their dynamic, but also gave some more sensitivity to the fact he was married and they knew it was wrong.
-Extra information:
What do I mean by extra information? I mean information that the author chooses to give to flesh out their story. Sometimes it is helpful and sometimes it is just mind boggling in how unnecessary it is. So in a second chance romance, we have to be told all the information of what they did in the separation. In this book we have to hear about all the fun hero had sleeping around, how he and his wife have phone sex a lot (we are spared a scene of it thank god), who he lost his virginity too who was not the heroine (it was before he met her tho), how he met his wife and it took one look for them to be attached at the hip etc etc so much that just shits all over his connection with the heroine, I don’t know why authors do this. Why do we need to know he and his current wife have phone sex? Why did we need to be told by name who his first sexual partner was and how much it hurt the heroine to know they weren’t each other’s firsts even tho he was hers? It hurts the romance story, because now we know the heroine never had a first with him, she wasn’t his first kiss, his first sexual partner, wasn’t the first girl he asked to marry him, wasn’t his first wife etc etc Of course all we get from her side is she has failed relationships bc of him, she cried the first time she had sex with someone who wasn’t him, that’s all we know of her in separation, all that ANNOYS ME! She will have one first with him based on the cliffhanger, which is always what a girl wants with a guy who has a wife he won’t leave because his career is more important. RME
All in all, I write reviews like this when I feel there was a chance there for a good story, it frustrates me so much how so many authors just don’t make good writing choices in second chance. I will read the next book to see what happens, but I doubt it wraps up satisfying. The only small hope I have is some of the hero’s selfishness did feel purposeful, so we shall see if she can redeem him, because he sucks currently, and is an adulterer on top of it.