“I am three thoughts away from the grave, / two steps away from the open door, / one kiss away from the bridge.”
So begins “Dear Thanatos,” the first poem of Traci Brimhall’s May 2020 collection, Come the Slumberless to the Land of Nod. It is a fitting prologue to a book that orbits incessantly the interplay of birth, death, and love, a textual landscape where the lines between each concept are always blurred. This makes sense, for most of the book was written during a paradigm-shifting time in the poet’s life: her divorce, her pregnancy and the birth of her son, and the trial for the murderers of her dear friend. I was expecting, on some level, for these radically different elements to fight against each other, making the poems seem uncomfortably shoved together, but the tension they foster is the wellspring of the book’s wonder.
The connecting force between these elements is, of course, the Land of Nod. In “Murder Ballad in the Arctic,” a piece that toes the line between prose poem and lyric essay, Brimhall writes, “I’ve come here looking for Nod—Cain’s biblical place of exile and the drifting space of dream in lullabies.” Pregnant with her son, she undertook an Arctic sailing voyage, hoping that the land of ice and sea would be a place she could write about her unborn child and her murdered friend. It is the ephemeral, liminal space of Nod that creeps like smoke around every poem, whispering of loss, exile, and birth.
Though Brimhall’s subjects are fairly universal, her delivery is utterly unique, and the juxtaposition of lullabies with “Murder Ballads” and unconventional love poems lends the collection an unhinged charm. However, the true gift that the poems offer is Brimhall’s remarkable gift for expression; her lyricism is imaginative, her word choice always unexpected and sometimes a little kooky. It’s as if when she sat down to write another poem, she unscrewed a jar full of pickled phrases like “seeding heart,” “boondocks opera,” and “anointing my wrist with a paper corsage.”
“Love Poem Without a Drop of Hyperbole” was one of my favorite poems in the collection, one I’ve been returning to again and again after finishing the book. It’s so hard to write a good love poem, and the very best often make liberal use of the unexpected, one of Brimhall’s particular strengths. “I want to kiss you with tongue, with gusto, / with socks still on. I love you like a vulture loves / the careless deer at the roadside. I want to get / all up in you.” It’s difficult, writing about this poem, not to simply quote the entire thing. It’s passionate and messy and more than a little dark, and it’s one of the most genuine love poems I’ve ever read. (Psst… you can read an earlier version of the poem online here.)
The speaker of these poems is spinning lyrics from the Arctic air of exile, from the womb where her unborn son curls within her, from the failure of a passionate marriage, and from the starlit field where her friend was stabbed to death. I’ll leave you with a few lines from “Murder Ballad in the Land of Nod”: “When I imagine his death, he walks through a field and doesn’t feel the men like twin shadows at his back. He recognizes a constellation. He feels the earth give a little with each step. He thinks the word help, and something does.”